last day of november.

zhiyi
ahh. then different place lor. yea i know you play the piano. you said so in your previous tag. haha. nvm we can still play together some other day! and, lol, who said i'm studying for o's? maybe can retake and have exams with you next year huh.
aloysius
it's okay luh. i'm sure i'll set foot on orchard another time before school reopens. then i'll go find you yea.
zhiyi and ces
a's coming in two years' time you know. haha. no lah i'm not that crazy. i don't even have the faintest idea what i'll be studying in jc.

this will be a short post. i don't know if i want to log on to the computer again today. my mum needs me to go help her unroot beansprouts (whatever you call it, plucking away roots of beansprouts) for dinner. when i haven't had lunch.

i'm getting ready for 2008! not the school part, but i've began printing calendars. but the october page refuses to come out nicely. the rest are fine though.

argh i don't know which one of you are actually interested in my calendar issues. shall print the october page for the fifth time.

if you're bored, please visit the links on your left. not all are updated though.

today's the twenty ninth.

i never managed to find a blogskin that suits me more than this current one.

and i realised i can't blog as well with background music. electrico's blasting right now.

but anyway i've got not much to share today. i'm pretty disappointed with myself. completed four chapters last week but i just ended this week's first a few hours ago. which sucks, cuz i've got twenty five chapters, i think, which i plan to finish by this hols. next week's chalet some more.

shall go attempt chapter six. bye people.

rendezvous with girls!

aloysius
yea i'm sure it is. and i almost got to see you today! run around so many stores for what...there was this guy at your store when we went and he kept looking over and looking at his phone i thought i couldn't recognise you after one year plus.
zhiyi
don't give up okay! itmc chalet's not exactly the same date as my class chalet lah. ours is 4-6. got clash two days right! but dunno same place anot. scarli next door. haha. and i haven't learnt chords yet, only notes. i play the keyboard too! not the computer keyboard lah.

today was fun! now i realised why aaron likes andrea already. they've got the same no-sense of direction. we took alot of wrong turns with andrea as tourguide. but i still managed to reach home yea.

met andrea at the mrt station and we walked to cine to meet up with josie. i was expecting myself to be late, which i was, so i sms-ed andrea on the train. turns out she'll be late too. thought all four of us will be meeting mah. then in the end i reached like one train after her and only the two of us.

but jasmine was even later okay. next time meet at eleven must tell her is ten thirty. we were at second floor when she called to report her reaching cine, but we thought we were at third floor, so we asked her to go up find us. after pretty long and her not appearing, we began to search for reasons why. then we saw the big big L2 on the wall and realised we gave her the wrong storey number. but she still found us. and yes we all agree that the new ipod nano's really ugly. what's apple doing man.

went to get tickets for the first enchanted movie, but the box office had some problems with the ticketing machine, so the poor girl had to handwrite our four tickets and have her manager person sign eight times. and we were almost barred from entering the theatre cuz apparently the people on the upper level didn't receive news of faulty ticketing machines.

so when we went in, the movie already started, but thankfully only a little. i caught the first part in the trailer. haha. and i guess we spoke rather loud when we first went in, such that the people at the last row went, "shhhhh!" we scooted to our row of seats and since we couldn't see the numbers, we just anyhow sat. there weren't much people in the theatre anyway. i think this is like the third time i've caught a movie without watching the beginning. first time was harry potter last year.

oh yea, we discovered some not-very-practical parts in the movie. like how the dragon fell from the building when it had wings to actually fly so it won't plunge to death. maybe its terminal velocity was too high, accelerate too fast till it couldn't flap its wings in time. then fall to the ground and die already.

ahh dang that's physics.

then we went to take neoprints. jasmine and josie were pretty surprised it was my second time in those little fancy phototaking booths. first time was with phay. and andrea told me the wrong date so i wrote yesterday's date on one of the prints. only realised a few hours later, when jasmine said today's 28th.

we went to walk walk at cine, was at adidas then i thought that we could pop over to where aloysius's working. so we walked all the way to ck tang. that guy's super interesting. he said can only see him after two thirty cuz at that time i sms-ed him, about 1.40, he looked fat. crazy. how much fat can you lose in fifty minutes' time? yea then we reached but he told me he'll only be back half an hour later. we decided to ignore this da pai guy and carry on with our lunch. so we walked to taka. disgusting rain made us wet.

walk walk walk and we found ourselves at taka's puma, where aloysius said he was half an hour ago. and when i told him, he said he was back at ck tang's puma outlet already.

but we went for lunch anyway. and dropped the idea of going to look for aloysius. had ice cream, then to mos to play cards. those girls are bad influence. they taught me how to play bridge. before this, the only poker card game that i knew was blackjack. liwen says she's going to teach me dai di this holidays. but she's missing.

talked alot throughout our rendezvous. i don't know why but i like the word rendezvous. it's the shape of the word ba. like how i like my name written as Yeo Xin Ying, Stephanie and not Stephanie Yeo Xin Ying. there is a difference okay. opps sorry digress. it was really nice to have these girl talks. though most of the time it was just gossip. but we've already graduated, says jasmine, so it's okay.

that pretty much ends our date. josie took bus home, andrea headed for chalet and jasmine took train with me home. we were standing on the tube thing which connects two cabins, then i told her my mum once said, if the cabins were to break apart, the person standing in the middle will just fall down. and at that point of time i was standing right in the middle. then jasmine said if it really happened, she'll push me to the other cabin and jump over herself, cuz there's no space in her side of the cabin to allow her to pull me over.

i really love this girl. but she's going to leave soon, and most probably never return.

guitar.1, sore left index finger.

kaiwen
sometimes i wonder what you're doing with your life too, skipping school and all. don't give up on yourself yea.
siew kiang
to think it all began with a simple statement i made in one post..
jiabin
maybe you're not suited for blogger. try some other websites ba. like kaiwen's taking wordpress.
kaiwen
are you jealous or something. haha.
jiabin
what makes you think kaiwen knows. haha.

first guitar lesson today! it's sorta dumb to have twenty four hours a day but i start blogging about the event that was at 7.30 pm. nothing really significant happened earlier in the day though. just woke up and began watching serials on the net. for four hours straight.

my brother signed up for the same course as me, so my mum took us along. there were more classmates than i expected. one sec three nhnb girl, one twenty-plus year old lady, two darker skinned guys who looked like foreign workers, one malay girl and a boy around my brother's age.

a few of us didn't have guitars, including my brother and i, so we had two guitars to share among five people. the teacher too. learnt single notes, and i'm glad i'm right handed, cuz my left index finger's sore from pressing on the c and f bars. it was pretty fun though.

i'll most probably be having my own guitar from next week onwards. and next week's chalet day. i'll get there right after my lesson. if i can't catch the shuttle bus, i'll just cab there lor. cuz we ended pretty late today also. and i'm not going to bring my guitar to chalet.

search for new blogskin in progress. otherwise i'll just edit the whole thing myself. cuz i realised the margin for posts isn't very wide, so it makes me seem like some naggy old lady when posts need alot of scrolling to finish reading.

i'm going out tomorrow! with andrea josie and jasmine. weird combi as it sounds, i know we're going to have alot of fun. now i'm going to worry about what to wear. this is why i should not go to poly.

what is it exactly?

am i going against it just because we never were together?

i haven't missed anyone so much since so long ago..

open house

jiabin
your sentence doesn't make much sense you know. i'll take your "mumble jumble words" to be html? haha.

yesterday was open house. my shift for that mrs sabar's thing was nine thirty, but i reached at eight nevertheless. saw dallan as i went into the campus. talked a little, then he went up to studio. i wasn't there for dance stuff, so i went to general office and stayed for awhile, then i walked around school.

as i was sitting outside the office, there was this family who walked by from the canteen direction. the mother asked me where the canteen was. apparently they entered from the main gate and took a wrong turn. i pointed it out to them, then they laughed. the dad asked me what were my results when i entered nh. told him 260, but i graduated already. yea then he asked me about the school and the principal.

the thing is, when you're a student helper at your alma mater, you've got to tell people it's the best in the world. so that was what i did, i told him the principal's good and able to communicate with us students. which is quite true actually, in my case. but he obviously had something against mr foo. he said, "he doesn't seem like he can communicate with me.." and laughed and shrugged it off and walked away.

and i passed my time by playing snake game. looked up and saw nhds members stranded outside studio. familiar scenario huh. when i went into office ferny told me mrs raja hasn't arrived. expected. a few moments later when i went out again, i saw mrs raja strolling out of the car. lol. saw dasam and zhongyi and kenniy and yilong and jeremy, i think. but i was too preoccupied with my handphone lah.

then jiacheng called. he was supposed to help out mrs sabar with me. and this guy is interesting i tell you. i woke up at 3am that morning, you know, those kind of in-between-dreams wake up, and saw my phone light up, indicating a message. but at three?! jiacheng asked if need to being tie. and said he just finished work. turns out he's a waiter at shangri-la. yea so he called me in school and we met up with weicong and his very nice hair and went up to hall.

i thought "answering parents' queries", my duty as mrs sabar told me, meant that i would be stationed at some information booth. but it was the humanities booth in the hall with freaking low visitor traffic. and i don't take history. my o's are over, so i think i flushed away at least 70% of geog stuff already. only entertained one parent the time i was there. talked with ms sathi alot though. about the class and future plans. i realised when we enter secondary school, teachers tend to be more like friends to us. there's no apparent student-teacher gap like in primary school.

weicong asked mrs raja, who was at the humanities booth when we made our way there, "how's dance?" and she replied, "very good!" i guess she's obliged to do that lah, being the overall teacher in-charge. but we had huge confidence as we watched the mobile display. it sort of freaked me out. esp the girls one. the guys' wushu wasn't bad. but the kaleidescope thing really disappointed me. i couldn't see the spirit there anymore. it's really simple dance moves, but even so, i believe they'll need the energy to carry them out. i think it's sort of useless to actually comment when i'm no longer part of nan hua and will never step into a dance prac again (except maybe ord), but from a graduate's point of view, when i've been part of three open houses and numerous nhds performances, it's really disappointing. i overheard a parent telling mr foo that her daughter's very interested in dance, and thought that our performance was rather good, but she's a parent of student appealing for a place in nan hua. obviously she has to sing praises. mr foo simply replied, "of course! 21 years gold in syf leh!" but even jiacheng, who's not in dance, could tell me, "ehh you all the honours arh, no more lah."

is nhds falling? i'd say yes. we've actually been in decline years ago. just that the 2 gwh this year brought us confidence. but to some, sadly, over-confidence. and that's exactly what will cause nhds to bite the dust. i can't help, i won't help, i'd just hope that the exco will be able to pull through. we've had our hayday for twenty one years, maybe it's time we experienced some drought.

helped out at the maths booth too, but no parents came cuz the time i was there was the principal's talk. played alot of the maths puzzles while having a long nice talk mith mrs tan. she's one teacher i'm really sad to leave behind at nan hua.

sat through many appeal cases in mr foo's office, and learnt pretty much. mr foo says it's confidential stuff so i'm supposed to keep contents to myself. i'm looking forward to handling them myself soon!

english looks weird.

i just changed my blogger language back to english (from german), and i've got to say, it looks weird. gag. like, we call UK UK, but for german it's just great britain, directly translated.

replies to tags!
kaiwen
yea so now i've got your name not at the top.
siewkiang
i love you, you love me, we are happy family! i like the badge too! my mum says the figure thing in front makes it look like "stop". lol. and don't you think the goethe logo looks like jjc logo.

ack this is what happens during holidays. you sleep late and wake up late and lose the meaning of life. in chinese it's zao shui zao qi shen ti hao. then what if chi shui and chi qi? you get fat.

to keep my schedule packed, maybe i shall blog twice a day. as if i've got so much to let you guys know huh. but i just woke up! sort of. got out of bed at 11.25. mcdonald's even stopped serving breakfast already lor!

oh yea. my purpose of blogging was to provide free publicity for the kallang-paya lebar expressway's compilation album, sounds of the underground. since this is multi-racial singapore, they've got ten songs, making sure there's at least one from each national language. among the artistes are hady mirza, sheikh haikel and david tan of electrico. lyrics and song downloads are available at http://kpeunderground.sg/. no, i really don't get credit for this, but do go and take a look anyway.

guitar and chalet?!

kaiwen
yea man. esp with rain and his clear anti dandruff tv commercial.

i just came home.

guitar lessons: check. they'll commence from next week, till feb next year.
chalet: check. amber roped in people so we've got enough for bbq.

BUT. these two events have to, of all things, CLASH. my guitar's on tuesday, which happens to be the first day of chalet. and it's a dumbly stupid timing of 7.30 to 8.30. pm, yes. i can rush to put down my guitar and make my way from the very west of jurong west to pasir ris to get onto the last shuttle bus to the chalet that's at the very east of the east of singapore, but that'll be a big risk. dad says can take cab. lol. i thought he was a miser all along.

so amber, i doubt i can go to your house for lunch. you can cook for me some other day yea? i guess i'll only be able to reach the chalet at like, near eleven pm. ack. i know you people there'll miss me. but don't keep thinking of me okay. my mum says if someone thinks of you, you'll sneeze. i don't wish to be sneezing my way through guitar prac.

i blogged halfway, then kaiwen tells me on msn that he tagged me and asks me to go read his blog.

FROM: kaiwen.
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaints(oh wow i started complaining before i even went to his blog.)
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person’s tagboard to say he/she have been tagged (no wonder he said it was raining..)

Favourites
Colour: this wonderful creation of the human eye.
Food: erm. i remember i had this question at my o's german oral. i said vegetables.
Song: girlfriend-avril lavigne. i've got the "hey hey you you!"s ringing in my head. at least that's better than the 周杰伦's "不要麻烦了" x 10000.
Movie: i've just finished ratatouille on dvd, twice last sat, but it wasn't as spectacular as siyuan said it was. so i guess i still like secret ba. though i watched it on youtube. in eleven separate parts.
Sport: my examiners at zdj asked me this. i told them i like running and swimming and basketball.
Day of The Week: any day as long as it's not part of a looooong holiday like now.
Season: eh we're in singapore leh. i like the non-monsoon season.
Ice-cream: macadamia nut brittle

Currents
Mood: i want to go bathe.
Taste: the putu piring i had just now. and the shredded coconut.
Clothes: yellow tee, brown and yellow shorts. my mum say they go very well together.
Desktop: dying five-year old black dell computer. i've never seen dell produce white desktops.
Time: 11.13pm
Surroundings: erm. my home computer room. messy and stuffy cuz i'm lazy to open the windows which are just beside me.
Annoyances: i've got nothing to do this holidays. i'm facing huge piles of secondary school books and files and worksheets and i don't know what i'm going to do with them. just this afternoon i was staring at my tie and chairman badge wondering how i'm going to keep them.

First
Crush: somewhere in kindergarten. the boy's called weijie. now i wonder how many hundred thousands of weijies are there among the 4.8 million population in singapore.
Movie: toy story. i think.
Music: three blind mice? london bridge? or the san zhi lao hu song. i'm sure my grandmother sang something like that to me before she passed on.

Lasts
Cigarette: the last one i touched was in p6. my teacher got a classmate to bring one from her father for a health ed lesson. i snatched it from the teacher and threw it on the floor.
Drink(Alcohol): err. vodka?
Car Ride: my bmw chauffeur sent me to singapore recreation centre on sat and back. btw it's actually my uncle.
Movie: ratatouille. ehh no. harry potter and the order of the phoenix. dvd, the very next day after i watched ratatouille twice.
Phone Call: a few hours ago, with my dad.
CD Played: erm. i remember putting dvds into the xbox 360 at home, but music cds? ocean's liu se cai hong i think. my dad wanted to listen.

Have you ever
Dated Your Best Friend: almost? i'm glad i didn't.
Broken The Law: yea. who hasn't jaywalked before you tell me?
Been Arrested: yea man. when i went to take photos at the national stadium. last year i think.
Skinny-Dipped: in my bathtub? you bet.
Been On TV: yes. on the news. twice i think.
Kissed Someone You Don’t Know: good question. i don't think so. i don't hope so too. maybe i was in a drunken stupor the other time i had vodka and...

5 things you are wearing: specs shirt shorts and two pieces of underwear?
4 things you’ve done today: woke up, brushed teeth, washed face, ate my breakfast.. wah even before my day actually started i've done four things already.
3 things you can hear right now: my dad wiping the table, the humming of the cpu and my typing.
1 thing you do when you are bored: switch on the tv. though most of the time i'll swtich it off a few seconds later feeling even more bored than before. then i'll whip out my phone and attempt breaking my snake game records.

ohh i'm done? seems so fast. so now i'm meant to be mean and pass this on to five people.
#1 aaron. you can do this when you're back from israel, then i read it when i'm back from chalet.
#2 shana. i know you're an undercover faithful reader! and you're going jj too right! but i can't tag you to tell you you've been tagged since you've got that funny thing on your blog :/
#3 zhiyi. i shall tag you before aaron does!(:
#4 aloysius. you've got to really update your blog dude.
#5 siew kiang. i know you love me!

okay now i've lost my momentum to continue blogging. shall stop here today.

22 nov

aloysius
nothing happened lah. it's just that many of us are going away this holidays cuz it's like freedom after o's. we'll be having a sec four dance chalet at the end of dec, but then there'll be non-tappers too and i won't be there, so yep. maybe i could go out with you and jerry one day or smthn. don't be too sad yea.

i think replying tags like that'll be better! but given my blog traffic and how often i update, the replies won't seem to be many.

anyway. my mum's going for a little operation this afternoon. initially i had some gathering with cp and the 4/1 ppl, but it was cancelled so i'll be going with my mum.

even though the thing's going to take just around half an hour, i'll need all the blessings i can get (:

zertifikat deutsch zeugnis,

travelled pretty much today.

went to cut my fringe while my mum cut her hair, then we went to have lunch. i had plans to go collect my zdj cert and go nh to get the leftover o's question papers, so after lunch i went to somerset (where goethe institute is) with my brother, cuz he wanted to see the skate park.

it was raining so there wasn't much activity at the skate park. but i guess he was only there to look at the graffiti. we walked to winsland house two, took the lift up to the fifth floor, then entered though the door labelled "office reception". saw the cleaning auntie i met that day before taking the oral test.

yea so i told the person i was there to collect my zd cert, told her my name and that i was from moelc. then she asked me to sign a name list to acknowledge that i've collected the cert. saw some who've collected. the collection starts on nineteenth mah, and i happen to have nothing to do (or so i thought) today. then she handed me a green piece of paper, which was my cert (and definitely didn't look like one), and a green badge printed with the level of the exam i've taken. there're altogether six levels, i took the third one.

total marks: 227.5 upon 300. if we count it using the a1a2 stuff like secondary school, it's 75.833333..., so it's a1. if only that was the grade for my o's. which i hope it really is. and no i do not think i came out topping the exam, in reference to the word on the badge.

in the train station i received a message from mrs sabar. she wanted me to rope in people to help her during open house this saturday. any takers? it's 8am to 4pm, but i guess if we go as student helpers, it won't be all the way. mr foo invited me to be his bodyguard.

brought my brother to nan hua too, and saw loads of dance people all the way. daryl said a very loud "hi steph!" and alyssa said she almost couldn't recognise me. but i've been shorthaired for so long already. should be the standing strands that refuse to go down, but that's the way i like it (uh huh uh huh).

the security uncle let me in without signing in after i told him i'm sec four and am back to get my o level scripts, and am bringing my brother in.

my brother was surprised that we use the amphitheatrre for meetings. and he said the lift lobby, where all the exam scripts are put, is super hot. sure it is. the other time i went back to school for extra a math lesson with mrs tan, i was sweating like a pig. (i've been told pigs don't sweat, but well you get the idea.)

saw adelaine's script and genevieve's too, and felice's which was only labelled "meow". and after all the effort in signing my name really big across all my question papers and scribbling my index number as well, i've never been successful in finding my own script. so i settled getting unnamed ones.

went to the general office in an attempt to introduce my brother to mr foo, but he was having an appointment with a visitor. but mr lau let me in nevertheless. and my brother hid behind the door half the time, and when i asked him why later, he said, "principal leh!" ahh. what he doesn't know...

when we were young...

my bro saw me post my pri school pictures the other day, so over dinner we talked about events that happened when we were younger.

i was telling him how i caught a cockroach in primary four or somewhere and scared the whole class till bits and pieces. then my mum interrupted and went, yea when she was in childcare (probably three or four years old), she caught a cockroach and the teacher complained. that all the teachers were frightened by it.

and i remember a couple of years back when i was follwing the episodes of fear factor, while watching the contestants climbing walls and jumping from planes and being pulled by mad cows and gorging on weird parts of weird animals, i told my dad, hey i actually won't mind joining fear factor you know. it's not really dangerous at the end of the day, cuz they can't make you die in front of national tv. which, on more thoughts, is actually true. have you ever seen people die in that show? it's just about overcoming your emotional barrier. there're alot of things that we, as homosapiens, have the ability to do but never dare to.

i think i've sort of settled the chalet stuff, just that my mum thinks there won't be enough food. but this is what happens when we're short of funds.

aaron's gone to israel, so it'll be quite a lonely two weeks. unless some of you kind souls out there are willing of sms me to chat.

i woke up early (but later than my usual running times) this morning to do running. normally i do three and a half rounds of my neighbourhood, around 2km per round as i measured from the street directory. but i guess i flopped today. completed one round rather okay-ly, but as i started the second round there began to be more life. so there was car exhaust and cigarette smoke which were utterly disgusting, especially in the pretty still air before sunrise. had a little bout of asthma as i walked back home after one and a half rounds, and pain in the lower abdomen which made me roll like some mad rabbit. so i lay on the sofa and slept all the way till nearly nine, still stinky from the run. gag. my dad was so afraid something'll happen to me, like i'll faint or something, such that he didn't dare to leave me alone to go bathe when i returned home. but i told him i won't die that easily.

lesson learnt: stick to schedule, wake up really early to run.

chemical x

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由

酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气

你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去


They'll try to stop the dream we're dreamin'
But they can't stop us from believing
They will fill your head with doubt
But that won't stop us now
So let them say we can't do it
Put up a road block
We'll just run right through it.. Cause...

We can, do the impossible
We have the power in our hands
And we won't stop 'cause we've got
To make a difference in this life
With one voice, one heart, two hands, we can

They say the odds are stacked against us
But that can't hold us back, we will be relentless
There's a voice they're gonna hear
A voice so loud and clear
So let them say we can't do it, give us a mountain,
and we're gonna move it.. cause..

We can, do the impossible
We have the power in our hands, and we won't stop
Cause we've got to make a difference in this life
With one voice, one heart, two hands, we can

We're gonna make a change today (make a change today)
Because we've got the faith it takes
To win this race, so let them say we can't do it
Put up a road block
And we'll just run right through it cuz..

We can, do the impossible
We have the power in our hands and we won't stop
Cos we've got to make a difference in this life
With one voice, one heart two hands, we can

I can (oh I can)
Do the impossible (do the impossible)
I have the power in my hands, and I won't stop
Cause I've got to make a difference in this life
With my one voice, one heart, two hands, we can

这厢是梦梅恋上画中的仙
那厢是丽娘为爱消香殒碎
为了爱不吃不喝不睡
但穿过千年爱情不再流行生死相恋

爱是什么什么是爱
接近以后就电
喜欢以后就追
腻了以后就飞
但亲爱我为你狂我为你变
就让我爱你爱的很深很远很古典

春水望断夏花宿妆残
谁闻秋蝉谁知冬来
冷秋千笑声似犹在
剪不断思念欲理还乱

前缘等待再续后爱
梦梅丽娘还魂归来
岁月摧残发白
就叫我白了头铁了心去等去爱

在梅边落花似雪纷纷绵绵谁人怜
在柳边风吹悬念生生死死随人愿
千年的等待滋味酸酸楚楚两人怨
牡丹亭上我眷恋日日年年未停歇

不停歇不恨不怪不怨尤谁
只等待牡丹开成灿烂的天
让传奇永远被人看见
让红尘世人能够感动能够深深了解

(昆曲)他年得傍蟾宫客
不在梅边在柳边
他年得傍蟾宫客

在梅边不知爱何时出现
在现实生活还是只能在梦里面
牡丹亭描述的浪漫不可思议
尤其是对我们这种新新人类

尤其是对我们生活太忙乱
没有时间吃饭
上网到眼睛酸

科技发达好有效率
而生活的节奏比明朝的快速一万倍
怎样才能够满足

小朋友哪有时间坐在那里看牡丹亭
花十九个小时唱到所有观众老了

作火车地铁飞机高速公路又在堵车
聪明的人知道时间就是钱要把握

失控之前要喘一口气
汤显祖让我向你学习
这么梦幻没人比你浪漫
四百年的流传我只能说赞

我的世界一切越来越方便
但奇怪还是没有办法找到一种爱

我不要跟你们赛跑
因为我知道生命是个礼物不希望这一辈子
没有爱而马不停蹄好想掉进那故事里
步骤慢点儿气氛神秘柳梦梅的美梦里

汤大师带我们回去充满爱的牡丹亭

sure these songs are random. but i'm having sorta mixed feelings now too. submitted my pae registration today, and have found somewhere to learn guitar. but it's probably going to take me years if i finish the whole course.

i'm missing school. i'm missing everybody. it's not nice always being at home.

yes thats a plea for somebody to ask me out. zhiyi! when's our slow movie going to be? and lowweijie you owe me a movie too. because you said so.

decisions.

i've decided my pae twelve choices. first one's jj science and last one's nj arts. i included hci, rj and nj in the choices, just to fill up the spaces and make it look nice. it's like "i did choose them, it's just they don't want me", to make myself feel better than "i didn't choose them so i can't go".

it was like that after psle too. with my aggregate of 262, i could actually land myself a place in nanyang or rv, or many other schools supposedly of better standard than nan hua. but i had nan hua as first choice too. and my last choice was raffles, where i wanted to go but was short of two points for. of course i could try and put it as first choice, but i don't want to experience that "i'm going to nan hua because raffles doesn't want me" feeling. and it was obvious nan hua would open her doors wide for me. now jurong will welcome me with open arms too.

i never had jurong in my dream list of jc, like i didn't know nan hua actually existed. but i guess i've got pretty limited choices since i stay in the west and have a horrid l1r5.

i've spent four whole worthwhile happy years in nan hua, and whatever the duration for pae is, i hope to have that same experience in jjc. and if i suay suay have to stay there for my a's too, i hope the have the same worthwhile happy two years.

oh man this sounds sad.

i've got this feeling entering jj's like stepping into three eleven last year. we never really had a good image, and many looked down on us. i didn't have a good image of jj, and i looked down on that school. but i'll have to stay in it, and i hope when i leave, i'll love it as much as i've loved foureleven.

jj's actually not a bad school. really.

and foureleven's a really great class.

i've grown up!

EDITED!

i figured out i've grown up pretty much (not height-wise) these few years, so i'm going to let the pictures do the talking! zoom in when necessary okay!

there's no primary one and two because i was in shuqun primary school and that school haven't started class photos stuff then.

jurong west primary school, class 3G of year 2000. i'm 2nd row, fifth from left. attire was wonderful man. and look at that hair.

jwps, class 4H of year 2001. i'm fourth from right in the sitting row. i made my mum tie my hair like that only for photo taking. the rest of the year i was in a ballet bun in school. and i coloured that girl's face (last row) cuz i didn't like her. anyway. don't you think i looked tall then?

jwps, class 5A of year 2002. i'm 3rd from left, sitting row. can't really see my hair huh. i had long hair with no fringe cuz of ballet, so there's not much hair visible.

jwps, class 6A of year 2003. i'm the first from left in the sitting row. no idea what sub that indian guy teacher taught us. i only knew he was in charge of drama. teachers say no other 6A has been able to rock like us okay!

that's the end of primary school. notice how i was in the same class with yee teng and weimin for four whole years and yun man for two years and though we four went to nh together, you don't see us talk. we were pretty close in primary school one okay! but is i don't want to talk to them lah. so end up they also don't talk to me.

nan hua secondary school, class 101 of year 2004. i'm 3rd from left in the sitting row. high socks, long skirt, really only 2cm on blouse out, perfect (and ugly) two ponytails, because my hair wasnt long enough for plaits yet. no wonder mrs lim lye sim loved me. but i'll turn my attire topsy turvy at moelc okay! fold socks fold skirt fold sleeves tie ponytail. yea, believe me. but i stopped doing that in sec two.

nan hua secondary school, class 201 of year 2005. 3rd from left, sitting row again. by the time we left that class, mr tan still didn't give us the outing to his studio as he promised. i've even graduated from nan hua already okay! my hair's abit longer so there's plaits, but my attire's pretty much the same. that year was a rather big year for nh. 88th anniversary, which i didn't perform for and got mr low hating me for the rest of my years in dance, and the change of name of the school to nan hua high. i remember signing a petition against that decision, which obviously didn't work. and that year i was brave and noble enough to choose the chinese lit elect geog bio chem subject combi. one thirteen, i remember. i was the only one in school taking that combi. and i don't think there'll be another one. and that horrible sharon left us to pursue her greater future in vj! made us all miss her so much.

nan hua high school, class 311 of year 2006. fourth from left, sitting row. i look like i've been reduced in size on the computer. that year was pretty bad for the class. ups and downs, and the ups never really reached high. teachers left, patriot and zhengyao transferred out, jk died, but i'm glad we pulled through.

nan hua high school, class 411 of year 2007. third from left, sitting row. i realised i've been sitting in this position for many class photos. and i'm still sitting beside mdm yong. short hair and chairman badge! this is the best class ever okay! though it's the exact same people as the previous year. it's been really nice to see the class shine like i knew we could! mr foo became our co-form this year too, making us even more special. it wasn't easy to pick up the class from ruins, but i'm glad i took up that challenge. i self-nominated as chairman in the beginning of the year, and never really regretted since. there were times i doubted my ability and doubted the people, but i'm honoured to have that special someone always by my side, always within reach. i don't know if i'll do this well without him. we won alot of worthy awards this year, proving that our class is not a slut class okay! (for more on the slut class thing, please go to august archives. somewhere near national day.)

it's been great being in foureleven. though i've got to admit, the subject combi i took was a big mistake. i'm glad i had support all these while. should i have taken triple science elect geog, which i firmly stood by for two years until the final minute i changed my mind and got posted to 311 instead of the genius 3/3: i've been thinking of what bad things others have said about our class, and i'm pretty sure if i haven't been part of the class, i'll say the same thing too. it's been a huge honour of mine, knowing all these special people in a rather personal kind of way.

oh man now i get the surge of feelings. i've really got to convince myself that i'm a graduate and never will be stepping into nan hua for lessons ever again. argh that sounds very sad. not the lessons part lah, but all the memories that we've created together within that campus. mr foo always said we, the 2004 batch, are the most special batch cuz we've the first 400+ students to spend our entire secondary school days in the new campus.

and i believe we are, for endless more unspoken reasons.

i've never really felt the sense of belonging in my primary school, but i would really like to thank everybody, including all the non-teaching staff and cleaners too, for my fabulous four years in nan hua. yep. like how mr rahman always called me "good morning stephanie!" and we chatted while i signed and took the keys from him every morning. and i've always just been calling him "uncle". that's one thing i'll miss about school.

(i realised i said to let the pictures do the talking in the beginning, but this still ended up as a very long and wordy post :/)

jjc!

pae briefing today! brought my fifty love letters to school to give out to my very special friends. including teachers! it's really a pity mrs owyong's not around anymore.

and i'm not sad i didn't go to grad night. the time was spent writing all these notes, and it was really gratifying to see the smiles on their faces and receiving the many hugs. and i got to see everyone today anyway! though jiacheng and yuhong and half of bbc and cheryl tan didn't appear. i had to leave a few notes on the teacher's table too. but it's fine!

my l1r5 raw is 14, minus four from cca and higher chinese, i'm left with ten. but i'm not stepping anywhere near meridian or nanyang okay. ms lim suggested anderson, which is in yio chu kang while i reside at the wild wild west of singapore. even though mr chin's there, i think i'll give up that idea. jjc's pretty appealing you know, with all the student-initiated stuff. i might just go there for the first few weeks. heard their orientation's fun too!

but should my o's allow me to enter hwa chong, i'll be going for it. otherwise, i'll just stick to jjc and work really hard for the next two years. it's near my house too!

yea i know how lousy jjc is in people's eyes. i thought that place sucked too. but i guess if i go there in my own will, i'll stand a pretty great chance of excel-ing for a's. there's no ki there though. so i've got to take gp and econs with chem, bio and math. i'll take an extra h2 german if they allow. if i can't qualify for h2 german i think i'll just give it up. really. cuz it's like, i've been learning the language for four whole years, and if i can't even score a b3 (the cut-off for h2), then it's really a failure. and there'll be no point carrying on in h1, since it's still an additional subject for me, which sort of wastes time, and i'll end up with a rather useless ao level cert.

yes, that's a really hard thing to let go, and i hope i'll never have to.

pae ended at eleven plus today. it was a really short process, like only the briefing by ms wassan, the giving out of the pae booklet and distribution of leaving cert, form a with our prelim results and yearbook. but me and my friends, we decided to stay and have a nice talk with teachers.

and ces was later than late. we lined up at the doorway to welcome her and there were only less than twenty people in the hall there, including teachers. and mr chow really bounced when we asked him to be the bouncer for ces' grand entrance. he's a really nice teacher okay!

talked to alot of teachers, and made an awful din at ms jesse lim's place. we were really loud, promting a few teachers around us to go "shhhhhh!", but i guess we never did tone down. it was really fun though!

took photo with theodore. for only one reason, that he's taller than me by more than FORTY cm. he looks very stretched in that photo. transformation!

mr foo wanted to see me at one, so the rest left first for lunch with zheng mian laoshi and huang jiehui laoshi. it's nice seeing teachers being so close with students. i'm close with the principals too okay! though i haven't exactly developed a liking for mr lau.

and oh nanhuarians out there, whether you've graduated or not. mrs siew fei min's been promoted to vp, beginning next year.

i didn't have lunch today. cuz initially mr foo said he'll treat me, but then when he came back the canteen was closed. we went back to his office then. he got mdm atun to make me coffee. then we ate biscuits! and talked alot. and took many photos. with him, mr ng (the om) and mr lam.

and mr lam shocked me today.
him: do you take a foreign language or something?
me: yea, german.
him: oh cuz i saw you at junction eight once.
me: (?!?!) and you didn't say hi?!
him: i was watching if you'll do anything funny.
yes i'm sure he's my vice-principal.

i tell you i love mrs b lim okay! she saw me waiting at the general office and came to talk to me. asked me about my prelim results. i told her, "ten, with the bonus points!" i thought she'll start on how i disappointed her, and instead she said, "so good!" then i was like, "ten leh!" her: "i know lah, you! must be aiming for two right!" me: "no lah. three." then she laughed and left to do her stuff. she's been a great teacher, always standing by foureleven!

if i get three i can make it to hwa chong okay! yea, i'm not dreaming of raffles already. that place doesn't make me feel at home. really sorry ces and liwen.

i think i'm pretty okay with the chalet stuff already, though it's still getting abit tight with the cash. but we'll make it though! thanks anyway weijie, for thinking of helping.

chingay?

i am absolutely disgusted! oh yes that reminds me of the howler ron received in harry poster and the chamber of secrets.

but anyway. i signed up for the chingay volunterring a few weeks back, then received an email asking me to fill up a cv and send it back, and CHECK MY MAIL EVERYDAY FOR UPDATES. that was 4th november, and till now i've not heard from them! and yes i've been faithfully checking my mail everyday. there's a mail today from this british charity promotion thing/person telling me i've won two hundred and fifty thousand pounds. haha. scammers.

in the united states they've got customised m&m's. like, you choose the colours (they've got TWENTY TWO COLOURS okay!), and a message, and they'll print it on the little chocolates. so cool right! then they'll pack your customised chocolates in your choice of packaging. when is it going to come to singapore?!

o's are OVER.

right. o's over. was over, since it was the last paper yesterday. met mr yeo at the go noticeboard place, and liwen told him, "i'm not happy that o's are ending! i've lost my direction in life!"

which is actually true you know, cuz we've been studying so much that after it all there's absolutely nothing to do. except to fill up a stupid travel form (when we're graduates?!) and hand in it on friday.

oh i know why i'm so free. cuz i'm not going for grad night. lol. they were coming up with plans for me to crash the event, like ces goes in with ticket, goes toilet with ticket and pass me ticket so i go in. lol. no lah i'm going to enjoy my freedom. and not ruin my good-girl image. heh.

bio paper was relatively easy. half an hour to finish, like mr adrian tan said that morning. three girls from foureleven were late. thank goodness it's a paper one, since no extra time is given and we don't actually need that much time. and i spotted that gamer teacher keep talking to clarissa. something about the piercing she got on her lower lip ba. but that's like since the start of o's can. last paper then tell her...abit lag. haha.

as we got out of the school, we walked by the prc scholars english room thing. b lim was talking to them. aaron, with his brown-but-sprayed-black-but-still-brown hair wanted to en route but he decided not finally, and walked by with us. we though he was safe, until b lim suddenly went "aaron! your hair is terrible!" but wells. last paper. maybe they'll ban him entrance on pae or something. lol.

YES ah the ultimate sadness. nobody went out with me after o's okay. cuz liwen was short of cash and wanted to go home and wait till her brother arrives and have lunch at home then go out. but my whole point was to eat out, so forget it. ate at home, watched tv and slept. and watched movie on youtube. all while fourone was having their chalet.

and our chalet's still screwed up. i just can't figure out why ruth and amber didn't even bother to reply my sms to tell me that they can't fork out the money now. at least i'll know mah. like, when i asked them in the hall then they tell me. i sent the sms twice somemore. i've got more than a hundred bucks now, but it's definitely not enough. didn't manage to catch ena and the amber and ruth're paying for three people. and i've managed to pull more people for bbq!

jiabin sent me a very funny messge yesterday, asking me to prepare for extra payment when yuhong's dad gets in a good mood and money comes rolling in. omg maybe he'll sponsor our chalet or something. that'll be nice.

i forgot to look for mr foo yesterday, to give him the cd. nevermind, there's friday. but then i've got so many things to do on friday! i plan to get all the namecards from teachers who teach/taught me, take a photo with theodore cuz he's more than 40cm taller than me, then go look for mr foo.

it sucks to suddenly realise you're actually not belonging anywhere okay! i was thinking about my time in nan hua last night, and it suddenly struck me that i've actually graduated. without a proper graduation ceremony thing lah. but not going for grad night's my idea. i actually had people who were willing to pay for my stuff. i doubt pae will be much. i foresee more crying at grad night. imagine all the smeared mascara. girls, make sure you wear water-proof ones.

JASMINE LYNN MENG XUE, YOU'D BETTER SEE THIS WHEN YOU RETURN FROM CHALET/GRAD NIGHT. GO FOR PAE. though you'll end up in england anyway.

ARGH! (chem paper one over!)

one down, ONE more to go! (omg omg omg)

chem paper one was...okay lah. spotted a few repeated questions from the past years, but there were also dribs and drabs of crazy questions.

i've got to get this out of my head: I'M SHORT OF CASH FOR THE CHALET. because two people backed out all of a sudden, leaving us fifty bucks short. even joy coming for the barbecue's not going to save us. how how how!?!?

back to the paper. examiner said to check the details printed on the otas, so i scanned though everything but i stopped short at a number twenty five below the date. sure it's my register number, but what's it doing on my otas?

raised my hand and asked. then the examiner came to me and put her hand round my shoulder. lol. asked about the number twenty five and she shot a glance, a really really sharp and quick one, at jeslyn's paper. then she said it doesn't matter, as long as the name, centre number and index are correct. i don't think she knows what it is also.

argh the chalet thing's really bothering me. i've got no idea how i got my original calculations. die die die.

hopefully i'll be better tomorrow so you'll get a more complete post.

mr foo's cd!

yesterday i had this note on my phone's calendar: burn mr foo's cd. no lah, not set fire. i compiled a cd of foureleven pictures and the class video for him, and did the cover today. i'm still thinking whether or not to vandalise the cd face. the cover says, "with utmost love for the greatest principal cum co-form teacher".

anyway that's not my point of this post. chem paper one's later, so i thought i should get my head clear of chinese lit paper two first. so here goes:

friday, chinese lit paper two. i studied okay! but there's nothing really much that can be done with this paper, cuz you can only study for the first part, which is twenty five marks out of the fifty-mark paper.

dang it's raining really hard and im afraid i'll get eletrocuted from the computer and not be able to finish my o's. argh!

but i shall finish this post. i initially wanted to go to the library to finish up my chem mcq exercises one lor. at the rate the raindrops are falling, i'd think it's going to start snowing soon.

so. the paper. reached school just as the security uncle was about to lock up the back gate. talked abit. he told me and daichao, cuz we went to school together, to get all a's so he can get abit of glory too! must have been brainwashed by mr foo. then daichao said can, get all a's, a2. twelve marks l1r5 see go where. lol. went up to classroom and realised nobody was there. i've been early, but never this early okay! so we went to the library. zhao han and yilan we already in there. mug mug mug, stopped at deng3 ni3, zai4 yu3 zhong1. and went to the exam room. i think the whole school opened for us c lit people only lah! and one malay lit private candidate.

flipped open the seven-printed-pages question paper, and the shi1 question was sui sui deng3 ni3, zai4 yu3 zhong1. happy luh. i stopped there earlier, but didn't read. so i just answered based on the previous 14035 times i read it. heh. this time my question paper was pretty messy too, but at least it was sensible. i actually spent like ten minutes planning out my answer. the oxiao3 shuo1 question was a puny portion of bai3 he2 hua1. i think it'll suck answering that question. but i didn't bother to study xiao3 shuo1 anyway.

and i think examiners are frogs who lived in the well. (jing3 di3 zhi1 wa1) i doubt they've seen singaporeans taking c lit before. which explains why they keep walking over to my place, stop of three quarters of a second looking at my answers, then continue the patrol work. i don't know about jiacheng though, since he's behind me. but it's really irritating okay. they look at me, i'll look at them. and you know how much it sucks when you seddenly have the faintest idea of a point for the answer and a little distration completely dissolves it? yes that's what happened. i actually forgot how to write lian4 ren2 that lian4 okay. and i had to use that words four times. sucks. i just hope the examiners will be sane enough to not mark that as four cuo4 bie2 zi4s, since it's four times the same word.

i'm positive i spent too much time on that question. like, one hour, out of the ninety minutes paper. was meant to spend only half an hour on the first part and leave more time for the unseen prose part. but it's still okay lah. speed-read the two questions i had to choose one out of. decided i should take the xiao3 shuo1 since it was nicer. the poem thing was on some snowflake. lol.

the story was on this anaesthethist, whoever carries out the anaesthetic works in the hospital. this patient was the man with whom his wife had an affair five years back. he was gloating at this chance for him to take revenge, because he could just give him a fraction of the original amount of anaesthetic so he would be in massive pain in the middle of the operation. and since he was a really good doctor, people would just pass it off as an accident and it won't damage his career. but then he saw the guy's wife, his ex-wife, being so worried bout that guy, so he decided to drop that idea and save that guy.

i thought he was very professional. and yes, stephanie wishes to be a doctor in the future. it'll most probably require anaesthethists too, cuz i won't just be those japlang flu cough fever stomachache doctor. heh. i'll be handling knives and blood! now i sound like some serial killer.

back to the topic. so the second part was like a condensed compre. three questions, seven mark twelve mark six mark. so so lah. i didn't get to put in the professional part. couldn't find the right place to put it. hope it'll be okay.

the examiner who collected our papers was like, "please write down your dictionary name..." theni interrupted cuz she was just beside me, "but we aren't supposed to use dictionaries what." walau if we can really use it then i won't be having four dammit blanks for the lian4 word.

it was rather unthinkable. out exam ended at four, but by four oh eight i was already at the first traffic light towards central. so fast meh. considering the extra time we took cuz a few of us forgot to put in details on the cover page like question number and subject name.

i'm hungry. woke up at six i think, and sent my brother to school. came back and did abit of chemistry and it sort of hypnotised me so i came to the comp instead. i think i'll go back to it again.

another update this afternoon!

tagged!

aaron tagged me. just in time cuz my o's seem to be over. thanks loads for the wonderful chinese lit paper today. shall elaborate more after this quiz thing. (moon river's playing on my itunes!)

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
ah my birthday's like so far away okay! but i suppose, those on my wishlist now, plus plus. just give me one wish, and i'll say, before blowing out the candles on my wonderful seventeenth birthday cake, "i'd like more wishes please!"

Answer the following questions:
1. The person who tagged you is?
aaron chan zhi hao.

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
two years' worth of classmates and four years' worth of very very very good friends.

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
#1 erm. suddenly i feel i don't know aaron well. he's a really nice friend who tries his best makes time for everybody.
#2 he's a very good listener.
#3 i don't know how he does it, but he seems to be very popular. everywhere we go, in school or play pool, we seem to meet someone he knows.
#4 he's an avid christian. though he doesn't really show it.
#5 he can really work hard when he wants to. but he's not really great at bio.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
sending me to third lang in sec one while the rest of the girls went to get my birthday present. he actually was supposed to abandon me and go with them.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
stephie mei mei! don't you guys start calling me that.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
that'll never happen.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
i'm fine with aaron being himself.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy you will?
delete him from all forms of contacts. but given his very easy-to-memorise handphone number, i think i'll sms him really soon. and i doubt we'll ever be enemies.

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
a very nice fifteen-year old. no i didn't get the age wrong.

(aaron: what happened to 9, 10 and 12.? hahaha.)

13.The character(s) you love of yourself is/are?
楊欣穎. MUST be 繁体okay! that was aaronic. the character i love about myself? that i'm stephanie.

14.On the contrary, the character(s) you hate of yourself is/are?
that i'm stephanie too? there must be some bad points about me.

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
yeo xin ying, stephanie. but i want to be a guitar player and a better friend.

16.Pass this quiz to 10 people. in alphabetical order.
#1 amber
#2 annabel
#3 bessy (you shall do it again, since yours was eons ago. and yes, i know you passed it to aaron who passed it to me.)
#4 eugene koh
#5 jiabin
#6 kaiwen
#7 ruth
#8 SIEW KIANG! (unexpected, i know.)
#9 tay wei jie (your friends made you start that true friend test, i shall make you start a blog. haha.)
#10 weixian (hey even at denmark you'll need time off okay!)

17.Who is no.6 (kaiwen) having a relationship with?
xian jie? lol.

18.Is no.9 (weijie) a male or female?
male.

19.If no.7 (ruth) and 10 (weixian) are together, will it be a good thing?
MAYBE? but ruth's my age and weixian's, what, ten years older? and they don't know each other.

20.How about no.8 (siew kiang) and 5 (jia bin)?
no. one of them, or maybe both of them are attached.

21.What is no.2 (annabel) studying about?
english, higher chinese, e math, a math, physics, bio, chem, ss, elect hist, and softball.

22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 (bessy)?
a long long time ago, when she was pretty active at my tagboard.

23.What kind of music band does no.8 (siew kiang) like?
ack that i don't know. oldies plus lesbian songs?

24. Does no.1 (amber) has any siblings?
one younger sister.

25. Will you woo no.3 (bessy)?
no. i'm definitely straight.

26. Is no.4 (eugene) single?
no, he's part of a choir so he's never alone.

27. What's the surname of no.5 (jiabin)?
ong. or kwala. without the or.

28. What's the hobby of no.4 (eugene)?
singing and complaining his german's very bad. and talking crap. no actually i'm not really sure. maybe he collects pokemon stickers.

29.Do no.5 (jiabin) and 9 (weijie) get along well?
they dont know each other. but i don't think so.

30.Where is no.2 (annabel) studying at?
the softball court. RJC! but before that, nan hua high school secondary 4/1.

31.Talk something casually about no.1 (amber)?
she's a really nice girl though many wouldn't think so. amber's a very nice friend! she injects life into foureleven. though she's absent half the time.

32. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 (siew kiang)?
huh no. maybe she has for me. but that i'd rather not know.

33.Where does no.9 (weijie) live at?
argh he told me two days ago but i forgot. somewhere not very near my house. but his second home's catholic high at the moment.

34.What color does no.4 (eugene)like?
the grey of nj's uniform? or the black red gold of germany's flag.

35. Are no.5 (jiabin) and 1 (amber) best friends?
best, i don't think so. but jiabin buys breakfast for amber!

36.Does no.7 (ruth) like no.2 (annabel)?
i think they know each other. friend-like maybe yes lah.

37. How did you get to know no.2 (annabel)?
through aaron, early last year.

38. Does no.1 (amber) have any pets?
yes, a rabbit and a mushroom.

39. Is no.7 (ruth) the sexiest person in the world?
that's not a question deemed fit for me to answer. but she is pretty. and a great friend. though abit blur sometimes.

mum says to go to sleep. i've got subway cravings. shall continue on the c lit topic tomorrow.

niu zai hen mang de!

after reading aaron's blog i went to listen to 牛仔很忙的 and now the 不要麻烦了 keeps ringing in my head. haha.

before this day ends, happy deepavali! i think i spent most of my day sleeping. sorry i did slack, hannah.

slept past twelve last night, but i woke up at three. took a short glance at my phone to check the time then i went back to sleep. woke up second time at eight thirty. i didn't want to have breakfast with my dad so i went back to sleep. just didn't feel like it cuz i know he'll talk alot and i wasn't in the talking mood then. and when i woke up for good at ten thirty, he was already back from the market. lol.

i didn't really touch chinese lit until like, one plus. could get much inside my head so i put it aside, only to pick it up again at four thirty. and i fell asleep while reading it. cuz i was like sprawling on my bed mah. so it's like, read, sleep, wake up, read, sleep, wake up, read sleep wake up...well you get eh idea. happened so many times i was appalled that i was only not even one quarter done when i jumped awake at six fifteen.

i'm more than half done now. shall continue tomorrow. i hope the c lit elect people have a good time. cuz tomorrow's their only c lit paper.

it sucks not having a direction in life, really.

ZDj! (zett day yot)

i'm done with ZDj! it was a very dramatic day at goethe institut.

planned to meet up with irene and hannah and weijie and ranika at somerset mrt at eight thirty. reached early and spent my time videoing busy people walking past me. only the legs part. then hannah arrived and said ranika reached already. thought she meant reached mrt but then hannah confirmed that she was already at goethe. then irene came and we waited for weijie. at 8.44 he said he was still at novena so we left first. were supposed to reach at nine.

walked in the rain with our respective umbrellas to winsland house two. saw the people in the very first classroom so we went in. there were just nice only three seats left. sat beside ranika.

then weijie and jocelyn arrived. had funny moments when frau opper wanted to spell this china guy's name but he couldn't really pronnounce the german alphabet. the "z" in his name became "c" and "g", and only on the third try frau opper got it. he wanted to go write it himself but frau opper refused.

and she said she only had seventeen names on her list, and there were twenty of us present. attendance was taken, and when all the g4e-ers had their names checked, there was still no sign of my name.

it's a pretty complicated story. i sent in my cheque on 29 oct, due date was the 31st. was told to attach mailing address (my house address) so they could send me my receipt. i did, on a separate piece of paper which i wrote my e mail address on too, just in case. on november 2nd i received this EMAIL saying i didn't attach my mailing address so they couldn't send me my receipt. that email was condemned to the junk mail folder though, so i didn't read it until like, the day before yesterday.
on nov 5, bio paper day, i called up goethe to ask about my receipt. (cuz i didn't know about the email remember.) the lady at the other side, apparently, didn't know about the mailing address affair and told me i could collect it on the exam day since the exam's nearing.
so today i went to the classroom w/o any proof that i paid except for the email. so when far opper didn't call my name, i went to the headmistress to tell her about the situation. then she flashed out two receipt and one of them was mine. so she said i'm safe and i went back to my seat.

compre and cloze was ninety minutes, followed by a short break then half an hour's listening, another short break then half and hour's compo. the standard's still okay lah. but the paper's for youths between 12 and 15 years of age, so we sec four people are actually old. at the end of the compo frau opper wrote down the schedule for oral later that afternoon. she explained that the centre could only fit in ten students today and the other ten would have to return on friday. my name was originally at the back. yes, last one. but i raised my hand and told her i'll be having o's that day so she appealed for nice souls to change schedules with me. weijie said he couldn't, and ranika was super nice to agree to the change. but frau opper said it in a way as if it was my fault. though she did mention she's got no preference of the order we take our exam in.

went for lunch then, since we had an hour's break. jocelyn went off first because she had a mahjong date. reminds me of joy luck club. had porridge while ranika and hannah had fried rice. irene and weijie were sitting at another table since ours could only accomodate four. they got porridge too. i remember going to the same shop with derniese in june last year thrice in one week. so i brought them there this time. derniese didn't take the exam cuz she thought it was pretty pointless after taking german o's already.

irene left first cuz her timing was the earliest, but the rest of us left shortly after. ranika went home, weijie had stuff to settle, so i went back to goethe with hannah first. and stoned alot there. crapped alot too. it wasn't even irene's tie when we went back. talking sorta helped release tension.

andrew came out of the exam room and stuck out his tongue. those i'm-going-to-be-so-dead kind of stick out tongue. he made it sound like the whole thing was a torture. but we heard many bouts of laughter from the examiners while we were outside! then was irene's turn. she came out and stuck out her tongue too, the same kind of meaning. she got a weird topic, asking her to talk about her favourite drink. there was this article thing you had to refer to and give your comments. she said she doesn't like the drinks listed, but loved beer instead. lol. then was hannah's turn. SHE STUCK OUT HER TONGUE WHEN SHE CAME OUT TOO. she got to talk about her favourite school subject, and she said history's boring. then the examiner told her irene said she loved history. hannah doesn't take history too.

then was my moment. i vowed not to stick out my tongue when i exit from the room. three people in front of me was enough. imagine if weijie (after me) had to go through the hell of four people sticking out their tongues after the exam.

first part was introducing myself, i lied and said my dad's an engineer.
second part they gave me the article labelled "e". was on what youths do in their free time. talked about how i like swimming and running and sometimes play basketball. then the headmistress (she was the other examiner with frau opper) asked if i'm part of the school team. then i shocked the two of them telling them my cca's dance. they really opened their eyes wide okay!
third part was crazy. i didn't understand the question on the piece of paper, but thankfully far opper did some explanation. it was about planning a class trip to another country which you know well, and how you'll describe the place to your friends. it's been eons since i went a considerable distance away from singapore. but i mentioned hong kong. based on the very very vague memory of seven years ago. i guess it went okay lah. talked about the hong kong disneyland being reported to be very small and how i experienced a typhoon the other time i went there and what a good place hong kong is for shopping and the schools there.
at the end, frau opper asked me about the paper i was meant to have on friday. told the ladies it was chinese lit and they got shocked again. and they said good luck in those kind of ahh-i-know-it's-not-going-to-be-easy tone.

went out and gave those outside a big smile. at least the whole exam went better than i had expected. took alot of postcards.

conclusion: germans are nice, german is nice, germany will definitely be nice when i set foot there one day.

i'm wondering how they'll send me my results and cert when they don't have my mailing address.

chinese lit paper one over

one down, three to go. now i've got the same number of papers left as the triple science people!

jiacheng called me last night to ask if i could lend him my xi4 qu3 notes. i didn't plan to go to school early, so i didn't lend him. but he found them anyway.

woke up pretty early today to drill chinese lit, but they just couldnt stay put in my brain. so at 9+, i left home for the library, which opens at ten. people were queueing up with their faces nearly stuck onto the shutters waiting for the library to open lah. then when it was finally ten, some RAN in so they could sit their butts on their throned seats. talk about library manners.

read the proses first, tang2 shi1 and gu3 wen2. took like, one and a half hour to finish the two books. then i read through my xiao3 shuo1 notes again, then scanned through xi4qu3, thinking that they're not really important since it's never come out before. left the place at twelve thiry, went for lunch then headed for school.

on the way i was thinking and thinking about the paper i was so scared that i whipped out my phone and sms-ed wang laoshi, telling her i'm scared. then she replied saying the paper isn't hard (i wondered how she knew) and that she had prayed for us. after i saw that, tears sorta welled in my eyes and i think the people around me thought i was some psycho or something. saw lin laoshi while walking to school. she said hi.

yanglu was praying that xi4 qu3 would come out. and i was whining all the way.

then was the moment. i was staring at the question booklet lying peacefully on the table (which had alot of vulgarities vandalised on), and the big fat answer booklet B which squashed the question paper underneath, cuz it's like so much thicker. two o clock came and i flipped open the questions.

the first question was on xi4 qu3. the second one (you had to choose one) was on shi1ci2.

yes, i didn't really study both. i'm doomed. i took the xi4 qu3 one anyway, since that was the only one i could possibly answer. and scribbled ALOT on my question paper. here:

well do zoom in to see what i wrote. apparently my answer wasn't accurate. maybe out of the twenty five marks i'll get some beautiful single digit. then i'm really doomed. i answered question three too.

managed to fill up five and a half pages. those box-ed chinese foolscap. i don't like using those for lit cuz it's slow to write on that kind of paper. we use normal foolscap normally, like in class tests and prelims.

ack. i hope paper two will help pull me up. i want a distinction. i'm not wishing for a1 anymore, for chinese lit. i still remember i got ten out of fifty for chinese lit paper one in prelims. overall grade was a devastating e8, lowest in class.

tomorrow's ZDj! yes i do plan to bring my chinese lit along. and i've sort of forgotten how to get to winsland house. i know it's at somerset, near the skating thing. suddenly i feel very detached from german, like i haven't been in contact with it for eons. aftermath of o's.

ss over, bio paper two over

two down, four more to go!

i was staring at my entry proof in the hall while waiting for the examiner to collect my paper after bio. 5099/02 biology. and beneath it was printed four other papers, chinese lit paper one and two, chem and bio paper one. then i was wondering, i remember in my latest exam post i wrote six more to go. after bio, shouldn't it be five? i ran through the question several times, then i remembered: i took ss this morning. man. the long three+ hour break sucks.

ss was okay lor. liwen was exclaiming that venice WON'T come out. finished the source-based as fast as i could, though not really fast, and flipped to the last page. lo and behold, the rise and fall of venice was snug right at the bottom. yea i did that. didn't expect it to come out for so many consecutive years. adelaine and gang was saying, for the whole of ss, study venice can already! and the hall-ers got to take back their question papers. our examiner collected ours.

oh, i've been scribbling my index number and signing on my question papers so far, but i've yet to find them when i go get question papers from the lobby. saw sonia's this morning. it says "don't you dare steal my paper!" then a big big SONIA underneath, and "i bite!" all in fluorescent pink. i wonder if she'll manage to find her paper in that massive pile.

the three-plus hours break was torture man. didn't drill in alot of bio luh. went with liwen to get coffee for ces, and saw mr lau, mr sean see and another TA there. mr lau waved to me. he's the cca coordinator person if you were wondering. he knows me pretty well because foureleven has alot of cca problems and he keeps coming up to our sixth-level classroom, knocks on the door and asks, "may i see the class chairman please?" and this happens so many times that somewhere near term end i didn't even have to wait for him to finish his question.

time ticked slowly by, and after what seemed like eternity (this sounds like a primary school english compo), it was finally one thirty. so we packed our stuff and proceeded to the hall. row seventeen table fifteen. i'm like, the fourth last. what to do? fourELEVEN when fourtwelve doesn't take bio and Yeo xin ying stephanie. i've always been condemned to the back of the register, unlike aaron who's fourONE and has two a's in the beginning of his name. but that poor guy has no variety, from the start of o's and most probably till the end he's sitting at row one table one with the index number 0001.

bio was a funny paper. all the hormones things i crammed into my puny brain before the exam didn't come out. and i relied on primary school basic ecology to answer the very first question and the last, cuz i thought that the bio textbook's ecology's very longwinded. but anyway i managed to fill up a whole page for my essay. and i was pretty confident after the paper, until jeslyn turned around and we began discussing answers.

it'll be fine.

thought of a traumatising thing as we walked to central. hope it doesn't come true. went to kfc with the rest, who so by coincidence, only have three sciences' paper ones left. so it's as if their o's have ended. but i've got papers tomorrow, wednesday and friday, and then i'll be left with two paper ones while they slog their brain juices out for physics paper one! heh.

i studied chinese lit while they were eating at kfc. not bad lah. reached tang2chuan2qi2.

then liwen left for some (red) date with somebody whom she refused to tell, and ces and jasmine accompanied ade to jp with me. my motive was just to go to popular lah, but these very free people were there to shop for shoes and clothing.

i realised yesterday's post was horridly clogged up.

chinese lit paper's at two tommorow, but i really think i'll wake up at like five thirty in the morning and start drilling them into my brain and make sure they're deeply etched. then when i reach home after the paper tomorrow i'll drill german.

oh talk about german. the ZDj's divided into two main components, the written exam and the oral component. the written will last from nine am to twelve ten pm, then there will be a break till one fifteen pm, at which the oral exam begins. we've not been given the time slot at which we'll actually be tested, but hannah said we'll know only at goether institute that day. it lasts till four fifteen. i've got this very disturbing feeling that it's according to alphabetical order, so as usual, Yeo xin ying stephanie will be placed right at the back. imagine if i'm the last. each oral exam takes fifteen minutes, so mine'll be at four. so what am i supposed to do from twelve ten to four?

i know. mug for chinese lit paper two in german. it's on friday anyway.

yes trip science people, laugh. even in german the saying exists. he who laughs best, laughs last. i shall be the "she" who laughs last.

hello.

oops just checked my mail and realised the chingay cv's due tommorw. i shall fill it up before coming back to blog.

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ack it's ten thirty already. shall go watch high school musical and be back later today.

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it's two fifty two now. and i haven't done even abit of studying. home just doesn't seem like a suitable place to mug. damn. i had two stacks of notes right infront of me when watching high school musical but i ignored them completely and stuck me face into zits comics.

it suddenly dawned on me how near ss and bio are. like, eight tommorow morning. and once again, i found myself bedazzled by how the people arrange my timetable. there's a four-hour interval between ss and bio tomorrow can. i think if i start reading my bio in that four hours also can lor! provided b3b4 don't do something weird like go to letts' house and get his mum to fry rice.

i'm hooked on casting crowns. "and if the family turns to Jesus, stop asking oprah what to do!" and the goethe institute podcast refuses to download itself.

ss. merger and separation and sri lanka and northern ireland and governance and development and venice. that's all i'm going to do. and yes, revise source-based skills too cuz that brought me down by alot for prelims. i was so focused on revising for the essay questions that when the paper was right infront of me, i flipped the page and was like, shit i forgot that source-based actually existed.

bio. it's getting crazy luh. 1st page. hey i read this before. 2nd page. eh i know this already. and this goes on throughout my stack of notes. but when it comes to exams, they give you some crazy question on a worm and expect you to know it's on diffusion and osmosis and active transport. i really don't want to, but i'm thinking of dropping bio in jc. may just continue with chem as my only science so as to make space for german.

and i realised nobody in foureleven dropped bio. must be because of mdm yong.

oh yea. one night my dad came back and showed me his thumbdrive.

him: inside got virus leh. our computer can clean?

me: we've got no anti-virus software. you plug into the computer and that's it.

him: huh like that one arh.

me: ya lah.

him: but i need to print the pictures inside leh.

me: then too bad luh. oh ya hor, how you know inside got virus?

him: my friend help me scan lor. but i forgot to ask if he got help me clean away the virus. talked to him halfway then i left liao. (i thought this was pretty stupid)

me: then you ask whether he got help you clean lah. call or something.

him: but so late liao. i need the pictures at work tomorrow leh.

me: but you want to do it at the expense of the computer meh.

him: can risk anot?

me: cannot.

then we continued watching tv. and after five minutes or so, it started again.

him: eh our windows 95 computer (yes we still have it with us) can open the pictures anot?

me: can lah, if got the usb port.

him: can print right?

me: can. the old printer plugged there what.

him: but got colour?

me: have lah! last time our that printer can print colour one what.

him: orh, can ah.

me: ya, unless no ink cartridge inside lah.

him: then i go try arh.

me: okay lor, you're just risking to damage a not-that-good computer lor.

him: huh like that arh. then i don't want liao.

me: just tell them tomorrow that you cannot print the pictures lah.

him: orh. tell them cannot print can already arh? no need to say anything else?

me: hmm.

i think my dad's interesting.

something just caught my eye. a bold word's "fett" in german, and words in italics are known as "kursiv", like, cursive.

chinese lit's at two pm on tuesday and two thirty on friday. somebody tell me why i don't feel the urgency at all. oh to top that up like a glace cherry on a sundae, ZDj's on wednesday. maybe i'll go celebrate deepavali on thursday or something.

do i have to wear uniform for ZDj? there's absolutely nothing about attire on the website. it's not even a cert actually offered in singapore. very few places in the worlds have it in fact. went to check. ad it's meant for youths aged twelve to fifteen. i'm sixteen already okay!

ack ack. i'm considering whether to spend the next few hours in the library. it'll be the third consecutive day if i go. my aim in going there's only so that i don't fall asleep at home. pathetic right.

end post: three nineteen pm. i suddenly think i type pretty fast, if this was actually a compo. there should be more than five hundred words in this post.

physics today!

well there's half an hour more till the end of physics paper two! so foureleven people are happy frolicking on the net/in bed/in books now! cuz we're the only twenty nine people in the whole sec four cohort who decided to give up physics. heh.

let's go back to two days ago, higher chinese paper. our room had higher chinese, higher malay and higher tamil all under one roof, cuz we've got private candidates. then the examiner was a friendly malay guy. i haven't come across many non-chinese teachers. nan hua has like two malay teachers, cikgu nur'ain and mrs sabar, and a few tamil teachers, mr pandian, mrs raja, miss sathi and miss kali. i suppose my memory hasn't failed me.

but anyways. chinese compo was a very...special paper. my letter was like an argumentative essay and my bao zhang du hou gan was more like an aimless mess of words. functional was twenty marks and compo's seventy lor. see i die anot.

so after the paper i went towards the express chinese classrooms. then josie came to me and told me she threw her dictionary and it got stuck between the window panes and hte back of the lockers, where she could touch the poor book but was unable to get it out. so i suggested we get it from inside. shufen and another nice guy helped. and after much laughter and calls of "poor book!" we managed to get the dictionary out by opening it into half and sliding it out through the
window. we wanted to get out the window panes lor!
and i thought, at first, that josie threw the dictionary there on purpose, like, in celebration of no more of the wretched chinese.

i forgot my bottle that day, so i was having a pretty hard time in compo. drinking water sort of gives me inspiration. oh yea that reminds me. they haven't announced the winner of the inspiration compo competition, but the school year has ended! whatever. i shall put up my work here one day.

went down to canteen with amber and ruth, then when we went up we realised we were actually late so we ran to the classrooms. actually wanted to talk to fu2 laoshi one. seconds before the paper began, cuz the examiner sort of waited for us, one of the private candidates realised she was given the wrong answer booket. i think it was for higher malay. she was sitting for hcl. so she was frantically trying to peel the barcode sticker out of the hml booket so she could stick it on the new hcl one. but it got into quite a bad condition luh. then the examiner started hte paper and took the sticker-still-half-stuck hml booket from her. i thought he was going to like, call the chief examner and get a new sticker for her. but turned out he helped her tear! and the sticker sort of got torn, from what i see, rather badly. this means seab gave us good quality stickers, cuz they stick really well.

okay now i sounds like some idiot who, instead of doing my paper, went to see what the private candidates and examiner were doing. distraction mah!

i checked yeaterday. only the first open ended compre passage for o's came out in our prelims. but the second one also looked very familiar. probably from some other school's paper, or even worse, from our workbooks. but still, one's very coincidental already okay!

went for lunch at central market with ces, liwen, ade and jasmine. saw teachers. mr yeo walked past our table thrice without carrying anything back to his table lor! we were there laughing everytime he walked past. then mrs lee, queuing at a stall near us, was like peering irritatedly everytime we did that. we left and walked past the table the teachers were sitting at and i said "bye mr yeo, enjoy your lunch!" then we left. adelaine told us, "eh i think mr yeo wanted to say something." then i continued, "but he realised he doesn't teach you people and stephanie was gone huh." lol.

liwen brought jasmine and ces to the jw library. i didn't go cuz i was pretty tired and wanted to go home and sleep. then i met daichao on the way home. that guy stays four blocks away from me and really makes use of the amenities available lor. he goes to the library after every paper and stays till the library closes.

went home and news broke out. shan't elaborate, but it did affect me pretty much. was feeling super sleepy the next two days. and i woke up at like, near nine today.

i guess the physics paper has ended! hope it went well!

thought this song was really meaningful:

I wonder, have I done my best for Jesus,
Who died upon the cruel tree?
To think of His great sacrifice at Calv'ry
I know my Lord expects the best from me.

How many are the lost that I have lifted?
How many are the chained I've helped to free?
I wonder have I done my best for Jesus
When He has done so much for me.

The days that I have wasted are so many
The hours I've spent for Christ so few;
Because of all my lack of love for Jesus,
I wonder if His heart is breaking too.

I wonder, have I cared enough for others,
Or have I let them die alone?
I might have helped a wand'rer to the Saviour,
The seed of precious Life I might have sown.

No longer will I stay in the valley
I'll climb to mountain heights above;
The world is dying now for want of someone
To tell them of the Saviour's matchless love.