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csl gave us twenty trilympics cards each to sell, lol. ten cards=2 cip hours. like i need those meagre hours.

basically i don't like doing this kinda sell ticket thingo.

for every card sold, volunteers will run 400m. that's one round around a normal track. 100 people from each house will be nominated to go, i hope i can go. i'd rather do the running then sell the cards. and if i do the running, it'll be after 8pm, when the sky is dark the way i like it. heh.

cuz yours truly's down for cdc/first aid duty from 1pm-8pm. imagine the number of heatstroke cases i'll face.

what do you do when people come to you saying they've got heatstroke?
call police.

dang seb your call police thing is still stuck in my head.

pw. our wr sounds screwed. because i did it, and i think i'm pretty long-winded. to put it nicely, i do too much elaboration.

my mortal's ill. GET WELL SOON OKAY!

jurong grc ep day

went down for the jurong grc emergency preparedness day today. mr lim boon heng wasn't there, or at least we received no news of his presence. haha. anw, yeah i taught cpr, partner with juanita.

good thing is, two of us together, we can teach cpr in three languages. english, malay, mandarin.

i definitely had help from zhenghui for the mandarin part(:

we were let off at around 12.30. cousin daryl was having his second birthday party, so i went down (yeah in my cdc shirt and fbts) to meet the rest of my fmaily who were already there. had lunch and played with the kids. standard procedure for every party for my cousins. daryl and his elder brother.

oh yeah, scdf's kind enough to sponsor food for our j2 farewell party, so i don't have to fret over what kind of pizzas to order.

it's rather late and i've got much stuff undone, but i'm tired. while on the train back home i napped and dreamt that i was teaching cpr. "you have to open your mouth wider when blowing!"

call police.

xingying
lol. now you do. rahhh. don't. like. math. teacher.
ainul
hey! well i did send c1 some photos right. the rest of the photos...i did give you all the link too right? otherwise uhm, email me to let me know exactly what photos you need, i'll see what i can do. hope that won't bring you too much trouble(:
tracy
whoah you should have seen the way he was "eyeing" xueni man. very scary. when he came over to my table to solve my problem i was mumbling (under my breath of course), " ehh could you do the question on the board. don't come over leh, i'm scared of you." but yeah, maybe there was a little exaggeration in my post. haha.

steph is tired because our connect sg recee involved walking alot. which resulted in weird blisters.

training today was pretty hardcore. though there were slacking moments too luh. lydia "scolded" us for not walking as a group during recee, then left, and came back after a while to say that still, she's very happy with our group because we do discuss stuff together and when she was scolding us, we actually looked attentive.

leon stuck a masking-tape sticker that read "i love to act cute" on her back while she was power napping.

i think block 13's going to be awesome. even though our location isn't exactly wonderful with all the construction works going on and the rather dangerous (but convenient for relief-ing yourself) canal, and the fact that the students we're in-charge of are all guys (with me as the only female motivator so far). but, so what? we've got all the motivation that we need. and maybe more than anybody could ask for.

call police. that's like, our tagline.

jiabin tagged me!

Write 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same amount of people as minutes it takes you to write the facts.

1. i'm going to teach cdc tomorrow.
2. s25's becoming more and more like 311, which isn't a good thing.
3. i think i'm going to screw up my bio retest.
4. i haven't been back to nh for ages.
5. i'm 151.5 cm tall.
6. i hate new teachers.
7. somebody sponsor me a new phone?
8. tweety bird went missing today.
9. i'm redder now.
10. i prolly need guys in my school life to make it more normal. but that's not happening in jj.
11. i absolutely am not for the idea of sentencing people to do community service.
12. i should begin really preparing for german oral.
13. i miss bio taught by mdm yong.
14. i miss hardcore studying of a-math alone.
15. the lack of chinese lessons aren't doing anything to me. except that i get tongue tied sometimes when speaking mandarin.
16. i like purple.
17. i love block 13.
18. i love c1. and all cssp people.
19. i love chingay'08 leaders.
20. i'd probably never stop volunteering with heartware.

Done... going to tag tracy xingying sebas shannon aaron

YOU HAVEN'T SMS-ED GEN!

jiabin
yeah. that's why it's horrendously annoying. i still have that habit of attitude-ing new teachers. i think my new math teacher hates me. but it's okay i don't really like him too anyway. haha.

rahhhhhhh german oral's in octoberrrrrrr. ich haben fast nichts vorbereiten.

if i have to blog at his kind of interval, i.e. once every three days, i dunno, maybe my grades will soar, or maybe i'll die from being deprived of the comp.

this first week of term three's not really nice for me, considering all the tests and the new teachers.

i just don't like new teachers luh. but that's only when they're new. if they can change my opinion, good for them. otherwise, too bad. i still rmb this science teacher i had in primary four. she was relief while my other science teacher was on maternity leave. she never really taught, she just spent every single lesson writing stuff on the board for us to copy down. the first few lessons i think i refused to do anything in class. then i progressed by writing uglily. but then i sort of turned good and went by her orders to copy the stuff nicely. but thankfully it didn't last long since maternity leaves then were only two months.

but now my math teacher, other than the fact that he shares the name of a particular instructor i don't exactly like an vice versa, i think he's highly egoistic. it gets really annoying in class when all i want to do is to get him to impart enough knowledge to me for me to complete my tutorial, yet he insists on doing everything his way, resulting in us going one whole round before returning to solve our problem, or sometimes even miss the problem. because there's this laguage barrier. he's malaysian you see, so his english isn't exactly top-notch. i questioned that in his first lesson, whether his english-impairedness would put us at any disadvantage. well, being the man he is, of course he said no. but i found out otherwise today, cuz i had to use alot of guessing to try to get what he was trying to get through to me. i doubt i really get it though.

and weien was so fed-up with how he always screams at us to "stop your pens and pay attention to the board" that she mumbled in her seat, "how do you stop your pen?" then proceeded to command her pen with, "ehh stop running!"

dora and i laughed like mad with her after that, and the teacher stared at us like i don't know, we were spewing vulgarities.

he just has a problem with people being happy/amused/joyous/insert your preferred word. maybe because he has nobody to make his life happy enough, such that he has to deprive us of the exact item he lacks. like the, "if i can't get it, i don't want anyone else to."

which sucks pretty much.

i feel rather endangered with him as a teacher, especially in an all-girls class. i've got this feeling we'll experience outrage of modesty like, real soon.

dang. this post wasn''t supposed to be about my math teacher.

the point is, this weekend's rather hectic for me. connect sg's 9-7 tomorrow, making it ten hours, like the last week. so maybe it wasn't right to tell my class people that it won't take up much of their time. because i think it does.

and sunday, yours truly will be teaching cpr, can you believe it. you can visit me, i'll be at palm springs garden, or something along that line, for the jurong grc emergency preparedness day. jurong grc. which means mr lim boon heng may be there, considering he's the mp and all.

reminds me of my emceeing. "good morning minister, prime minister's office, mp for jurong grc, mr lim boon heng, operations officer, jurong npc...distinguished guests, ladies and gentlemen. welcome to the youth partner scheme competition award ceremony 2008. please allow me to take you through today's programme."

i wonder if he'll recognise me if he sees me.

i think i'll stop the attach photo at the end of every post thingo, i'm afraid i'll be charged for infringement of copyright. because i'm lazy to link the photo back to the source.

ms ong looks very much older.

i'm thankful for all the people around me. thank you jj137 for making pw discussion so laughter-filled, thank you lingling for helping me solve my problems with the bio test, thank you ms ong and ms heng for making my bio test on the coming monday possible. thank you shannon for eating recess with me, thank you agnes for enduring all our crap, thank you everybody else for helping me survive today.

math wasn't fun. grace sms-ed me when she was three tables (or so) to the left of the row in front, asking me not to be so evil. because i think i sounded like i was interrogating mr low, the new math teacher. i just can't stand new teachers luh. just when i got used to ms chew, she had to leave. just when i got used to mr yap, he had to leave. it's like, the school treats us like crap.

once i stepped into bio this afternnon, a chord in me was struck. i never knew so much could happen in so little time. i just hope it's nothing too bad.

13/33

qimin
hey!! i tagged at your blog alr. how many more stephs have you come to know huh? haha.

today's captain's ball was when i saw the class bonded. though we sort of fought over that ball and there were many many screams. but i guess the laughter and claps outwitted them.

thank you lingling for enquiring about the bio test format for me. even though i think i don't really have much time to absorb bio into my system.

this week is...yeah i failed chem again. steph you're a candidate for co'08, how could you?!

oh yeah. welcome agnes to s25.

chem chem chem!

ruth
i'm theretherethere! haha. because i did the same.

school's reopening tomorrow. my bag's not packed. there's a change of timetable, and all ms heng told lihuan's that we'll be having pc, econs, math, bio and pw. tutorials or lectures, no idea.

i did a little project work here and there today, and sort of completed my alkanes notes. isomerism is...=X

photo blog's updated, with 2.5 events.

shannon
thanks thanks! but after that run i haven't been out running at all, lol.
sebas
thanks alot.
jiabin
only you know huh.
aaron
because you don't come often enough. haha.
lihuan
yes you do(:
jon
i don't think my tagboard shows photos. shannon sort of answered your tag though.
shannon
lol. and i don't think it's advisable to talk back to a hci pretty big shot like that. haha.
yangping
you know, with the rising trend of single parent families...no actually i don't know where the father of that kid went too.
jeannie
i should be happy for you huh. come back often okay!
weien
it's okay luh, we didn't talk much anyway, i went offline soon after we talked abit.

my photo blog's updated. with two and a half events, because some singapore flyer photos are still in the camera. otherwise there's still cssp and yp retreat photos.

went to the meiji factory today with mom and bro, got $30plus worth of junk food. saw xiaowei and claire.

math common test tomorrow, connect singapore meeting after that. i hope my schedule won't be this packed once school reopens.

and aaron, it was nice talking to you.

cdc yp retreat

just came back from cdc's youth partner retreat half an hour ago. from the moment after i stepped into the house, my mum has been screaming at my brother over maths questions, and nobody has spoken a word properly to me.

i came back in the large yp shirt (because they had no other size since i was a newcomer) and halfway through screaming at my brother my mum looked up and hissed, "shirt so big, so ugly, like crippled arm like that."

and my dad, well, he's just sitting at the dining table watching the wonderful show.

i don't know how i'm going to sleep, but i'll manage.

there's heartware stuff tomorrow, hopefully i'll have enough time left to update on singapore flyer and youth partner retreat.

love all of you loads(:

singapore flyer

spent more than 30 mins in a singapore flyer capsule.

the verdict? don't go unless you've got a wonderful camera and is a wonderful photographer.

my miserly photos will be up on my photo blog, soon.

singapore flyer doesn't have wings.

happy dad's day!

three people have asked me what i'm doing for my dad for today, and to all three i replied, "nothing". which is rather true.

at the dot of twelve last night, i said to daddy, "papa it's midnight. happy father's day! now i'm going to sleep, may i switch on the air con?"

yeah.

now we're going out, i guess it's sort of a father's day celebration. singapore flyer (i promise photos) then steamboat dinner.

i suddenly got reminded of how xingying had difficulty pronouncing "feasible", so much that she called it "the f word" everytime she talked about it during that pw meeting. super funny.

and xueni was very sweet to send that sms telling us how she's grateful for this pw group.


p.s. i think it's rather dumb for saf to give the wings badge to the dead ns man clifton lam. it's like trying to make them less guilty for causing his death by "fulfilling" that guy's dream of being a pilot. and the certain mr saying they'll "work on it" when the mum asked for the letter of comissioning to frame up and keep in remembrance of her son, how patronising's that.

small steps

it's a lost and lonely kind of feeling,
to wake up wearing a disguise.
i lie in bed staring at the ceiling,
i don't know who i am,
there's little that i can
fully recognize...

but i'm taking small steps,
'cause i don't know where i'm going.
i'm taking small steps
and i don't know what to say.
small steps, trying to pull myself together
and maybe i'll discover
a clue along the way...

just to make it through the day and not to get hurt
seems about the best that i can hope.
like coffee stains splattered on your sweatshirt,
there isn't any pattern.
everything's uncertain.
it's difficult to cope...

but i'm taking small steps,
'cause i don't know where i'm going.
i'm taking small steps
and i don't know what to say.
small steps, trying to pull myself together
and maybe i'll discover
a clue along the way...

and if someday my small steps bring me near you,
please don't rush to tell me all you feel.
you don't have to speak for me to hear you.
if i softly sigh,
look me in the eye
and let me know i'm real...

then we'll take small steps,
'cause we won't know where we're going.
we'll take small steps,
and we'll have too much to say.
small steps,
hand in hand we'll walk together,
and maybe we'll discover
a clue along the way...

--small steps: louis sachar

rare day that i blog twice. my uncle's at my house, he looked at my progress report (three As, one B and one E) and asked whether i need tuition. so i guess it's really time for me to hit the books, after they (his family) returns home.

stuff to do this last week: round up gp essay, go through econs and bio, get math into my system, and DON"T SCREW UP PRIZE PRESENTATION EMCEEING. not in front of mr lim boon heng.

mummy, don't cry.

《妈妈，别哭》

来源：杭州日报
作者：佚名
编辑：杜琳

妈妈别哭，我现在已没有痛苦

不用再看我，你一辈子也会记住

地震来得那么唐突

没有什么可以遮护

幸存的同学真让人羡慕

那一刻，求生的愿望强烈却茫然无助


妈妈别哭，我不能陪你走今后的路

这么多人陪我我不会孤独

却担心你悲痛地泪流如注

我多么希望你能幸福

我多想长大了孝敬父母

我真的不想早走这一步


妈妈别哭，地震是大地在发怒

也许是它一时糊涂

才伤害了这么多无辜

我只是不幸中的一卒

还有更多的人惨不忍睹

泪水掀不起压我的混凝土


妈妈别哭，别再抱着我幼小的身躯

我已没有往日的温度

呼吸和心跳已经止住

请给我换上爱穿的衣服

拿来我爱读的书

假如天堂里还有学府

我会在梦中告诉你考试的分数


妈妈别哭，天灾人祸是对圣灵的荼毒

你柔弱的身躯无法挡住

只要妈妈你还活着

就是上天对我们的眷顾

因为有你，每年清明那小坟上，会多一锹土


妈妈别哭，天堂里我们会相互扶助

this is a poem written in remembrance of the may 12 sichuan earthquake. heard it on the tv charity show, and it sort of got stuck in my head ever since.

fifty metres from the last green man.

xingying's rather casual suggestion has made me the emcee for cdc's j2 prize presentation next week, with mr lim boon heng as the goh. i sure hope my close call with council has equipped me the the artillery i'll require.

it's past midnight now, so technically we had project work meeting yesterday. the video cam made us all very stressed, thank goodness for xueni's connections all around. now we're just lacking one cable, which i doubt is very big a problem. drafting the first draft of our written report's pretty tough though, i think i'm near a thousand words yet we haven't even reached our proposed idea.

oh yeah. my phone's crazy again. when a call arrives, it rings for three times, then switches off. otherwise i get to talk for ten seconds, then the sound gets cut off and the screen goes blank. five-year-old phone, probably time to retire.

relatives coming over to visit this afternoon, hopefully before that i can get my report done and my gp essay completed. i'm not good in ending essays.

race photos up, but not nice.

sportsphotox has our race photos uploaded. when i run i look like i'm ready to kill somebody.

that's not too good.

20-people-quiz

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions until you name them. at the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.

1. shannon
2. seb
3. shiva
4. aaron
5. caiqin
6. joshua
7. jeannie
8. ainul
9. siongkiat
10. jiarui
11. rachel
12. lulu
13. liyang
14. farah
15. minh minh
16. nyan lin
17. weien
18. jiabin
19. ruth
20. amber

A) How did you meet 14?[farah]
cssp faci interview. with seb and jon.

B) What would i do if i never met 1? [shannon]
i'd guess i'll be much saner. and i wouldn't know such a long name exist. but i guess if i never meet her i won't know what i'll do.

C) What if 9 & 20 dated? [siongkiat and amber]
OH NO. sk's same age as moron. amber don't.

D) How about 6 & 17? [joshua and weien]
i don't know if joshua's weien's type, but come to think of it, they'll look pretty good together.

E) Describe 3. [shiva]
SHORTER THAN ME.

F) Is 8 Attractive? [ainul]
yeah she's cute alright. my camper okay.

G) Describe 7. [jeannie]
err. not-very-long-but-longer-than-mine hair, jon's senior, gets very high when F1's going against C1 during camp, but nice when wants to trade food for the welfare of her campers.

H) Do you know any of 12's family members? [lulu]
no. unless family=alliance.

I) What would you do if 18 confessed that he/she likes you? [jiabin]
i'll make him search his conscience.

J) What language does 15 speak? [minh]
english to us, though it's rather accented. minh minh bomb, minh minh bomb, minh minh bomb to everyone bomb!

K) Who is 9 going out with? [siongkiat]
i don't know but i know he misses somebody from the next alliance.

L) How old is 16? [nyan lin]
he's sec two, but being a burmese, i don't know if there's supposed to be an age difference. otherwise he's 14.

M) When is the last time you spoke to 13? [liyang]
through email? two days back. otherwise it's sometime during the camp last week.

N)What's 2's favourite band/singer? [seb]
he didn't say, but his most of his blog songs are like, gregorian.

O) Would you ever date 4? [aaron]
NO. bestest best friends do not become couples.

P) Would you ever date 1? [shannon]
red date honey date? i'm straight, but i won't mind going out with her. like, just go out-go out.

Q) is 19 single? [ruth]
i think so. because she's supposed to tell me when she finds somebody.

R) What is 10's last name? [jiarui]
what's last name? surname? i think it's chua.

S) Would you ever date 11? [rachel]
maybe? we're not really close enough to go out on dates.

T) What is 3's School? [shiva]
JJC.

U) Where does 16 live? [nyan lin]
dunno, probably somewhere near dunearn.

V) What is 5's favourite thing? [caiqin]
during the camp it's her vectors notes and tutorials.

W) Have you seen 2 naked? [seb]
no.

The 5 lucky people:
shannon
aaron
jiabin
ruth
lihuan

1.22.08

10k timings are out. i'm ranked number 65, among 118 girls whose timings got recorded. 1 hour 22 mins 8 seconds. pretty average i'd say, fastest's 51 mins 49 sec and slowest's 2 hours 9 mins 58 seconds.

didn't finish everything for math today, so shiva and i are meeting again tomorrow. note to self: pack lunch there.

farah found our cssp photo album. i've got (more than) a few photos downloaded, i'll post them up soon. it's about time my photo blog gets an update.

good night people.

start on work?

two weeks of holidays have passed, and i haven't completed a single homework. all of a sudden xueni informs us that we've been doing our written report wrongly.

shiva and i are supposed to meet up to do math tomorrow morning, but i haven't been able to reach her, after an sms and phone calls. the last phone call had the answering machine that said, "the singtel mobile number you're calling is unavailable. your number will be sent via sms to the customer. goodbye!"

if i didn't crash math consultation with mr yap with eeling and xingying after pq discussion today, i wouldn't have found out i missed out the whole chapter of trigo while i was away at cssp. thank goodness it's trigo, i think i've absorbed some of liwen's brains for this one.

muscle aches today not that bad now. once i woke up and attempted walking my first step of the day to switch off the fans, it was like, OUCH. then it got better, but going down stairs is still a chore.

only knew this morning that jj's track and field team has only two girls. should have joined them early this year. then i won't have to worry about not being able to be accepted into cdc right now. especially when it requires the votes of everybody.

and boy am i scared of voting.

[edit]
shiva called back. we're meeting tomorrow. she's planning to have the session will four. i doubt we'll be able to stand doing math for that long, but we'll try our best.

oh yeah. halloween ball has sort of been given the thumbs up. who says wacky ideas are crap.
[/edit]

10000m. completed.

saucony 100plus passion run this morning, flagged off at 7.42 am and completed at around 9.05am.

i'm just glad that i completed the distance. thanks to the sign that screamed, " A Champion is One That Continues Running".

"winning is all in your mind!", "outdo yourself!" were two of the many slogans the volunteered cheered out. and their clown dressing really made the run not that heavy a load.

my last race was 5km, that was the women's outdoor challenge last year. didn't run all the way. this time there were voices running in my head, voices which belonged to friends, that told me to never stop, no matter how tired i am. just. keep. running.

so i ran past the 1km mark. then 2km. then 3km. then i realised that the longest distance i've ever completed by fully running's 3.2km. that was the first week of my training plan. i never completed my training plan because council stuff took up a few weeks, including the chengdu part. and when i returned i didn't have much mood to run.

sooner than i thought, the 4km mark was within sight. i've ran more than i've ever done so, i thought, and will be able to run further.

then the volunteered at the side screamed, "turning point about 50m away!"

i bet they were lying, even though the sign did say "turning point 50m ahead". because i ran rather long to reach the bend, where there was a sign that said, "A Bend in A Race is Not The End of The Race".

it didn't take me long to realise many blue-tagged people were overtaking me. that's seb's category. but i didn't see him till i passed the 6km mark. he was walking. i thought something was wrong.

slowed down, hoping he'll catch up soon and we'll finish the race together.

even at near snail-pace, i jogged past the 7km mark, the 8km mark and finally the 9km mark, but there was no black adidas shirt guy who appeared beside me. completed the race alone, stepped into a muddy field to rest and remove my championchip. stayed there for around 15 mins hoping to find him already done, but my dad found me earlier, so i had to return to my family.

my family weren't suppose to go with me today. that was what mum said last week, when my bro went for his kids run. i told her it's okay, since the last race i went to, i went there alone too. i think she just felt bad, that the family was down for his run but not for mine. when i came back from camp she told me, at the dish-washing sink, that she'll go with me today. then bro was added in, and dad said if he's not that tired he'll go. so i had three race supporters today but i couldn't be there to support seb.

what happened while he was racing, i'd leave you to visit his blog to find out. if he decides to share about it.

running with my inhaler was like a sort of steriod. i everytime i don't run with it, i'll need it. and when i have it with me, everything's fine. i didn't even have to puff.

races are probably one of the top events which contribute to water wastage. at water points, i only took a sip out of every cup i was given. there was one water point at which they gave out 100plus, because according to the volunteers, "we couldn't afford water." i'm sure i laughed there and then, when i heard that. somewhere near the end one water point had empty dispensers so they switched to giving out bottles of ice mountain instead. i think i didn't even drink 20% of it, before throwing it on the canvas sheet.

cps should probably solve this problem.

when i went back to the stage area after i was pretty much cooled down, i praised my shoes and my legs in my heart. i never knew they could take me that far.

breaking boundaries provides immense satisfaction. my first meal after the run was laksa. i haven't had chilli for erm, since end jan i think. because of the belief that it'll decrease stamina. and that first hint of chilli in my mouth, it said that i've succeeded. i've won myself. no more instances of going to the canteen and fretting about what to eat because all the stuff i'm craving for have chilli.

i'm still working towards the "first marathon before 18" goal. the next chilli ban, we'll see how.

meanwhile, rest well steph, project work meeting tomorrow, math tuition with shiva on tuesday. school's reopening soon.

seb, i'm really proud of you.

day between camp and run.

broke camp yesterday. cssp appeared on news on tv, internet and papers. the detrainment part.

i won't elaborate much now cuz it's late and i've got a 10km race at ecp tomorrow morning.

if any of you c1 people are here, help me hound zeki for his email address. i think he gave the wrong one.

random emo-sounding post.

i've learnt to be more positive.

i've learnt to be more patient.

be more appreciative, be more adaptable.

thank you everybody.

happy june.