suspicions

i think my work comp is rigged. can't ever connect to msn when everyone else can. prolly someone's jealous that i don't have alot of work to do.

idk, just because i am a temp doesn't mean i have to be excluded from all your little gatherings, especially since the expenses are to be claimed. and i'm not deaf, i can hear your discussions about how to get there, what to eat etc. adults.

on a brighter note, i have finally conquered the jobscentral learning challenge. with many thanks to K and K of course. now K and i are a little obsessed with klueless 5.

spoilt for choice

never knew my results could take me this far.

ever felt so spoilt for choice that you wish someone would just make the choice for you and force you down that path?

the internet is screwed.

everything is taking a long time to load today. boo.

had yog team leaders' training today. at the other end of singapore, 11 tampines concourse. that building doesn't have a name. the address is the name. how uncreative.

idk, i don't think it made alot of sense to bring the leaders to a misc location just for training. at an extreme location of sg some more. what's wrong with the kay siang road hq. i'm sure it has rooms the same size as the one that we were in. and i won't have to wake up at six and spend 1 hour plus in the train to get there.

see that's the problem with sg. they assume we're a small country, it doesn't really matter where events are. and when you complain it's too far away, they site another country as example. e.g., usa.

"travel from one end to another end of america then is far la! you travel from sg's west to east only mah!"

but idt americans have interstate stuff frequently right. and their states usually aren't the size of sg right. idk, correct me if i'm wrong. this is just a teenager ranting about long rides. a tenager that hasn't gotten over the fact that she's paying adult fare now.

okay enough about locations and transport.

the people.

yog. global event. everybody wants to be part of it. so we have people ranging from 17 to 70. i think that thomas guy's lying with that 70 year old thing but whatever, 17 to 70 sounds nice.

but the thing is, you know how the generation gap exists. between parents and children, between grandparents and grandchildren. putting 40 of us there was like a gigantic family reunion of three generations. for ten hours. making us interact. getting our opinions on issues.

confirm got problem one what.

maybe i'm too used to heartware's environment, all the young people, we just say what we want and everybody takes it with a pinch of salt. and everybody ends up making friends and being happy. but here different. you talk abit louder, try to drop abit of humour/sacarsm, the older ones start to get defensive and start staring. where did my (little bit of) freedom of speech go.

but of course, like during jj tutorials, i obviously am aware of the others being pissed, and i continue being who i am. just too bad you got a more talkative/opinionated girl in the class.

i'm not gonna take this training session as a benchmark setter for the people. too way inaccurate. we definitely need to know each other more. like any other senior person we bump into on the streets, i believe these adults have valuable input, it's just about how we get it out of them, and how they share it with us. a mutual understanding needs to be there. today marks the first step, and we've got a whole marthon to run.

112 days to go.

i think the most intersting part of today's training was when we were tasked to line ourselves up in three manners, height, age and volunteer experience level.

i'm not very tall and not very old, so i was at the beginning side of the curve the first two tries. then the third came. we weren't supposed to speak, so i held up my hand indicating 6 (events volunteered for) and voila i ended up at the other end of the curve. and suddenly i felt damn young. and accomplished.

not pouring cold water, but i hope syogoc doesn't get enough torchbearers. cuz my dad and bro missed the application date and my dad really wants to sign up. so i hope they'll open applications again. otherwise i might have to find string to pull.

fha on fri, bloody big event. expo hall 2 to hall 9. flour mill guy stopped us and handed us packages of.........neckties. Y was totally taken aback by how the guy waved her/us down. i initially thought the know each other. but, flour mill and neckties (no company name inscribed), what connection? got made in deutschland carrot hazelnut chocolate. interesting only.

lesson learnt from fha: business is scary. many of the relationships forged are just on the surface. you give me a good price, i work with you, somebody else quotes me lower, too bad, bye.

or is it "welcome to the real world, steph."?

thank god?

i understand the need for some people to have a holy being in their lives. i think i need god too, he's the one i talk to when i'm totally spooked out in my bathroom/when i start imagining weird stuff in the dark/when life's a bitch for me.

but, giving thanks to him the first thing you get a star award? not my cup of tea. imo religion shouldn't be brought to television. though i have to be grateful our star awards isn't spooky ritualistic vmas.

five days.

been part of the morning and evening crowd for a week. i've learnt that shoving gets you far. so does acting dao.

this office culture's definitely a big change from jc's. not as young a culture, and there's a very, how to put it, military kind of feel. prolly cuz the up there people are mostly from the army.

i had my earphones plugged in this afternoon, and there was a little voice telling me that the action might earn me a ticket to one for the glass rooms. but never(: still, the office was so quiet, other than the occasional call/the auntie vaccuuming the floor, the lowest volume level of my phone (it's my music player now) was still a little too loud.

that means it's really quiet, cuz the lowest volume level is what i set it to be at night when i need help sleeping.

job scope wasn't as interesting as i thought of it to be, but i still feel important. and i know this is a great big project, and what the public/authority sees will be my work.

i definitely hope for a larger workload so i dont even have the opportunity to be tempted to surf the net. i've been reading alot of food reviews cuz i get hungry way before lunch time and i always forget there's food in the pantry.

people told me to ask for a pay rise cuz of my importance, but we'll see. i already have transport to work and lunch is provided and the pantry is open for unlimited use.

oh yeah a downside: the girls' toilet doesn't have a blue bin. weirdness.

anyway, i finally remembered about the ntu sand art thing that i did at their open house, my piece spells my name and it's just beside the 1 of NAF 10. uh, just fyi. and for me to show off abit. i was part of the largest sand art montage display(:

why?

i hate moments like that. how come i'm not making friends they way i envision myself to be? what's my problem?

shopping time!

hmm new job cannot wear jeans, therefore i need stuff to go with my leftover bottoms!

need black and white tanks, long-ish cardigan, and a blazer would be a plus!(:

i'm employed!

i like meetings with bosses that are filled with laughter. i had one today. met one of the gms, and i'm starting work on monday!

tomorrow's urban freestyle, didn't see J's name on the list, S's at the info counter, while B, T and i are at the massage station. i am crossing my fingers that it won't stink like hell.

have been receiving alot of spam messages on msn, a good reason to switch to my hotmail.sg account. it makes me feel patriotic too.

and oh yes a few days back i received this email from a supposed fedex manager, telling me i've won some money. obviously scam, but just for fun i replied, and now we're having a convo with him repeatedly asking me to send him my details (and an admin fee, duh). when i finally end the chain of emails, i'll post them here(:

recommendations.

starblog's new topic (last week's) is top ten book choices of each blogger. very very useful. besides giving me recommendations on what sutff to borrow from the library (i don't like buying books), i think the topic also allows use to delve into the insides of the bloggers. how often do you see julen and vanessa talking about stuff not directly related to sex? or jane talking about something else other than climbing?

yeah highlight of today as seen from my fb status, i did the ris low boomz hand action during interview today. only realised i did it after i left the place.

i need clothes to make me look my age. i think i was dressed like i was 25 or something.

looking forward to:
1. g6.20 dinner
they are awfully nice to invite grace and i once again for their class gathering! well yeah cuz we're not from the same class and we've only really met each other during the 2008 giessen trip! this time, i must must must remember to return grace the cab fare. but it's on a monday, most likely we won't see the botak boys. which includes panz!

2. cep appreciation session
on the next monday! but argh, andy not there! i think the syogoc officers are all very nice people. i like nice people. will be nice to see them not for events reason, hopefully we'll be having interesting talk, and better, nice food! maybe merly and lyo will be there to shake hands take pictures. then sebas will go crazy again.

but as of now, i'm feeling quite lonely. and cashless.

schoolless jobless

not harbouring much hope in my re interview today. i think their office is seriously not conducive for working. dunno how those people survive.

life has been mundane with my employment status as "unemployed". even though i get to sleep late and wake up late. and watch ellen do stupid dances. and have ikea breakfast. and go on outings with people still classified as "students". and keep scoring more than a million points on plock. and go swimming as and when i like.

but i don't get cash! i'm not given pocket money! i'm paying adult fare on transport! i'm using less brains than when i doing data entry!

rawr.

upside down

i saw 9 april as 6 april. but wells at least that means my stuff has been submitted early(:

need a job. mummy says try tourist attractions. sg flyer/zoo/night safari.

but of course i'm still open to office sit-at-the-comp jobs. so please, if you have any recommendations, please let me know(:

april fools 2010

okay so ris low on 987's meant as an apr fools joke. worked. quite well. got the entire family going "what the hell?!"

well no my parents didn't say those words but their expression screamed.

i don't like seeing something i want (and worked for) being given to another person. especially if i know the said person. especially if i feel i deserve it more. but at least this time i have something a zillion times better.

milestone today! i have finished all uni application stuff!

again: dessert. seed. carpark. scream (almost). baby.