Wednesday, March 31, 2010

this is a ris low post.

if ris low in the shan and rozz show is a marketing campaign, it's working. i insisted on going home asap so i could camp next to the radio. their daily listener graphs must have went through the ceiling since monday.

but if it isn't, as in if ris low's seriously staying put at 987, then i think the management better get their heads checked. ris low doing traffic updates? idk what exit at aye/which flyover/what road she's talking about. she may not watch soccer, i don't either, but that's not a bloody reason to read soccer news like english's a foreign language. names may be hard, but respect the coaches/players and bloody practice their names. or just get shan to do it.

i want rozz back to make the show more normal. but something inside me wants ris to stay so there'll be stuff to laugh at. because if that girl is selling her dignity, i'd be happy to joyride.

highlight today: dessert(s). guys' toilet middle cubicle. goody bag room. baby.

Monday, March 29, 2010

learning.singapore2010

somebody forgot the remove the nbsp thing from the volunteer confirmation email...

yeah cuz idk what it is, but nbsp keeps appearing in the email template, so the volunteer that goes down to help send emails is meant to delete that then press send. but i had two nbsp-s in my email.

hahaha.

so yeah i've been giving tuition lately, sec one math and history (yeah i know, history?!?!?) but so far it's been okay. since history's like knowing how to read your textbook and identifying the right stuff to copy. math is the tricky one, cuz sec one's where you start algebra and get all confused with abcxyz and double negatives and brackets.

but wells i hope his results improve...

saturday i spent earth hour at the braddell sph building where the power was everything but switched off. well the lights were off most of the time, and the mike was off when the first guy sang, but otherwise the spotlights and aircon guzzled electricity. and xtina got fourth. and i think the top guy screwed his retainers while singing his last song.

sentosa outing yesterday. nearly three months after fll. also seven people, but elaine instead of raffles. she had milo dinosaur with lychee. we gained a frisbee instructor without knowing. the sand exfoliated the soles of our feet. we gulped down nearly ten bucks worth of mineral water. and i didn't bathe after everything.

photo photo! (idu why the rest nv camwhore after i left...)

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Friday, March 26, 2010

threadless!

threadless tees has very nice shirt designs i want!

like:

99 Bottles - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

Rainforests - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

LightSaver - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
glows in the dark!

The Puppets Revenge - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

Egyptronic! - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
idk i find this one really really cool.

Her Hair - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

The Cheshire - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
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Luckiest T-Shirt Ever - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

Around the World in 79 Stamps - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
but maybe more than 80 days huh.

Brushes and Zebra - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

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Alphabet Zoo - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
perfect for teaching kids the alphabet!

and this one's really cute!
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in the dark:
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Thursday, March 25, 2010

one interesting experiment.

this might prove to be one tremendously difficult mission. one which might require me to be up till the sun rises, signifying our next 24 hours. but then, it might not. i don't think there's very much for me to post.

will be visiting my friend tomorrow. she's from next door. wow four times 365 times 24 hours into history.

this is depressing. wrinkles coming in my direction. wish time could be stopped. but not during this point of time. the next month would be good. third month of the collection of twelve not the best.

i now own one coupon which lets me get the best fish with chips for one hundred cents. kudos to e hour.

my cerrebellum is tired. figure out which vowel i did not touch in this blog post. good night.

bugger.

so many things to apply for before uni! march has to be my busiest month post a's.

cep seminar ended (for me) yesterday. started yesterday too (for me) actually.

i still think it's funny that there was a singapore young ambassador among the others.

yeah yesterday morning it rained like nobody's business, somebody must have made the sky really really sad to have it cry so much and for so long.

luckily by the time the people arrived at hortpark the sun was out, my recycling garden didn't look as shitty as it did in the rain.

ganlin has SGD480 gucci belt.

still dunno the peter guy's real name. guys in ns are like the weirdest bunch ever.

overall i think response from our audience was quite good (better than expected), thank you fellow sgreans.

but aww, the other people got funvee ride. and vinid got something extra.

but wells station host dinner was good, and we realised lilian wants to train abu's dragon.

that must have been the most non-pg thing on my blog so far.

Monday, March 22, 2010

rah rah ah ah ah!

diyana and i have zero camaraderie. we can't post bad romance lyrics on her photo in fb.

gym today as a total flop. walked while watching 2012. haven't even reached the action part then stop alr.

big day tmr and pimples chose to come out.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

mein leeres kopf.

hate it when life's too uneventful for me to blog anything. which explains lack of update since thurs.

fri went to the meiji factory sale with family. it was closed for like a year for renovation, recently reopened. and i think they haven't paid their bills fully, because prices weren't cheap at all. like, comparable to anywhere else. only advantage of shopping there is you have all meiji things at the same place. the only dirt cheap stuff are those expiring in the same month/really soon. appalling how they sell healthcare supplements using the same system. like, buy two get one free collagen powder that's expiring in twenty days.

sat. yesterday. pretty much rotted at home. oh yeah applied for job. but screwed up my cover letter. because it was dug up from archives and i forgot to edit one of the two dates.

todayyyyy. thought i was going to chinatown, got a little excited after waking up, but then realised only parents going. sadded abit but then i found a whole chunk of chocolate in my bread so became happier. idk why i like going to chinatown with my parents. it's not a sightseeing trip btw, we get our food from the chinatown market. well i guess i generally like to go out with my parents, as in just three of us, cuz i like feeling like the only child.

not that i don't love my brother or anything, but it feels better to think that you've got all the love.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

happy that we're a close-knit group

got sunburnt in hortpark yesterday. reminder to self: never wear black long pants there again unless superly required. so yes i'm hoping i'll be able to wear shorts on tues.

reuse: use again
reduce: use less
recycle: to give an object another life cycle, i.e produce something else out of it.

will i get to see phelps on tues?

tuesdays with morrie is reaching due date.

i don't want to mop the floor. legs still feel like i ran a marathon yesterday.

something please intrigue me.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

god almighty?

was approached by these two girls today, who wanted to share with me "more about jesus".

should have answered, "i'm a very devout taoist, should i try to convert you?" but no i didn't la.

i listened to them patiently, though i had a few close calls with rolling my eyes. and came up with the following arguments of why religion may not make sense. i hope this doesn't go against any paragraph of any section of any law book in singapore.

Z mentioned that she used to be a free-thinker, but occasionally she would wonder why she's here on earth. simply existing to study, work, get married, raise a family, work more and die? and children will one day die too? and what happens after death? is there a god? what's he doing?

according to her, accepting christ at nineteen has helped her answer these questions. she's here because of god. god made her, god made everything on earth "incluing the oxygen we breathe in". and of course, standard evangelising line, god will help her get to heaven.

i said, i believe that there's some superior being up there. but i don't exactly care about what he's doing. and i've never thought of the reason for my existance. (because my parents wanted a child?) and i don't believe that i'll feel anything about what happens to me after i die. what matters more is how i spend my living days, instead of worrying about afterlife.

image of some chinese show just popped into my mind. the one where you die and reach the bridge then the "people" there decide where you go, and after whatever happens in heaven/hell you get to the bridge again and drink some potion and you forget whatever has happened in the afterlife, then you get reincarnated.

Z said something along the lines of "i don't think hell would be enjoyable when you really experience it."

wth wth wth wth. like she died a non-christian before.

Z continued, saying that god created us, protects us, cares for us, but we are separated from him (i'm not doing that capital h thing, nor the capital g thing) because "of sin", because "god is holy and perfect". sin is not just murder or criminal acts, she said, just any evil and negative thoughts as well. god loves us, that's why he sent his one and only (and she draws a cross in the air) son jesus to die for our sins, so that we become pure as well.

and i thought (most of the conversation was just her speaking and my conjuring replies in my head, i didn't want to interrupt her quite well-prepared speech), isn't this like, not accounting for your own actions and escaping reality? you make a mistake, you deserve to be punished. if sinning makes you go to hell and you sin, you totally deserve to head downwards. why make jesus die for you when it's your fault. why push the blame away. atone for your actions la! be a man, do the right thing!

then Z came to the part that said god created us with a plan for each of us. she has a different plan from mine, which is also different from H (her evangelising partner).

this time i answered. i don't like the idea that my life is already mapped out. i want to create my own path, i want to carve a niche for myself, i want to make decisions and not just believe that god has made his plans for me so i listen to him in whatever i do.

Z apparently doesn't like to debate. so she carried on. god loves us, so he sent his one and only son (she does that cross in the air thing again) to die for us so that we can have everlasting life, the bible said.

the bible, the bible. i had a conversation with M on this before. it is never right to use the bible to substantiate any point. the bible was written by someone who heard god's words. and so we have to think it is correct. challenge it and ask, "what makes you think it's correct?"

well because it's god's words and god's correct.

and why is god correct?

because the bible says so.

and the cycle repeats.

then Z says after she accepted christ, she talks to god, she prays to him, she knows that he cares and that he's always there for her, that's why she calls her father.

hello what happened to your biological father! i always wondered if human fathers feel jealous when their kids pray to god, calling him father, instead of using that to address their real father. why use the same name for two very different entities!

so yes, while Z tried hard enough to promote her religion, i'm just sorry i'm quite immune against evangelisation. is that even the right word for the act of evangelising? religion, to me, is still something really big and kinda full of loopholes for me to accept right now. i can't seem to compartmentalise religion and my argumentative skills.

anyway, this is not meant to stir up any racial hurricane. if any law practitioner comes across this post and you think this might cost me a trip to somewhere near the padang or the other place, please let me know. leave a message at the tagboard or email me.

Monday, March 15, 2010

little superhero girl

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sometimes i really appreciate the amount of freedom my parents leave me with, especially regarding academic decisions.

i made my own choices for secondary school, sec three subject combi, jc, and now, uni.

only this time i wish they were more involved. like, really sitting down and exploring the choices, rather than refer me to relatives. not that i don't like the relatives mentioned, i do love them and i know they have the capacity to assist me, but it's just different when help doesn't come from immediate family you know?

all my choices were mistakes in disguise.

if i hadn't gone to nh, i'll have been in rv. or even nygh. i'll have had a more fulfilling academic aspect of secondary school, leading to a more reputable jc. (but i would have missed out the awesome sec 4 year i had with 411 and the personal relationship with mr/dr foo)

if i hadn't chosen double sci with chinese lit, i would have taken trip sci with geog. i would have been in 4/3, would have almost definitely scored better than a 15 raw for 's. a single digit would have been very much achievable. like above, i would have headed off to a better jc, and scored better than a bbc/a. (but i wouldn't have grown as much as i did in 311/411)

if i hadn't put jj as my first choice back in first two/three mth application, i might not have gotten back into jj for jae. i might have gone somewhere else, perhaps somewhere that focused more on academics to allow me to gain better grades. (but i wouldn't have been part of the history-making all girls' class, and wouldn't have that many opportunities that jj offered)

see the thing is, for the choices i've made in the past, even though my life could turn out better, i've been able to see the brighter side of it.

but what if there's no brighter side to these decisions i'm faced with now?

Sunday, March 14, 2010

the queen's not rushing.

but the enuch is, like mad.

relatives have been asking/interrogating, about my uni choices. the past few weeks i've been giving the same answer:

still exploring choices, attend the open houses then see how.

and now all the open houses are over.

wouldn't say the open houses made huge impacts on my decisions, just that they have made the choices clearer. and open houses definitely help replenish my stock of stationery.

most useful gift: sewing kit cum luggage tag from nus overseas colleges.
most interesting gift: coloured paper by nus fass.

nus students were unexpectedly friendly, whereas ntu students were kinda irritatingly unprepared.

i don't like unprepared people. you sign up to help out to promote your course, you better know it at the back of your hands. don't give stupid excuses like, oh i'm an is so i don't know the requirements for local students.

the open house for foreign students ah!

mock trial at nus law was pretty entertaining, love the clever bottom-of-breath comments the defense add in occasionally and the very bimbotic mom, but not so much of the seemingly unprepared prosecution guy.

"i'm sorry, i forgot that the jury could read."

this feels like end-sec two replayed. only this time my choices might affect the rest of my life.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

rejection.

uhh i wasn't shortlisted for ypc after the interview.

that's like the second biggest rejection of my life so far.

first was council.

oh well, life's here for stuff to happen.

first application for ypc, first rejection for position in hw.

another year i'm prolly gna let ndp go. and wholeheartedly commit to yog.

station host at hortpark.

looking forward to alice in wonderland tomorrow(:

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

draw tiger draw skin difficult to draw bones.

iow, know people know face difficult to know heart.

directly translated from chinese, of course. don't have the chinese software in my windows 7 (i think).

anyway, yes that's supposed to be a statement with regards to jack neo's scandals. latest i've seen on fb, it's eleven and counting.

whoah see the sg version of tiger woods.

only this time mrs neo deserves alot alot alot of respect.

she's so forgiving, closing one eye/ both eyes at this matter, and even helped in the "negotiation" processes. the reason behind this ultimate support, love, she claims.

i believe her. call it a woman-woman thing.

but i can never tolerate cheating guys. esp married men.

gets reminded of ris low's break the banana video.

shit, i can't even blog a serious entry without eventually linking somewhere that spoils the mood.

but really. jack neo's wife should win the nobel prize for being so noble.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

twentyten/twozeroonezero/twothousandten

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whatever you like to call this year (take your pick from the title or create your own choice d), i think it's gonna be pretty awesome for me.

contented with interview last afternoon, grateful for the call this. looks forward to tomorrow and everyday that follows.

(suddenly i'm like a hugeass optimist, cue gigantic smiley face=D)

hortpark's a nice place. except for that huge monitor lizard that rustled among the bushes and finally showed itself while we were staring at one species out of the few in a fish tank all facing the same direction.

i like to see smiling joggers. but too many of them might seem as if at least one of them's mental.

old chang kee fries the best sotongs.

pondering, pondering. someone please present me with something intriguing.

no that wasn't meant to rhyme. now, accidental rhyming, that sounds rather intriguing.

AHHHH MORE ACCIDENTAL RHYMES!!!!

freaks out and runs away. (yay that didn't rhyme)

Monday, March 08, 2010

why do you sound happy?

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parents treated ri4 ben3 cun1 buffet yesterday as reward for my a's results. hotate mentai very very good.

uni seems so near yet so far.

i want to go swimming but last week's sunburn's still peeling.

"baby are you down, down, down, down, down..."

stare too long at one word and it will look very foreign.

Saturday, March 06, 2010

the big a's.

STOMP: China student tops A-levels: What chance do S'poreans have? look this is my friend the top a's scorer!

so many ways to be famous nowadays. thankfully panz's getting fame for the right reasons.

wouldn't have been where i am without teachers. (yeah like my fb status says.)

but i could have gone very much further if i studied more.

thank you all that have showed concern in one way or another, i was really touched when mr lee called me to say thank you.

my discipline master/cca teacher ic called me leh you have anot!

and yeah, thank you K for all these days(:

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

eADDICT.

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the internet refused to co-operate for like half an hour and i was panicking like shit.

sigh, youngsters nowadays. no internet can die.

yog volunteering is fun but their confidentiality form is like shorter and deadlier than heartware's. anything that talks about XXX act from section XXX scares me. too much of the pupil. i told fellow volunteers today that i may go study law because the pupil very inspirational then they laugh.

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one day you'll call me justice yeo okay!

i think i'm kidding.

anyways. ten people thought k and i were getting married. funny shit. i think it was mutual patronisation, but whatever. that elise person from taiwan owes me mystery gifts. and another taiwan bridal gown person says taiwan's famous for three things, food, bridal gowns and earthquakes.

Monday, March 01, 2010

whoohoo!

awesome, just made the biggest decision i've made since the lunar new year.

i've
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YPC!!!!!

major awesomeness. i hope i get in.