figured out since i'm relatively free i might as well blog more. so that i don't get alzheimer's.
you know the thing with me finding a job is, with no prior experience in the work world, i've got nearly nothing to put in my resume. so to make it look more juicy, i put down all my volunteering stuff into the document.
and guess what, the employers really do read them. my first interview, bulk of it was spent describing chingay, cssp, connect sg and fll. the interviewer's first qn regarding my resume was, "you like to play lego arh?"
but the next interviewer didn't seem very interested. jumped straight to my leadership qualities and so we chatted about cdc.
honestly, after being a relatively active volunteer, being part of cdc is the next thing that makes me proud of myself. i mean like, who else gets promoted in the exco? usually you get a position, and you stay with it till you leave the club. for me, one month through my membership with cdc, i got my assistant head of admin post, and one year after being part of cdc, on a fateful sunday, mr lee promoted me to vice president. how cool is that.
but of course those positions came at a price. it was friendship. one of my very first friends in jj, somehow took a twist of fate and we hardly talk. maybe it wasn't intentional, idk, but i never dared to bring up the topic to thrash out. she brought me into cdc, ie i joined cdc because after bring a council reject i was an abandoned kid so i just joined her cca. then i climbed up the ladder and she graduated still at the bottom. but i did try to bring her up, so there's nothing against my conscience. though i am at a position of some power, there's still the almighty one that we have to take orders from.
so yes, friendship is a touchy topic for me in jj. everyone seems to know everyone and can work with everyone, but deep down knives may be poking in all directions. we're growing up too fast. why all the backstabbing and betrayal and hypocrisy when we are barely 20 years old.
volunteering does take my mind of things. even though mom kinda objects to it. because there's no material reward at the end. there's no transport remuneration. you contribute your time, you contribute your money, you do the work, you get a tshirt, you come home late, that's it. but to me it's alot more. even though now i definitely feel a little heartache thanks to adult fare. it's the friends. it's the experience. it's the very cliched sense of satisfaction you derive from witnessing a successful event. it's knowing that you're part of this cause. even though at the end of the day you might discover that there are people playing rough, people going through loopholes, but that's what it's all about, isn't it? to learn from past mistakes, to make the next project better.
i don't do orphanages or old folks' home. those have schools to take care of. why i volunteer with hw is cuz it offers me a different volunteering experience. different from what i got from visiting jamiyah home in secondary school. the people in the homes stay there. they could be your friends, but they only stay there. hardly get out. at heartware everyone's young. gatherings are always possible, with that only facing the obstacle of clashing schedules since we come from all over the place. but the optimism in me says something will be done.
what moulded me into such a person, i often ask myself. and i look back, and come at the same conclusion. nan hua for instilling the values, jj for giving me character, heartware for giving me experience.