nine hours to chengdu.

it was hard to convince menghei that i didn't get into council. cuz he saw me on the grandstand this morning, supposedly with the council elects, and therefore thought i had duped him on monday.

i was at the grandstand becauseeeeeee. i was frantically playing hidayah's sister's acoustic when the clock showed seven thirty, so everyone there were like, quick quick get ready for flagraising! i asked, "then not elects how?" and somebody answered, "nevermind lah, just stand together."

so i did.

anyway. i'm leaving for chengdu in a couple of hours' time, mum already booked a cab that'll be coming at three thirty. in the morning, yes.

thanks girls for the farewell letter. thanks calvin for helping the council figure out the chords for moments. thanks tasvita xingying xueni and eeling for understanding my absence for our pw discussions.

there was chem spa trial for chem-taking chengdu-goers. my percentage by mass of iron (II) ammonium sulphate was 5.7something, while elaine had 68.something. totally screwed up.

then when i looked at my phone after we were dismissed, i saw five new messages and one missed call. there was one each from grace and megan, telling me megan has an important thing to pass to me once i'm done with spa. it's the letter lah, and i was very very touched. (reminds me of the new touch rug tee.)

went to meet my mum to get my luggage bag, then was whisked home to pack.

i realised, when mums get really naggy, it probably means they love you too much. cuz she was practically machine-gunning all the advice, faster than i could get any one of the tasks she named done. wells i guess it's not always that parents have their teenage daughter go to somewhere 4hours and 20minutes away by plane for eight days.

i wish i didn't have to go, like, so soon. it's like, i still have many things undone, i.e. school work.

pi draft five sounds like some alien language.

wei en
i sent it by mass message, and i think my phone went by alphabetical order.
huan
hey(:
wei en
thanks(:
sebas
don't leave your sentence hanging. haha. yeah i know too.
megan
you just added an extra function to my blog. an underpass.
jiabin
hopefully(: how's school?

i don't feel like ammending my pi anymore. even though ms heng made it pretty clear that i'll desperately have to cut away certain parts. and seriously change others.

guess this is what happens in a race, when you sprint at the very beginning. you expend most of the energy you have, then slow down, slow down, and finally you stop, breathless.

my finishing point's on 24th, please let me last till then.

i'm not in the 28th students' council.

journey with the council has officially ended today.

mr chua's words:

i like your quiet confidence. and the teachers, all of us are very impressed with it. unfortunately, maybe due to lack of visibility, your votes didn't cut it.

thank you everybody who voted for me, for your faith in me. i'm sorry your votes weren't of much use.

thank you everybody who has stuck by me along this journey, especially sebas calvin weien grace eeling shannon megan yuhui wenjing felice gadis davina xinyang jessica.

thank you zhiqiang weiyang yijie and zhicong for campaigning with me.

thank you all applicants for walking this far with me.

thank you all teachers who made my applicant journey really special, especially mr lawrence, mr ng, mr chua.

thank you seniors for all your time and effort spent on us.

thank you sarah for giving us your first time. in scolding people.

thank you howsun for the note.

thank you elaine and jerome for the smiley face.

thank you jiayin for saying, "i think you'll get in lah, i think alot of people voted for you."

before the voting day, i was scanning through the list of applicants, counting the number of people whom i think really deserved to be part of the 28th. then i realised if we were ranked by ability, and if the council would comprise of at most 25 people, i would be axed out.

so yeah. at that time i already sorta prepared myself for somebody to inform me that i've been rejected.

anyway. this is the fourth time this year that i've been rejected for something i applied for. in fact, i've been rejected for every single thing i've applied for in jj. probably whoever-up-there doesn't want me to take on the roles that i wish to, and maybe my book of life for the seventeenth year of my existance on earth wasn't written the way i want it to be.

but i'll still be going to chengdu, the trip's brought forward to coming thursday. and i'll be back in singapore a little bit after midnight the friday after next. mum says to treat this trip as a holiday, and worry about joining a cca after i return. mr yeo, i'm seriously considering going your route.

and please, don't do this to me. it's like you stabbing straight into my heart facing me. i'm still clinging on to the hope that things are not as i imagine them to be, but it's hard to convince myself.

many many photos.

helloooooo. council results will be released tomorrow. calvin requests to be the second to know, after seb. which means, he wants me to inform seb first, then him.

shannon
yeah(: thanks for all your support thus far((:
sinkuan
positive attitude! heh. thanks!!
jiabin
hi jiabin(:

photo-heavy post, because that's bsically what i did today--take photos. fifty plus, but i'm not posting all. for the full version, check out my photo blog. after i decide to update it, which is hopefully soon.

after a gruelling pc, we spent quite a long time in the canteen filling up our rather empty stomachs. i always like the feeling after pc, because that's when i'm the slimmest. XD

that's shannon's fishball, eaten the weien way.

we were late for econs even though the econs rep promised miss chew we'll be on time. i like econs because we get ice-cream sticks for answering questions. just talk more and you'll get more marks for active participation. got like, four sticks today.that's two of the sticks.

after econs was probably the funnest event that ever happened to me after joining s25. we were taking photos like nobody's business, i bet we made alot of noise.


yes weien can touch the ceiling. she's 0.5cm shorter than me:D

so meanwhile megan and dora were writing a story on the board, complete with an illustration. their masterpiece:
that's half of their work.
and this is the completed piece. we left it unerased after leaving the classroom to go for our bio class somewhere.

on our way, we decided that since we're such good friends and our clique's big enough to be a significant part of the class (eight people), we're getting the same shoelaces. so from room 302 to room L21, we were discussing about what colour we should have. almost-final decision: red.

bio lesson was crap because ms ong wasn't here. so we took turns to rubbish on the board.
that's my mitochondria.
and this is miss grace ang in the midst of introducing the nucleus. recorded a video of it, it's in my comp but i'm not posting it.

then we went on debating about the colour preferred for class tee. totally reminds me of foureleven days. how long we spend deciding on the brand, the colour, the words...and in the end we got out adidas white one with gold letterings

so anyway, s25's most likely to get a purple(yay!) polo tee.

"my gang", in noella's words, left bio halfway because it was the time for megan and shannon to go save lives. donate blood, i mean.
i forgot why i took this photo, but yeah, the ln was transformed to a blood donation centre. i was pretty impressed to see professionals inside, sort of expected our school people to be in charge. but then that'll be rather dangerous.

because the last time i tried to "draw blood" from an arm, i took five attempts. like yeah, i poked the mighty big needle into the arm five times. thankfully it was a mannequin. told grace about it and she says if i ever become a doctor in the future, she would come look more me only if she wanted to end her life.

there's a series of stuff to be done before one can actually donate blood. fill forms, register with your i/c, have a medical checkup done, check your blood, and only when they find nothing wrong will you be allowed to contribute blood.
filling up the form
megan accidentally checked the yes box for this question, "in the last twelve months, have you had sex with anyone who has aids or a positive aids test?" shannon realised the mistake and we all laughed like mad.
the signboard outside the ln. so yeah, we left megan and shannon to go in on their won, while the rest of us stayed outside.
the two of them in the ln. shannon looked super tensed lah.

so yeah throughout the whole process leading to blood donation, shannon was apprently very scared. said she has sorta a needle phobia. so we called her from outside (handphone), to chat. turned out megan couldn't donate blood because she has low haemo count. she was thus chased out of the ln, at least that's how they put it.
grace was telling shannon a story when i took this picture. the story's supposed to make her calm down, but hearing it made us all laugh like mad. that's nowhere near calming down.

felice had a little condition after her blood donation. instead of blacking out, she white-ed out. that was how she described the last few moments before she fell into momentary coma. fainted after the donation, most likely due to her low blood pressure. so we showered her with our tlc, and when jamuna left for lit lesson, we crapped.
that's a raisin in her mouth. she's addicted to raisins, but detests marigold apple juice. says it's a crossbreed betwenn vanilla and strawberry. how she tells, i don't know.

shannon's blood donation took six minutes. i think they collected one unit of blood only. which is like, 450ml. then we all went for gp, where we had a debate with the notion, "thbt marriage is an outdated institution." i chaired the debate, and prop won.

then we had pw consultation, where weien and i went down to get food since my turn would be pretty late since i'm second last on the class list. shannon grace and eeling were dismissed already because they had their consultation earlier this week.


oh yeah, before megan and dora left school, they scribbled this on the board:\
their second story for the day. megan says it's meant to be linked to the first one.

yeah then before my turn for pw consultation, yu feng was sms-ing me to appeal for people to join sports meet. i gave him like, eight names for tug-of-war, then he says he'll need guys for that, ask me to source for guys. when i replied that i'm in an all girls' class, he went, "aiyo. liddat then ok lor. thanks :)"

pw consultation, i think, allowed ms heng to really read through our pi. cuz she realised mine's not that complete after all.

then i went to cut my hair, and the area outside gek poh sc has nice flowers:


s25 has this smiley face thingo that i think grace started. we'll draw on our wrists, so that this happens when we move our hand:



model: weien's arm.

and today's our first day in council after our applicant post has been stripped off. because after voting we're no longer applicants, meant to be elcts but those are only for the people who successfully get through.
thanks guys for making this week really special.

a few more hours.

the blogger is very tired today. voting was a scary process, and a heavy bag completely didn't help. add to that list many many upcoming tests and days of staying back to prepare for the chengdu trip. and morning duty tomorrow, minutes before release of results.

purple=perplexed.

in times of difficulty...you can always count on us to crap.

kohconut
voting number eight would be a better choice. but there're ten votes per person anyway.
wei en
i jia all the you i have also no use if nobody votes, lol. still, thanks(:

i vividly remember how jiabin hated me for quite awhile because i objected to having his hamsters as class pets.

now s25 has a bird, that's sort of like our class pet.

and i recall how once amber saved this mynah from the drain and carried it up to class hoping we'll shower it with our tlc, but i refused to let it into the class becasue bird flu was rampant.

is this history repeating itself or what.

anyway, this bird, is most likely a baby mynah. from the few glances i've stolen at it. during gp lesson, some girls saw it fall from the tree right outside our classroom. when class ended they called to their chinese teacher, who saved it/picked up the squaking creature from the ground and put it into a paper carton.
yes that black blob of thing is the bird. pardon the photographer how weird dora looks in this photo.

and this is the bird in the paper carton.
school was pretty interesting today because i noted down a few interesting quotes from people.

first one was during econs, where we were discussing about the facotrs causing the fall of internet subscription rates during the recent years in singapore. shannon made a point abut the ageing population, resulting in less demand for internet. miss chew wasn't very convinced, until shannon said, "you ask your ah gong to blog lah!"

number two was during council meeting, where each of the comms presented their duties for our chengdu trip in week seven. gadis is in the logistics comm, and she was talking about how they would account of our luggage. "we will have an attendance list for your bags." then she added in something about giving our bags names.

number three's still from the log presentation. burp was saying that we should try to restrict our luggage weight to 10kg, otherwise it'll be pretty difficult for the members to carry our bags around. then syira commented, "10kg? like rice."

council meetings are like rubbishing sessions. rubbish as in crap lah.

number four was from yesterday's emcee course presentation prep. wei en and i were thinking about what name to give our event, which was a health roadshow. out of nowhere she said, "foodie roadie showee i don't know."

okay. for the chengdu trip, jessica and i will be the rooming i/cs. as in, we'll be in-charge of the keys, for the applicants to check-in/out more efficiently. it sounds very fun, and i think we're grouped together with a very special purpose.

i'm looking forward to chengdu trip, but voting tomorrow's making me superly anxious. like, all the paranoid-ness comes in suddenly. zhiqiang i'm sorry if i sounded harsh when you were asking me about the fas stuff, i guess that moment i was really really stressed up.

i didn't go for guitar today because i figured i need the time. bio test's tomorrow. and it'll be really wrong to screw up your first test of the subject.

and yeah, council applicants taking h2 econs will be sitting for their lecture test in the midst of our trip. something tells me our test won't exactly be during lecture. becasue we'll be somewhere doing cip.

project work grouping was out today, i'm randomly selected to form a group with xingying, tasvita, eeling and xueni.

after i typed the names out my brain went, "eh, all girls." then i rmb-ed my class IS all girls.

that's a sign that my brain's malfunctioning. all these busy-ness is going to stick with me at least till end of june hols. seb, this is where the token really comes in.

the whole point of this photo is to show the funny-shaped cloud i saw on the way to school this morning.

hot pink socks in yoga.

okay just the day after i appealed for a volunteer for me to try cpr on, i almost got my wish granted. in a not-so-nice way, shocking rather. ask me for more details.

today's pc was fun. at least the teacher cleared the skies, cuz i highly suspect there were a little misunderstanding between us and her. cuz like, we always get her for our sessions, esp lately, and her sessions are super hiong, so some of us thought it could be some conspiracy between some people.

anyway. the main thing that happened during pc today (at least the main thing for me) wasn't the least fun.

tell me i'm paranoid, but i think dora doesn't like me. we were doing relay, and dora and grace were running the final leg for our group. i volunteered to run the last bit with them, just for the fun of it. i used to do that in nh too.

so yeah, becasue we're meant to run in pairs holding hands, since i join in, i'm supposed to hold dora's hand. first thing was that she was hesitant about holding my hand. i saw/sensed it. but she held my hand anyway, only to fling it off after a couple of steps.

and i really mean fling. in front of everybody.

i felt really awful then lah. but argh. wouldn't be right to show it then.

sebas please stop asking me to relax. i hate it when i know people hate me. i mean like, who would like to know you're hated right.

rmb i talked about how my name for the council pillar thing went missing? i found it today. it was on the opposite side of my side of the pillar, on top of theresa's self-pasted poster. no idea why it's there.

so the first time i spotted it there, which is like during our first break, i took it off and pasted it back where it should be.

then during the second break, my name was on top of theresa's poster again. i'm not emphasizing on the theresa part, i'm just emphasizing on how the location has completely nothing to do with me. weien helped me paste it back.

then we sat down at a table near the abovementioned pillar. after a while i saw this guy holding onto my name walking from the middle of the canteen back to the pillar to paste it where weien pasted it. and we didn't even see anybody remove it.

dang this is scary. and aiksong's name was stuck on one of the pillars of the corridor leading to lt5.

today during yoga. i didn't feel like taking off my socks so i had my feet wrapped in elastic hot pink fabric in the dance studio.
then when everything started i realised nobody else was wearing socks. i initially thought that shannon would have her socks on too, to hide her blue toenails.but even she was barefooted as well. so i took off my socks when i was on the exercise mat lah. otherwise very extra.

i guess nhds did help. becasue there were stuff done during yoga that we did in the nan hua hall before. i was like trying to catch meiting's eye but apparently i'm not a very good eye-catcher. but yeah, nhds is part of my past, a part that i don't want to be reminded of.

there're ten sessions of yoga beginning what, last week? which i skipped because i had early leave. but the thing is, so far i'm free in school of tuesdays because i got excused from german for emcee course. but now that emcee course has ended, i've got no more reason to stay in school late, otherwise i won't be in time for german.

and even though i found yoga immensely fun, and the instructor says the exercises are supposed to help one grow taller, i'll have to skip the subsequent sessions. reminder to self: ask somebody to help me explain my absence next week.

emcee course, last lesson today. i only attended two out of the four sessions. second and last ones. but i guess today's session really marks a high end to everything. we had really intersting presentations, like how azureen's had "mr kaplapoo, mr washington d.c. amd mr a-b-c-1-2-3. she was voted the best emcee. my ver sacred secret vote went to her too.

weien's and my presentation was after azureen's. i guess it wouldn't be as fun without the girls from a02. the whole course would be different without them. sangeetha azureen felice and another one i forgot her name. i first got to know them last last tuesday during pc. at least sangeetha. basically their class is super high lah. they were doing cheers during pc this morning.

but i guess s25 can get really united at times. reminds me of 411.

ms heng sorta shocked me during project work tutorial. because of one line she said. "i'm still going to say it, the person is stephanie." i think i stared at her pretty wide-eyed-ly after she made that statement. okay at least it's for something good.

and oh i passed my math test. 2.5/5.

mannnnn. the time now is 10.35pm. i shall begin with my econs essay.

you can click on it to zoom it in. i'm surprised nobody did stuff like that for council posters.

talking to a volunteer about volunteering.

i am a very happy girl because i have received my cip hours for chingay!

logged on to youthbank because today's civics session motivated me to do so. and joyous i was, when i saw 37.0 under the column for fulfilled hours under chingay 2008. not like it's alot la, compares to xtina's what, 300+ hours last year, but wells, every great journey begins with a small step.

weien asks me to get the whole of 08s25 into heartware, but i don't think i will. at least i won't force them. if they like what i'm doing and want to join me in making a difference, i would be more than happy to assist. but i wouldn't want heartware to be jj-infested. i'm sure mr raymond won't be really happy about that too.

and yeah, the nvpc website we were introduced to during civics was, as i more-than-half expected, not updated. there are volunterring opportunities there dating back to 2005.

but wells. i'm sure the website's done by some volunteers as well, and seldom do we come across people who really make the effort to do things well.

weien (again) commented that i looked very sad during the world vision presentation. i quote her beause she was sitting beside me, and thus talking to me since there was nobody on her left. i mean like, who wouldn't be saddened to hear that millions of people die because they do not have access to fresh water and that there are at leasr 125 million kids out there who are not the very least educated? and that the average person in kenya only receives $5 worth of healthcare services yearly when the average person in US receives $1000 worth of that, per annum?

but the thing is, i'm not really glad that world vision is functioning on a christian basis. that even their mission quotes from the bible. they may say that they're helping people regardless of race/religion/gender, but by operating on that faith, aren't they the very least evangelising? and the thing is when people they've helped actually convert to christians, most would be believing in that religion because it is the exact faith that helped them reach where they are. it is a sense of repaying a good deed, not the deepest, most sincere form of believing in God.

i don't know. i would still support their service missions, but i won't be part of them.

jj should have got the student volunteer corps to present before world vision, because seriously, that one sounded more possible, as in within reach, for us students. worldvision is like, rescue missions overseas and all.

okay. i'm the cip rep, and i should be wrecking my brains to think of what 08s25 can do. i'm sure they won't mind visitng the boys' home. but there's no meaning behind it, it's like a desperate call for cip hours.

cip stuff aside, now council.

i thought that the chengdu trip was only for the confirmed council elects. until i finally asked janice just now and she says it's for all 39 of us. okay. i'm still settling my rooming details. it's a pretty confusing process.

jessica asked me to room with her last friday. i said okay. then today janice says to sms her to confirm our roommate. theresa caught me before chem lecture, asking me to partner yitong instead because jessica's rooming with jess, and if i room with yitong, she'll room with elaine.

i agreed because i thought that jessica really pang-sehed me to room with jess and yitong's left unpaired (sounds like an electron). and i don't think it's fair for anybody to be thrown around, partner-less. i didn't think much about the theresa-pair-with-elaine thing, until i smsed ___i__. so now i'm trying to partner elaine, who says she doesn't mind, but first i'll have to get theresa's consent because i took her partner. yitong would be fine with anything because it's not confirmed that she'll get to go.

___i__ says it all boils down to the ugly politics we've got within applicants. which makes me sorta glad that i wasn't a jj leader before all of this, so i'm not part of anything. like ___i__ says, if i don't know now, then it's better that i don't know at all.

smsing ___i__ 's comforting, i don't regret applying for council because of all the friendships that we've forged in this short period. though you've never really been close to anybody among the crowd of thirty nine, you know that there's always somebody there when you need it. thanks applicants.

oh yea talking about applicants. we've got these boards in the canteen showcasing our self-descriptive posters, which are supposed to bring our names to a wider audience so as to rally more votes.

huai ching and i shared a side of a pillar because he's number seven and i'm number eight. our side of the pillar looked like that last thursday:

then today i re-visited the place, and realised my name's gone. instead of my name was our (yijie zhicong me weiyang zhiqiang) council poster, which i pasted, below the original position of my name.

the card dropped several times last week and i put it back with blu-tack, like i did for another pair i forgot who. which means, if my name-board dropped, it would have been on the floor/on the table where everything that dropped down would be put on, waiting for some kind soul to put back up.

but we (my clique in s25) searched the floor and saw no signs of my name.

dang i hope somebody really stole it back home to worship, at least then it would be in good hands.

siian was saying he couldn't recognise me from my baby photo, the one i used for my self-descriptive poster. i told him he's not supposed to. that's the exact point why i used my baby photo, not my recent photo. also because i couldn't find a nice recent one of myself la.

an exerpt from the civil defence training on saturday:

when firemen attend to domestic burns, they see a trend in what people apply on their injuries. malays tend to apply butter, margarine or cooking oil, chinese tend to apply soya sauce or vinegar, indians tend to apply honey or condensed milk, and the univeral "soothing agent" is toothpaste--nearly everyone uses it.

but the thing is, all of the above substances don't work, because every one of them, in actual fact, traps heat within the burn.

toothpaste may appear to be soothing to the burn in the beginning, that's due to its methol content. after that wears off, one will experience a stinging pain where the burn is, because chemical X has stepped in, and it increases the madnitude of the burn. voila.

so at the end of the day, the simplest solution to cool down not-that-serious domestic burns is to wash with running water. don't apply a wet cloth, because similarly, it traps heat.

i said "not-that-serious domestic burns", so please don't wash yourself down with running water when your house catches fire and tell the fireman that my blog said so. a 5% burn of your body surface area is considered dangerous. to measure that 5%, use your palm (w/o the fingers), the size of your palm is roughly 1% of your entire body surface area.

and oh yeah, i got pretty high talking about my cd training, and realised i've haven't had prac for cpr, any volunteers? i think i'm kidding.

monday morning's post about sunday.

i am blogging now because i woke up at 6.52pm.

sk
yeah it was fun. idk why they like to cancel trips. makes me super demoralised.
sinkuan
grand grand senior! hopefully. voting's this thursday. uni now?
juan
but this kind of thing makes people super confused. i don't like. haha.

council meeting at 7.10 later, i'm still thinking if i'll go running.

doing work from around seven till eleven makes me feel accomplished. but i only managed to complete chem tutorial, gp current affairs, econs tutorial and econs report. last one i just finished.

gp file's supposed to be due tomorrow right. i've got stuff inside alright, but i'm sure it's not everything i'm meant to have.

reminder: bring calvin's skills pack. and there's no pw lecture tomorrow later.

OH. i forgot to blog about my full marks for chem test. when i saw c8h8 after i was done with my calculations, i thought it was a goner. the eeling told me on fri morning that i got 10/10, and it was confirmed when they passed my script back to me abd when i double checked with the answer scheme.

math test is definitely gone though. grace got 32, which mr chu said's the correct answer, and i got what, 148.something that's four decimal places. lol.

ok, bedtime.

beezeee weekend.

oh yeah. i just realised i've got to complete whatever's undone for econs tutorial three too, because i promised miss chew i'll make up for it during the weekends since i didn't complete what i was meant to during the week due to other committments.

and i don't like people telling me, "everybody's busy. if others can do it, why can't you?"

i'm not finding any excuses for myself or whatever, but please don't compare me with other students. for one, i take five subjects. and that takes up, including transport, more than four hours each session, which easily adds up to nearly ten hours per week.

i'm not saying that i've got no life because of council, but it is taking up a fair bit of my time, esp during the past few weeks. i would do my work if i had the time, but i do stuff according to when they're due, so yea. it just so happens that council has really tight deadlines for stuff, and it's not as if i left all my school work undone.

number three is volunteering. i fully understand that i'm volunteering voluntarily, which means i'm doing something not compulsory, but that doesn't mean anyone can strike that off my list of commitments and say that i'm actually a pretty free person since i've got no cca.

okay i'm done lifting that off my chest.

civil defence training today was pretty fun. esp the last part where we did ipp with real smoke. real as in you can really see it la, but it's not real smoke from a fire, i think it's some perfumed vapour.


it was pretty mundane in the lecture room, so i guess all i could do was to participate in ap and talk alot. like, answer questions and ask questions, stuff like that.

we went through five modules, first aid, cpr, fire safety, emergency procedures and unconventional threats.

during first aid the instructor was talking about how you can only kill yourself (by bleeding) when you cut your arteries. which means you won't die, take note you emo people, from slitting your wrists. because the blood vessels you cut are veins.

and i asked about amber's case,the other time she was cutting her arm length-wise with a compass. the instructor said that if she actually cut deep enough, she would have punctured an artery. so amber, be thankful you're still alive.

oh they sang a birthday song to mori before everything. that girl's twenty years old.

cpr. they sabo-ed the birthday girl to do it at the end. looked fun but i didn't go. check for foreign object(s) in airway, look listen feel for breathing, check for pulse, thirty compressions, two blows, repeat cycle another four times, check pulse, check breathing, if need be give rescue breathing (twelve cycles of five-second apart blows), then check pulse and breathing again. if person still unconscious, repeat the whole process.

and yeah, as first-aiders, we're supposed to only preserve lives and prevent the condition(s) from deteriorating. we're not doctors or surgeons, we don't save lives. which means, people, don't blame first aiders if the casualty dies before the ambulance comes. when you have to go, you'll have to go.

fire safety training was a little like what i went through in nh. we only did the practical after everything, because it was raining outside till a while before we ended, when it reduced to a light drizzle.

lunch was with ck and mori at queensway. i swear i felt extra. and i saw MISS crystal. she took awhile to recall me. it was like:
steph: (waves frantically)
crystal: (after three seconds) stephanie.

emergency procedure module was theory lor. like if your clothes catch fire you should stop drop and roll. these three steps quickly became an inside joke. we started off the module with a pck total defence video.

unconventional threats, the beginning was spent analysing the 911 photo. there's a face and a wolf among the smoke. no joke. i don't know about the wolf, but everybody saw the face. the instructor said it's osama's face, but i could only make out two eyes, one nose, one mouth and hair.

then we went for ipp prac. in-place protection, if you were wondering. yeah we did it in nh in sec three, that time w/o smoke so we don't know how well we did it. but this time round they put the smoke, and our "room" was quickly perfumed and very hazy. perfumed because that's what the vapour smelt like.
we were supposed to "stay low" because fresh air's meant to be denser, but the instructor said to "stop, drop and roll." laughed like mad. took photos, while STANDING.


evonn and i both have asthma, so we were put into different groups, to "test" how well the sealing was done. if it was real toxic gas we'll all have died la.

the first thing the instructor said after the smoke was activated was, "you guys suck." lawl.

certs were given out after that. mori says ck has more than one of that already.

fire safety prac was after everything. i used the co2 extinguisher. the one which freezes the nozzle because what's coming out is actually dry ice. the instructor sprayed it on his shoes so that it would collect, and we passed it round. supposedly not to hold more more than ten seconds.

and i don't know why vikram and the other guy are called mr and mrs smith. but they do get intimate, like really. makes me wonder what their school actually does. and there's another guy who can beatbox w/o the mike, which was way cool.

tomorrow, i'll need to complete all my work and revision. megan's nick was, "DO CHEM TUTORIAL UNTIL DISCUSSION QUESTION ONE OR GET BLACKLISTED." something like that, caps included.

the geeks get the girl.

HAPPY FOURELEVEN DAY!

kohconut
see first. tickets are not on sale yet. i don't even think i'm going. not my kinda thing.
kaiwen
i guess it'll be, for people who like events like that. they're making it seem very grand, putting up a big banner at the grandstand and countless posters all over the campus.

from juan's blog:

Can God create a rock so heavy that He can't lift it?
If He can create a rock so heavy and couldn't lift it, it goes that He is not all powerful.
If He cannot create such a rock, it also shows that He is not all powerful.
Hence the theory to describe God as omnipotent(powerful in all ways) isn't valid.

If God is able to prevent evil, but not willing, then He is malevolent (promoter of evil)
If God is willing but not able to prevent evil, then is incompetent.
If God is willing and able to prevent evil, then where does evil come from?
If God is both unwilling and not able, then why call Him God?

i just thought it was pretty interesting. but i think, if we believe in "a being hiding in the sky" then we shouldn't question ourselves. makes the whole religion thingo obsolete.

photocopied the council posters. a hundred copies, i still have around thirty with me now. jiacheng's group, with tommy dom and jessica, zapped 350 copies. so it's like, in weiyang's words, every two steps you take, you see one of their posters.

and the best thing is that they stuck it on the toliet cubicle doors facing inwards (towards the toilet bowls), so whatever business you're doing, they're (really) staring at you.

because they have their photo on the posters, if you haven't realised.

makes me think twice about visiting the washroom. with the exception of the certain few they didn't invade.

i'm really thankful for my s25 girlfriends who stuck (and are still sticking) with me through this hectic voting period. thanks girls, for always leaving a place for me in class, accounting for my presence, cheering me up, trying to lighten my workload, giving me advice, and helping me with the putting up of my council posters.

yes calvin i know what you want. but i don't make empty promises. thanks for all your help this period too, all the "#8!"s and propaganding and printing stuff for me and lending me your gp skills pack. though we didn't use it today.

and thank you seb for all the reassurance.

weekend's the time to catch up on work, and mind you do i have a hell load to work on. tests crawled their way into my timetable for next week, and i don't think they'll be as easy to kill as the rat that i saw yesterday morning which was apparently run over by a car.

i don't know, but i don't feel really good about skipping training for the past two weeks. i should resume running soon.

meanwhile, list of important stuff for steph:

-15/4's chem test
-17/4's bio tutorial test
-chem WA1
-chem VA04
-complete econs report by 14/4
-send xueni econs report
-fill in chemical bonding lecture notes
-PI second draft by 14/4
-ask mdm chee about nyaa
-gp, four current affairs writeups
-civil defence lesson tomorrow!

i realised pats on my shoulder makes me feel empowered. it took me three occasions to come to the conclusion. first time was john, after o's results release. second was seb, yesterday. third was mr chua in the canteen today, while i was sticking blu-tack on our council posters. but i guess it has to do with the people/the intentions. because a certain __e____ person did it to me on wed and that had serious adverse effects. i think i screamed pretty loudly then.

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somebody tell me i'm just being too sensitive. or that there's this evil devil living in my brain making me think those thoughts. it's like, i thought it was over. until i saw that. maybe it's not that simple. or maybe i just need to learn to really trust others.
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lunchtime address, pw exhibition, TALENTIME TICKET.

I'VE GOT A JJ TALENTIME TICKET WHO WANTS TO GO WITH ME. you've got to buy your own ticket though. got the ticket for being the third person to answer correctly the date of talentime finals this year.

i'm pretty postitive i screwed up my gp test today. because my brain wasn't working right since the white blood cells took over it to sent signals to the rest of their kind to agglutinate and engulf the whatever foreign particles that invaded my body to result in my being sick.

okay that was a long and unnecessary paragraph. but anyways.

i signed up for javelin for jj sports meet. i'm not happy with my third position last year.

lunchtime address was short and (i don't think it was) sweet.

"hello people, i'm stephanie from 08s25 (cheers) and my voting number is eight. please vote for me, thanks."

as expected, chengyi beatbox-ed.

jiacheng sang. someone near me was like, "ehh you don't have hair liao don't try cutting it hor!" cuz that was exactly what that guy did for hall rally. but yea, he sang with chengyi beatbox-ing in the background.

i had half a mind to say, "vote for me because i won the talentime ticket!" but wells. not very nice huh.

pw exhibition was rather interesting. i rmb abbie's walt disney's prject, woon ting's toilet bowl one, helmi's qin shi huang one.....wait i actually rmb alot.

and i was pretty much offended when the helen keller group girl said i can't do my pi like what i did, i need to have alot of info about that person. i bet my intro was clearer than hers can. though i must admit it still can be polished up la. but she was all, "ehh no! you cannot do like that one! must have alot of background info about the person! otherwise you won't be able to write a good pi!" i didn't want to, but i just shot back, "i got me for my pi." then she replied, "oh! that's very good already!"

talk about contradicting yourself. ANYWAY.

econs discussion was chop chop. i'm supposed to look for the equilibrum price and stuff like that of cars, no idea how i'm going about completing that.

math test quiz's on friday, and i haven't even completed tutorial 3b. tell me i screwed up my life.

and there's civil defence training this sat with some cssp facis, nine to five. i bet i'm going to have fun being fire(wo)man for a day.

eighth april 08.

jon
what if i told you i never knew your birthday. can't blame me, i don't know you inside out like you know me.
juan
er.....we're not in that funny teacher-student relationship anymore. you're just my senior now, which means you're welcome to read my blog anytime anywhere. it's just another website anyway.

today before morning assembly!!

council applicants were standing at the grandstand. then mr koh came over to "look" at us.

i swear he stared at me for two whole seconds. not those fierce stare la, but those, "hey i recognise you from somewhere" kind of stare.

then after that he jokingly asked me to speak to the entire jj population about the government.

i dunno. this is weird. like, why would i be outstandingly prominent to the principal.

and calvin says i look very different up there.

anyway. went home early today, not feeling too well. i guess my timeable's taking its toll on me.

came back from the doctor's and looked at my phone, which i didn't bring out, and horrority, five new messages and one missed call. never knew i was that wanted. heh.

pi's returned, i'm pretty fine with my grades. 500 word limit, i'll see how else i can stretch it.

oh yes. yesterday during civics we had a talk by ms suzanne zheng, an image concultant. she was on the topid of telephone etiquette, and the example she gave was, "hi i'm jonathan, may i speak to stephanie please?"

heng yun ping jonathan is this a coincidence or a coincidence. lol.

Shakespeare in Love
Layla Kaylif
He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A sinister romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see

Teachin' torches to burn bright
She's hanging on the cheek of night
A snowy dove trooping with crows
He never saw true beauty till tonight

She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love

He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A glittery romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see

His bounty's boundless like the sea
His love is endless, just as deep
The more he gives the more he has
`Cause both of them are truly infinite

That's Shakespeare in love

it's been two years, since you went away.

qing ming shi jie yv fen fen.

ms chua
thanks thanks! oh. did you like, google your name to find my blog?

went to sao3 mu4 with my family today. not the real sweep the grave la, sg so small where got grave let you sweep.

and after burning so much paper offerings, i've sorta decided to die a christian so it's more environmentally friendly, no need to burn stuff for me.

phone got very much overheated because i was standing very very near to the burning urns. thankfully it could still work.

after we left from yishun columbarium to mandai's, it rained, and very heavily too. photo-taking opportunity. though my phone's beside the keyboard right now, i shall not upload the photos into the comp. yet. because to post them up, every single photo has to go through my professional approval, which includes the process of editting for some, and that will take up alot of time.

i'm doomed. tomorrow report to school by seven, and i have yet to finish my chem tutorial. there's an emcee presentation on tuesday, and weien and i haven't even done anything.

oh man oh man oh man. don't expect an update from me tomorrow. if i do update, it'll be a plesant surprise.

we're gonna own c-ss-p!

seb's virus got stolen and it just killed his internet. how wonderful.

kohconut
what's with the funny language.
kaihui
yea thanks! numero achto. that's germanish spanish for number eight. XD

cssp challenge cohesion training today, i think i'm losing my voice.

started off the training by getting to know three people. name, favourite idol, birthdate, favourite food, favouite pastime and favoutie movie.

then, because we were to write all the details on a piece of paper for each friend we get to know, we had to put the three pieces of paper into a bag. then the exco will lucky draw and get lucky people up to tell everybody about their new friend.

and i got picked. i was supposed to point out sharine from the crowd but i pointed out shermain instead, luckily they were the same angle away from me so it didn't look so awkward when sharine came forward.

she's my nh senior btw.

so yea, i got 4.5/5 right. because i forgot the month of her birthday. it's 4 august.

they awarded prizes to the top three, and because only two got full marks, i got a prize too. the bag containing the stuff was marked xs, so please guess what i got. you don't get anything for making the right guess though.

i'm in group three! mori's group. she recognised seb and i when we just reached mayflower's canteen, and asked where jon was. (at guitar prac, poor guy.)

group three's called power rangers. i don't know why. but i like. one exco guy called us powDer rangers once.

our group cheer's like, jj + rj + acsi. because i started it off, szeling continued, and the acsi people finished it off.

there was a group called coconut tree, i was surprised it's not seb's group.

being small makes me the target for alot of stuff. like being carried on a super makeshift stretcher(though it was rather stable)and being dressed up. mori took a photo (or more) of me being wrapped in newspaper.

our group was asked to form a chain of 4m with the stuff on our bodies, to earn $60, or sixty points. we managed to make it 12m. every extra metre was worth $5. and the guys didn't even have to take their shirts off.

points earned from games were converted to monopoly money to redeem stuff to make our "transport to carry one person across" the obstacle course. only after we made theh stretcher did we realise the person can actually be carried/piggybacked, so we didn't use the stretcher. the shirt we used to make it had "are you MAD?" at the back, so that sorta became our team slogan. we'll scream "are you MAD?" at random moments.

MAD stands for make a difference btw, youthbank's slogan.

so yea, power rangers came in first for the obstacle course thing, but tigers(group four)won because although they finished last, they finished it(very clearly) as a team.

left mayflower sec at somewhere near six. raining like who-knows-what. seb and i were both carrying pink umbrellas, and his was brighter.

then i went to toa payoh to meet my family, had dinner and mrt-ed home, where some guy touched my hand. i stared back.

my voice now is like, when i broke camp on 5th jan. throat hurts. thankfully i didn't go for the vj rahrah-ing, otherwise it'll be worse.

campaigning for council with zhiqiang, zhicong, yijie and weiyang. have.to.think.of.campaigning.stuff. more brain cells are going to be killed.

watch out.

much stuff.

i don't know what to blog about. must be the lack of exposure to the blogosphere.

calvin
cannot jia too much you. otherwise get fat/slip and fall how? haha. thanks anyway. and of course the song's nice, otherwise it won't be put up here. (:
tracy
yay! but heh i found yours first.XD
yangping
yeah(: i'm number EIGHT.
shannon
this blog's meant to be HOT. no i'm kidding. thanks thanks!
ms chua
because the mike doesn't do justice. i bet i sounded weird in lt2 and in the hall too.
melly
you can read it again? haha. the person who tag's nice too laaaaa. =D
pamela
hi hiiiiiiiii(:

okay. ambrose called me last night to inform me that i'm a confirmed facil for cssp challenge VI. seb tried to bluff me that he's rejected, but wells, sometimes i'm clever. sometimes only.

calvin passed me the nyaa book today, and i think we're supposed to start the whoe thing from when it was issued, meaning 1st april. BUT. my guitar started november 27 last year lehhhhhhh. i'm hoping mdm chee will let me start from then. cuz otherwise my chingay won't count as well.

i looked through my baby photos because my mum showed them to me and I TELL YOU. i was really cute when i was a baby okay. but don't want to show you photos. at least not now.

there's supposed to be vj ushering+cheering tomorrow, but it's like voluntary. so i'm not going, use the time to do work before i leave the house for cssp cohesion training tomorrow.

oh yea. miss ong told me something very interesting before she began on bio today. "councillor why sit at the back?!" lawl.

chiuping forwarded a mail:

Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people.

1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.

During my second month of college, our professor
gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student
and had breezed through the questions until I read
the last one:

'What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?'
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the
cleaning woman several times. She was tall,
dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?

I handed in my paper, leaving the last question
blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if
the last question would count toward our quiz grade.

'Absolutely,' said the professor. 'In your careers,
you will meet many people. All are significant. They
deserve your attention and care, even if all you do
is smile and say 'hello.'

I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her
name was Dorothy.

2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at11:30 p.m., an older African American
woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway
trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had
broken down and she desperately needed a ride.
Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.
A young white man stopped to help her, generally
unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man
took her to safety, helped her get assistance, and
put her into a taxicab.

She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his
address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a
knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a
giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A
special note was attached..

It read:
'Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway
the other night. The rain drenched not only my
clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along.
Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying
husband's bedside just before he passed away... God
bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving
others.'

Sincerely,
Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those
who serve.


In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less,
a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and
sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in
front of him.

'How much is an ice cream sundae?' he asked.

'Fifty cents,' replied the waitress.

The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and
studied the coins in it.

'Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?' he inquired.

By now more people were waiting for a table and the
waitress was growing impatient.

'Thirty-five cents,' she brusquely replied.

The little boy again counted his coins.

'I'll have the plain ice cream,' he said.

The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on
the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice
cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress
came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the
table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,
were two nickels and five pennies..

You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had
to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a
roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if
anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the
king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by
and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the
King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did
anything about getting the stone out of the way.



Then a peasant came along carrying a load of
vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the
peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the
stone to the side of the road. After much pushing
and straining, he finally succeeded. After the
peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed
a purse lying in the road where the boulder had
been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note
from the King indicating that the gold was for the
person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The
peasant learned what many of us never understand!

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve
our condition.

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a
hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who
was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only
chance of recovery appeared to be a blood
transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had
miraculously survived the same disease and had
developed the antibodies needed to combat the
illness. The doctor explained the situation to her
little brother, and asked the little boy if he would
be willing to give his blood to his sister.

I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a
deep breath and saying, 'Yes I'll do it if it will
save her.' As the transfusion progressed, he lay in
bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did,
seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his
face grew pale and his smile faded.

He looked up at the doctor and asked with a
trembling voice, 'Will I start to die right away'.

Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the
doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his
sister all of his blood in order to save her.