things...

let's all live our daes to the fullest. we'll never know what's going to happen the next dae, or even the next moment. for all you know, you may jus be attacked by terrorists and die regreting about things you haven't done.
he's going to recover, i keep telling myself. but deep inside, something's making me doubt that. i don't want to. i want to keep on believing that everything's temporary. he'll be with us everyday soon. he'll be cracking jokes with us soon.
but how soon is soon? i hope it's really very soon, like a couple of days. im hoping to see him his normal self on monday.

it's not my fault.

scenario: i wuz informed of a clit meeting ytd. it wuz to b 2dae, 1030, at je library. but when the grp finally settled down, guy A told the gals, mi n gal B, tt we can go. it wuz enuf for us to b present. but of cuz we din leave. we waited for guy C to arrive, den guy A saed tt all the guys go his hse to finish the proj. gals were not allowed. in other words, guy A wuz such a typical chinese tt he believed stubbornly in the belief tt guys r nt to go near gals. ok. so dismissed n i went hm.
my mum sorta blamed mi tt the proj wuz finally done in guy A's hse. hello? not my fault? the sms sent to mi wuz tt we meet at je lib to discuss the clit proj. tt's al. how wuz i to noe everything wuz b done at guy A's hse? i noe the defination of proj work. dun hafta repeat to mi. i din want it dis wae either. u shld haf seen how gal B n i looked at each other when guy A asked us to leave. wat's wif voicing out?it's GROUP WORK. everything's to b settled in the GROUP. u think the tcher ll care? hey. gal B n i did try to explain to guy A tt we do the summarising of the info in the library, den send to our emails, den we 2 go home put it into ppt form. but wat did he sae? a whole load of crap which din even talk bout wat we saed. thnx lor.