Tuesday, May 18, 2010

my email thread with "fedex"

so one fine day in april i got another of those scam award emails in my mailbox. but this time i decided to reply to see what happens. here're the print screens of my email thread with mr david mark, supposedly from fedex but internet sources have also linked him to several credit card companies.











didn't even bother to put in my name, lol.

the next email was on the same day, awhile after.


didn't even tell him i got the info from google maps lol.



then i got bored so i stopped replying. but mr mark was adamant. four days later:


never replied, and he never got back to me either. lousy.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

time passes, things happen.

hard work gets one far, but does it guarantee a happy life ahead?

as i spammed my fb friends to get them to vote for me for nssl's competition, i came across so many friends who are going places higher, places better.

i've got to know these people because of my relatively high psle results. it was that three digits that brought me this far, i guess. without it i don't think i would have been able to experience that psychometric test. without it i won't have been sent so many scholarship invitations. without it i won't have had the opportunity to study german.

my results have definitely deviated from the norm, i.e. the people who scored that high then. there are people going to law school, people going to med school, people going overseas, people having to defer ns, but i'll be here, in singapore, in nus, in fass.

i think i have wasted quite abit of taxpayers' money, but well, i'm happy with what i have.

the future's uncertain, but i have people to endure this journey with me(:

Saturday, May 01, 2010

Dr Bob Moorehead

The Paradox of Our Age

We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less. We buy more, but enjoy it less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; We have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We’ve added years to life, not life to years. We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We’ve conquered outer space, but not inner space. We’ve done larger things, but not better things. We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We’ve split the atom, but not our prejudice. We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait. We plan more, but accomplish less. We write more, but learn less. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition. These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw-away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the show window but nothing in the stock room. Indeed, these are the times!

Friday, April 30, 2010

suspicions

i think my work comp is rigged. can't ever connect to msn when everyone else can. prolly someone's jealous that i don't have alot of work to do.

idk, just because i am a temp doesn't mean i have to be excluded from all your little gatherings, especially since the expenses are to be claimed. and i'm not deaf, i can hear your discussions about how to get there, what to eat etc. adults.

on a brighter note, i have finally conquered the jobscentral learning challenge. with many thanks to K and K of course. now K and i are a little obsessed with klueless 5.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

spoilt for choice

never knew my results could take me this far.

ever felt so spoilt for choice that you wish someone would just make the choice for you and force you down that path?

Saturday, April 24, 2010

the internet is screwed.

everything is taking a long time to load today. boo.

had yog team leaders' training today. at the other end of singapore, 11 tampines concourse. that building doesn't have a name. the address is the name. how uncreative.

idk, i don't think it made alot of sense to bring the leaders to a misc location just for training. at an extreme location of sg some more. what's wrong with the kay siang road hq. i'm sure it has rooms the same size as the one that we were in. and i won't have to wake up at six and spend 1 hour plus in the train to get there.

see that's the problem with sg. they assume we're a small country, it doesn't really matter where events are. and when you complain it's too far away, they site another country as example. e.g., usa.

"travel from one end to another end of america then is far la! you travel from sg's west to east only mah!"

but idt americans have interstate stuff frequently right. and their states usually aren't the size of sg right. idk, correct me if i'm wrong. this is just a teenager ranting about long rides. a tenager that hasn't gotten over the fact that she's paying adult fare now.

okay enough about locations and transport.

the people.

yog. global event. everybody wants to be part of it. so we have people ranging from 17 to 70. i think that thomas guy's lying with that 70 year old thing but whatever, 17 to 70 sounds nice.

but the thing is, you know how the generation gap exists. between parents and children, between grandparents and grandchildren. putting 40 of us there was like a gigantic family reunion of three generations. for ten hours. making us interact. getting our opinions on issues.

confirm got problem one what.

maybe i'm too used to heartware's environment, all the young people, we just say what we want and everybody takes it with a pinch of salt. and everybody ends up making friends and being happy. but here different. you talk abit louder, try to drop abit of humour/sacarsm, the older ones start to get defensive and start staring. where did my (little bit of) freedom of speech go.

but of course, like during jj tutorials, i obviously am aware of the others being pissed, and i continue being who i am. just too bad you got a more talkative/opinionated girl in the class.

i'm not gonna take this training session as a benchmark setter for the people. too way inaccurate. we definitely need to know each other more. like any other senior person we bump into on the streets, i believe these adults have valuable input, it's just about how we get it out of them, and how they share it with us. a mutual understanding needs to be there. today marks the first step, and we've got a whole marthon to run.

112 days to go.

i think the most intersting part of today's training was when we were tasked to line ourselves up in three manners, height, age and volunteer experience level.

i'm not very tall and not very old, so i was at the beginning side of the curve the first two tries. then the third came. we weren't supposed to speak, so i held up my hand indicating 6 (events volunteered for) and voila i ended up at the other end of the curve. and suddenly i felt damn young. and accomplished.

not pouring cold water, but i hope syogoc doesn't get enough torchbearers. cuz my dad and bro missed the application date and my dad really wants to sign up. so i hope they'll open applications again. otherwise i might have to find string to pull.

fha on fri, bloody big event. expo hall 2 to hall 9. flour mill guy stopped us and handed us packages of.........neckties. Y was totally taken aback by how the guy waved her/us down. i initially thought the know each other. but, flour mill and neckties (no company name inscribed), what connection? got made in deutschland carrot hazelnut chocolate. interesting only.

lesson learnt from fha: business is scary. many of the relationships forged are just on the surface. you give me a good price, i work with you, somebody else quotes me lower, too bad, bye.

or is it "welcome to the real world, steph."?

Sunday, April 18, 2010

thank god?

i understand the need for some people to have a holy being in their lives. i think i need god too, he's the one i talk to when i'm totally spooked out in my bathroom/when i start imagining weird stuff in the dark/when life's a bitch for me.

but, giving thanks to him the first thing you get a star award? not my cup of tea. imo religion shouldn't be brought to television. though i have to be grateful our star awards isn't spooky ritualistic vmas.

Friday, April 16, 2010

five days.

been part of the morning and evening crowd for a week. i've learnt that shoving gets you far. so does acting dao.

this office culture's definitely a big change from jc's. not as young a culture, and there's a very, how to put it, military kind of feel. prolly cuz the up there people are mostly from the army.

i had my earphones plugged in this afternoon, and there was a little voice telling me that the action might earn me a ticket to one for the glass rooms. but never(: still, the office was so quiet, other than the occasional call/the auntie vaccuuming the floor, the lowest volume level of my phone (it's my music player now) was still a little too loud.

that means it's really quiet, cuz the lowest volume level is what i set it to be at night when i need help sleeping.

job scope wasn't as interesting as i thought of it to be, but i still feel important. and i know this is a great big project, and what the public/authority sees will be my work.

i definitely hope for a larger workload so i dont even have the opportunity to be tempted to surf the net. i've been reading alot of food reviews cuz i get hungry way before lunch time and i always forget there's food in the pantry.

people told me to ask for a pay rise cuz of my importance, but we'll see. i already have transport to work and lunch is provided and the pantry is open for unlimited use.

oh yeah a downside: the girls' toilet doesn't have a blue bin. weirdness.

anyway, i finally remembered about the ntu sand art thing that i did at their open house, my piece spells my name and it's just beside the 1 of NAF 10. uh, just fyi. and for me to show off abit. i was part of the largest sand art montage display(:

Saturday, April 10, 2010

why?

i hate moments like that. how come i'm not making friends they way i envision myself to be? what's my problem?

Friday, April 09, 2010

shopping time!

hmm new job cannot wear jeans, therefore i need stuff to go with my leftover bottoms!

need black and white tanks, long-ish cardigan, and a blazer would be a plus!(:

i'm employed!

i like meetings with bosses that are filled with laughter. i had one today. met one of the gms, and i'm starting work on monday!

tomorrow's urban freestyle, didn't see J's name on the list, S's at the info counter, while B, T and i are at the massage station. i am crossing my fingers that it won't stink like hell.

have been receiving alot of spam messages on msn, a good reason to switch to my hotmail.sg account. it makes me feel patriotic too.

and oh yes a few days back i received this email from a supposed fedex manager, telling me i've won some money. obviously scam, but just for fun i replied, and now we're having a convo with him repeatedly asking me to send him my details (and an admin fee, duh). when i finally end the chain of emails, i'll post them here(:

Thursday, April 08, 2010

recommendations.

starblog's new topic (last week's) is top ten book choices of each blogger. very very useful. besides giving me recommendations on what sutff to borrow from the library (i don't like buying books), i think the topic also allows use to delve into the insides of the bloggers. how often do you see julen and vanessa talking about stuff not directly related to sex? or jane talking about something else other than climbing?

yeah highlight of today as seen from my fb status, i did the ris low boomz hand action during interview today. only realised i did it after i left the place.

i need clothes to make me look my age. i think i was dressed like i was 25 or something.

looking forward to:
1. g6.20 dinner
they are awfully nice to invite grace and i once again for their class gathering! well yeah cuz we're not from the same class and we've only really met each other during the 2008 giessen trip! this time, i must must must remember to return grace the cab fare. but it's on a monday, most likely we won't see the botak boys. which includes panz!

2. cep appreciation session
on the next monday! but argh, andy not there! i think the syogoc officers are all very nice people. i like nice people. will be nice to see them not for events reason, hopefully we'll be having interesting talk, and better, nice food! maybe merly and lyo will be there to shake hands take pictures. then sebas will go crazy again.

but as of now, i'm feeling quite lonely. and cashless.

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

schoolless jobless

not harbouring much hope in my re interview today. i think their office is seriously not conducive for working. dunno how those people survive.

life has been mundane with my employment status as "unemployed". even though i get to sleep late and wake up late. and watch ellen do stupid dances. and have ikea breakfast. and go on outings with people still classified as "students". and keep scoring more than a million points on plock. and go swimming as and when i like.

but i don't get cash! i'm not given pocket money! i'm paying adult fare on transport! i'm using less brains than when i doing data entry!

rawr.

Sunday, April 04, 2010

upside down

i saw 9 april as 6 april. but wells at least that means my stuff has been submitted early(:

need a job. mummy says try tourist attractions. sg flyer/zoo/night safari.

but of course i'm still open to office sit-at-the-comp jobs. so please, if you have any recommendations, please let me know(:

Thursday, April 01, 2010

april fools 2010

okay so ris low on 987's meant as an apr fools joke. worked. quite well. got the entire family going "what the hell?!"

well no my parents didn't say those words but their expression screamed.

i don't like seeing something i want (and worked for) being given to another person. especially if i know the said person. especially if i feel i deserve it more. but at least this time i have something a zillion times better.

milestone today! i have finished all uni application stuff!

again: dessert. seed. carpark. scream (almost). baby.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

this is a ris low post.

if ris low in the shan and rozz show is a marketing campaign, it's working. i insisted on going home asap so i could camp next to the radio. their daily listener graphs must have went through the ceiling since monday.

but if it isn't, as in if ris low's seriously staying put at 987, then i think the management better get their heads checked. ris low doing traffic updates? idk what exit at aye/which flyover/what road she's talking about. she may not watch soccer, i don't either, but that's not a bloody reason to read soccer news like english's a foreign language. names may be hard, but respect the coaches/players and bloody practice their names. or just get shan to do it.

i want rozz back to make the show more normal. but something inside me wants ris to stay so there'll be stuff to laugh at. because if that girl is selling her dignity, i'd be happy to joyride.

highlight today: dessert(s). guys' toilet middle cubicle. goody bag room. baby.

Monday, March 29, 2010

learning.singapore2010

somebody forgot the remove the nbsp thing from the volunteer confirmation email...

yeah cuz idk what it is, but nbsp keeps appearing in the email template, so the volunteer that goes down to help send emails is meant to delete that then press send. but i had two nbsp-s in my email.

hahaha.

so yeah i've been giving tuition lately, sec one math and history (yeah i know, history?!?!?) but so far it's been okay. since history's like knowing how to read your textbook and identifying the right stuff to copy. math is the tricky one, cuz sec one's where you start algebra and get all confused with abcxyz and double negatives and brackets.

but wells i hope his results improve...

saturday i spent earth hour at the braddell sph building where the power was everything but switched off. well the lights were off most of the time, and the mike was off when the first guy sang, but otherwise the spotlights and aircon guzzled electricity. and xtina got fourth. and i think the top guy screwed his retainers while singing his last song.

sentosa outing yesterday. nearly three months after fll. also seven people, but elaine instead of raffles. she had milo dinosaur with lychee. we gained a frisbee instructor without knowing. the sand exfoliated the soles of our feet. we gulped down nearly ten bucks worth of mineral water. and i didn't bathe after everything.

photo photo! (idu why the rest nv camwhore after i left...)

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Friday, March 26, 2010

threadless!

threadless tees has very nice shirt designs i want!

like:

99 Bottles - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

Rainforests - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

LightSaver - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
glows in the dark!

The Puppets Revenge - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

Egyptronic! - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
idk i find this one really really cool.

Her Hair - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

The Cheshire - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
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Luckiest T-Shirt Ever - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

Around the World in 79 Stamps - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
but maybe more than 80 days huh.

Brushes and Zebra - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever

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Alphabet Zoo - Threadless, Best T-shirts Ever
perfect for teaching kids the alphabet!

and this one's really cute!
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in the dark:
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Thursday, March 25, 2010

one interesting experiment.

this might prove to be one tremendously difficult mission. one which might require me to be up till the sun rises, signifying our next 24 hours. but then, it might not. i don't think there's very much for me to post.

will be visiting my friend tomorrow. she's from next door. wow four times 365 times 24 hours into history.

this is depressing. wrinkles coming in my direction. wish time could be stopped. but not during this point of time. the next month would be good. third month of the collection of twelve not the best.

i now own one coupon which lets me get the best fish with chips for one hundred cents. kudos to e hour.

my cerrebellum is tired. figure out which vowel i did not touch in this blog post. good night.

bugger.

so many things to apply for before uni! march has to be my busiest month post a's.

cep seminar ended (for me) yesterday. started yesterday too (for me) actually.

i still think it's funny that there was a singapore young ambassador among the others.

yeah yesterday morning it rained like nobody's business, somebody must have made the sky really really sad to have it cry so much and for so long.

luckily by the time the people arrived at hortpark the sun was out, my recycling garden didn't look as shitty as it did in the rain.

ganlin has SGD480 gucci belt.

still dunno the peter guy's real name. guys in ns are like the weirdest bunch ever.

overall i think response from our audience was quite good (better than expected), thank you fellow sgreans.

but aww, the other people got funvee ride. and vinid got something extra.

but wells station host dinner was good, and we realised lilian wants to train abu's dragon.

that must have been the most non-pg thing on my blog so far.

Monday, March 22, 2010

rah rah ah ah ah!

diyana and i have zero camaraderie. we can't post bad romance lyrics on her photo in fb.

gym today as a total flop. walked while watching 2012. haven't even reached the action part then stop alr.

big day tmr and pimples chose to come out.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

mein leeres kopf.

hate it when life's too uneventful for me to blog anything. which explains lack of update since thurs.

fri went to the meiji factory sale with family. it was closed for like a year for renovation, recently reopened. and i think they haven't paid their bills fully, because prices weren't cheap at all. like, comparable to anywhere else. only advantage of shopping there is you have all meiji things at the same place. the only dirt cheap stuff are those expiring in the same month/really soon. appalling how they sell healthcare supplements using the same system. like, buy two get one free collagen powder that's expiring in twenty days.

sat. yesterday. pretty much rotted at home. oh yeah applied for job. but screwed up my cover letter. because it was dug up from archives and i forgot to edit one of the two dates.

todayyyyy. thought i was going to chinatown, got a little excited after waking up, but then realised only parents going. sadded abit but then i found a whole chunk of chocolate in my bread so became happier. idk why i like going to chinatown with my parents. it's not a sightseeing trip btw, we get our food from the chinatown market. well i guess i generally like to go out with my parents, as in just three of us, cuz i like feeling like the only child.

not that i don't love my brother or anything, but it feels better to think that you've got all the love.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

happy that we're a close-knit group

got sunburnt in hortpark yesterday. reminder to self: never wear black long pants there again unless superly required. so yes i'm hoping i'll be able to wear shorts on tues.

reuse: use again
reduce: use less
recycle: to give an object another life cycle, i.e produce something else out of it.

will i get to see phelps on tues?

tuesdays with morrie is reaching due date.

i don't want to mop the floor. legs still feel like i ran a marathon yesterday.

something please intrigue me.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

god almighty?

was approached by these two girls today, who wanted to share with me "more about jesus".

should have answered, "i'm a very devout taoist, should i try to convert you?" but no i didn't la.

i listened to them patiently, though i had a few close calls with rolling my eyes. and came up with the following arguments of why religion may not make sense. i hope this doesn't go against any paragraph of any section of any law book in singapore.

Z mentioned that she used to be a free-thinker, but occasionally she would wonder why she's here on earth. simply existing to study, work, get married, raise a family, work more and die? and children will one day die too? and what happens after death? is there a god? what's he doing?

according to her, accepting christ at nineteen has helped her answer these questions. she's here because of god. god made her, god made everything on earth "incluing the oxygen we breathe in". and of course, standard evangelising line, god will help her get to heaven.

i said, i believe that there's some superior being up there. but i don't exactly care about what he's doing. and i've never thought of the reason for my existance. (because my parents wanted a child?) and i don't believe that i'll feel anything about what happens to me after i die. what matters more is how i spend my living days, instead of worrying about afterlife.

image of some chinese show just popped into my mind. the one where you die and reach the bridge then the "people" there decide where you go, and after whatever happens in heaven/hell you get to the bridge again and drink some potion and you forget whatever has happened in the afterlife, then you get reincarnated.

Z said something along the lines of "i don't think hell would be enjoyable when you really experience it."

wth wth wth wth. like she died a non-christian before.

Z continued, saying that god created us, protects us, cares for us, but we are separated from him (i'm not doing that capital h thing, nor the capital g thing) because "of sin", because "god is holy and perfect". sin is not just murder or criminal acts, she said, just any evil and negative thoughts as well. god loves us, that's why he sent his one and only (and she draws a cross in the air) son jesus to die for our sins, so that we become pure as well.

and i thought (most of the conversation was just her speaking and my conjuring replies in my head, i didn't want to interrupt her quite well-prepared speech), isn't this like, not accounting for your own actions and escaping reality? you make a mistake, you deserve to be punished. if sinning makes you go to hell and you sin, you totally deserve to head downwards. why make jesus die for you when it's your fault. why push the blame away. atone for your actions la! be a man, do the right thing!

then Z came to the part that said god created us with a plan for each of us. she has a different plan from mine, which is also different from H (her evangelising partner).

this time i answered. i don't like the idea that my life is already mapped out. i want to create my own path, i want to carve a niche for myself, i want to make decisions and not just believe that god has made his plans for me so i listen to him in whatever i do.

Z apparently doesn't like to debate. so she carried on. god loves us, so he sent his one and only son (she does that cross in the air thing again) to die for us so that we can have everlasting life, the bible said.

the bible, the bible. i had a conversation with M on this before. it is never right to use the bible to substantiate any point. the bible was written by someone who heard god's words. and so we have to think it is correct. challenge it and ask, "what makes you think it's correct?"

well because it's god's words and god's correct.

and why is god correct?

because the bible says so.

and the cycle repeats.

then Z says after she accepted christ, she talks to god, she prays to him, she knows that he cares and that he's always there for her, that's why she calls her father.

hello what happened to your biological father! i always wondered if human fathers feel jealous when their kids pray to god, calling him father, instead of using that to address their real father. why use the same name for two very different entities!

so yes, while Z tried hard enough to promote her religion, i'm just sorry i'm quite immune against evangelisation. is that even the right word for the act of evangelising? religion, to me, is still something really big and kinda full of loopholes for me to accept right now. i can't seem to compartmentalise religion and my argumentative skills.

anyway, this is not meant to stir up any racial hurricane. if any law practitioner comes across this post and you think this might cost me a trip to somewhere near the padang or the other place, please let me know. leave a message at the tagboard or email me.

Monday, March 15, 2010

little superhero girl

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sometimes i really appreciate the amount of freedom my parents leave me with, especially regarding academic decisions.

i made my own choices for secondary school, sec three subject combi, jc, and now, uni.

only this time i wish they were more involved. like, really sitting down and exploring the choices, rather than refer me to relatives. not that i don't like the relatives mentioned, i do love them and i know they have the capacity to assist me, but it's just different when help doesn't come from immediate family you know?

all my choices were mistakes in disguise.

if i hadn't gone to nh, i'll have been in rv. or even nygh. i'll have had a more fulfilling academic aspect of secondary school, leading to a more reputable jc. (but i would have missed out the awesome sec 4 year i had with 411 and the personal relationship with mr/dr foo)

if i hadn't chosen double sci with chinese lit, i would have taken trip sci with geog. i would have been in 4/3, would have almost definitely scored better than a 15 raw for 's. a single digit would have been very much achievable. like above, i would have headed off to a better jc, and scored better than a bbc/a. (but i wouldn't have grown as much as i did in 311/411)

if i hadn't put jj as my first choice back in first two/three mth application, i might not have gotten back into jj for jae. i might have gone somewhere else, perhaps somewhere that focused more on academics to allow me to gain better grades. (but i wouldn't have been part of the history-making all girls' class, and wouldn't have that many opportunities that jj offered)

see the thing is, for the choices i've made in the past, even though my life could turn out better, i've been able to see the brighter side of it.

but what if there's no brighter side to these decisions i'm faced with now?

Sunday, March 14, 2010

the queen's not rushing.

but the enuch is, like mad.

relatives have been asking/interrogating, about my uni choices. the past few weeks i've been giving the same answer:

still exploring choices, attend the open houses then see how.

and now all the open houses are over.

wouldn't say the open houses made huge impacts on my decisions, just that they have made the choices clearer. and open houses definitely help replenish my stock of stationery.

most useful gift: sewing kit cum luggage tag from nus overseas colleges.
most interesting gift: coloured paper by nus fass.

nus students were unexpectedly friendly, whereas ntu students were kinda irritatingly unprepared.

i don't like unprepared people. you sign up to help out to promote your course, you better know it at the back of your hands. don't give stupid excuses like, oh i'm an is so i don't know the requirements for local students.

the open house for foreign students ah!

mock trial at nus law was pretty entertaining, love the clever bottom-of-breath comments the defense add in occasionally and the very bimbotic mom, but not so much of the seemingly unprepared prosecution guy.

"i'm sorry, i forgot that the jury could read."

this feels like end-sec two replayed. only this time my choices might affect the rest of my life.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

rejection.

uhh i wasn't shortlisted for ypc after the interview.

that's like the second biggest rejection of my life so far.

first was council.

oh well, life's here for stuff to happen.

first application for ypc, first rejection for position in hw.

another year i'm prolly gna let ndp go. and wholeheartedly commit to yog.

station host at hortpark.

looking forward to alice in wonderland tomorrow(:

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

draw tiger draw skin difficult to draw bones.

iow, know people know face difficult to know heart.

directly translated from chinese, of course. don't have the chinese software in my windows 7 (i think).

anyway, yes that's supposed to be a statement with regards to jack neo's scandals. latest i've seen on fb, it's eleven and counting.

whoah see the sg version of tiger woods.

only this time mrs neo deserves alot alot alot of respect.

she's so forgiving, closing one eye/ both eyes at this matter, and even helped in the "negotiation" processes. the reason behind this ultimate support, love, she claims.

i believe her. call it a woman-woman thing.

but i can never tolerate cheating guys. esp married men.

gets reminded of ris low's break the banana video.

shit, i can't even blog a serious entry without eventually linking somewhere that spoils the mood.

but really. jack neo's wife should win the nobel prize for being so noble.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

twentyten/twozeroonezero/twothousandten

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whatever you like to call this year (take your pick from the title or create your own choice d), i think it's gonna be pretty awesome for me.

contented with interview last afternoon, grateful for the call this. looks forward to tomorrow and everyday that follows.

(suddenly i'm like a hugeass optimist, cue gigantic smiley face=D)

hortpark's a nice place. except for that huge monitor lizard that rustled among the bushes and finally showed itself while we were staring at one species out of the few in a fish tank all facing the same direction.

i like to see smiling joggers. but too many of them might seem as if at least one of them's mental.

old chang kee fries the best sotongs.

pondering, pondering. someone please present me with something intriguing.

no that wasn't meant to rhyme. now, accidental rhyming, that sounds rather intriguing.

AHHHH MORE ACCIDENTAL RHYMES!!!!

freaks out and runs away. (yay that didn't rhyme)

Monday, March 08, 2010

why do you sound happy?

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parents treated ri4 ben3 cun1 buffet yesterday as reward for my a's results. hotate mentai very very good.

uni seems so near yet so far.

i want to go swimming but last week's sunburn's still peeling.

"baby are you down, down, down, down, down..."

stare too long at one word and it will look very foreign.

Saturday, March 06, 2010

the big a's.

STOMP: China student tops A-levels: What chance do S'poreans have? look this is my friend the top a's scorer!

so many ways to be famous nowadays. thankfully panz's getting fame for the right reasons.

wouldn't have been where i am without teachers. (yeah like my fb status says.)

but i could have gone very much further if i studied more.

thank you all that have showed concern in one way or another, i was really touched when mr lee called me to say thank you.

my discipline master/cca teacher ic called me leh you have anot!

and yeah, thank you K for all these days(:

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

eADDICT.

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the internet refused to co-operate for like half an hour and i was panicking like shit.

sigh, youngsters nowadays. no internet can die.

yog volunteering is fun but their confidentiality form is like shorter and deadlier than heartware's. anything that talks about XXX act from section XXX scares me. too much of the pupil. i told fellow volunteers today that i may go study law because the pupil very inspirational then they laugh.

):

one day you'll call me justice yeo okay!

i think i'm kidding.

anyways. ten people thought k and i were getting married. funny shit. i think it was mutual patronisation, but whatever. that elise person from taiwan owes me mystery gifts. and another taiwan bridal gown person says taiwan's famous for three things, food, bridal gowns and earthquakes.

Monday, March 01, 2010

whoohoo!

awesome, just made the biggest decision i've made since the lunar new year.

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YPC!!!!!

major awesomeness. i hope i get in.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

no i don't regret that i do not spew my thoughts like a gp essay. i'm glad i lead a normal simple neighbourhood girl's life.

yesterday morning i jolted up at 7.23, wondering why my dad didn't wake me up for work. was it saturday? then it dawned on me, my last day at jc was the day before.

first ever job from my first ever interview, though i ended up walking through the doors of the office for nineteen days. but these nineteen days have been very fulfilling.

technically it's an internship, so i basically spent more time learning than actually doing anything serious. thank goodness im was used in the office, allowed me to know nearly everybody alot better. allowed everybody to know me better too, in a way.

as usual i'm not very good with words, but i know that as i was passing my mug around for people to sign, as i stepped out of the password-protected doors one last time, i was fighting back tears. does this always happen to people on their last day of work?

i'm glad we're still contactable via fb. but now that i don't see them around me, i feel like there's nothing i can talk to them about anymore. i can't start converstions with "hey. xxx mj, post?", and i can't eavesdrop at calls around me then laugh like mad or give very constructive comments. i no longer have to only use fb before work and during lunch break.

i'll never forget the moment when i realise i couldn't sign in to the admin module, or send any corporate emails anymore. that was such a feeling a unwantedness. that i was no longer part of the jc dynamic family.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

the great fb fast

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erm yeah a kind of harmless comment by andrew led me to take a five-day fb fast hahaha.

but it does feel a little weird to not login to fb while i'm online. like, isn't that where all the action is?

anyhoo, since i've supposedly got more time w/o bumming ard on fb, i can blog more! except that i really have to filter my life now to decide what ends up published.

i'm thinking of replacing my 1st generation ipod nano, and i can't really decide between another ipod nano or an ipod touch. so ytd at work i asked V, who owns a nano and an iphone.

his verdict: if he doesn't own an iphone (an assumption that i gave him to decide with), he'll choose an itouch because it has many many more functions. like wi-fi and the apps. and anyway, size does matter.

then K diagonally behind sniggered at the last statement.

so i swivelled my chair around and clarified, "hey we're talking about ipods!"

update: idk if you can see the ad up there, but if you do please go take the survey, put sg's changi airport at the top of the list! and when the final report comes out, you can proudly say "i was a part of this!" =D

Monday, February 15, 2010

ISTANA

hahahaha now i can die content because i have finally walked the istana!

but i'll of course die happier if i can comb every inch of it and use every room including the toilet and everything upstairs! because the only toilet open to public was a lousy one with alot of bird/lizard shit, those within the main building were barricaded off. and we were only allowed to tour the ground floor.

basically to sum up the layout of the istana, it's a golf course behind guarded gates, peppered with ponds/gardens and buildings. yes i would like to play golf there someday(:

and no i did not see president nathan. i guess we left too early.

p.s. any leads to volunteer for the next istana open house?

Sunday, February 14, 2010

da nian chu yi!

everybody's too busy collecting angbaos to chat online lol.

anybody wants to go istana with me i feel so noob to have been living in sg for 19 years and not stepped into the sg white house!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

it's the time of the year.

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i think cny is amazing. it brings you a whole horde/hoard of emotions. stress, annoyance during spring cleaning and having to try on a gazillion pieces of clothes before finally deciding to get one, the excitement of actually getting all the purshases done (diet snapple at tencents each!), satisfaction when you manage to bargain off two dollars from that carton or mandarin oranges, and finally,

tomorrow's the day. the day where all chinese families (are supposed to) get together. where catching up (or interrogation about results, boyfriends/girlfriends) is done, where everybody sits around and eat. where even though you are annoyed at your grandaunts for constantly boasting about that genius son, you're just glad to see everyone. and get red packets of course;)

cny is magical because so many people are giving up vday for it. that speaks for itself.

Friday, February 12, 2010

家是唯一的城堡

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有


还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好


不要这黱容易就想放弃
就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色

笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机
现在终於飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了

哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有


i'm returning to the home that "is belongs" to me.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

clueless.

i have no idea why i logged into blogger. it was just so instinctive.

all the best to me, all the best to us, all the best to them.

Monday, February 08, 2010

sensitive water issues.

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at this rate, i'll hit the target less than halfway through my internship. but i don't relish getting cross-eyed over perusing the teeny words published in the papers.

you know how chinese calls everything drinkable "shui"--water? but if it's directly translated back, water's just your plain tasteless water right.

so yes, we were out for lunch today, very huge group of eleven. X, back in the office, called D to ask him to buy "shui" back. for the other ten of us, it makes total sense that X wanted a beverage. maybe coke or soyabean or something. definitely not plain water because we have tonnes of that from the water dispenser.

but no, D went to the drink stall and got a bottle of mineral water and insisted that it's "shui", nothing wrong. made us laugh like we escaped from an asylum.

idk what happened when he brought it back though. should have popped over next door. i hate how we're separated by a wall.

girl we should talk. your boyfriend goes bonkers when drunk. but drunk people tell the truth.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

cut-ed hair

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today's last quote of the day is by jim morrison: some of the worst mistakes of my life have been haircuts.

yeah i went to cut my hair yesterday and it looks kinda weird now. think cuz i asked the person to just chop off two inches and don't bother re-layering it. i kinda want unlayer hair back, but as of now it's just horribly layered from the top and straight at the end. oh wells. time passes, hair grows.

shopping last evening, finally got some skirts for work. i do feel quite weird dressing with jeans because i'm the only one that does that in the office. even though i have permission to la. but you see, i go for lunch with them, and i end up making them look like my babysitters. when in rome, do as the romans do, right?

which means i need more shoes. can't be wearing my court shoes for work everyday. saw this nice purple pair though, but it's not heeled. not that i really need to be taller since i'm not the shortest there(:

i think i'm geting fat. need to start running.

Friday, February 05, 2010

disappointment felt by an alumni.

i might have told this to a few people, but i think it is time i really make this official. i am quite disappointed with the level of discipline of nan hua students nowadays.

this, coming from a nan hua alumni, would be quite embarassing. and i do foresee that somebody with authority might request for me to take this down.

but let me clarify, this is my personal website, even though today's edition of mypaper stated that what's online's never private. what i'll be stating is purely personal opinion, and i fully understand that this may be a biased observation since i'm not looking at the nan hua cohort as a whole. but please let me state my stand.

i'm going to talk about two aspects of recent observations of nh students: hair and uniform. more specifically, (the lack of) plaits and (untucked) shirts.

confession: when i was a sec one student, when i go to moelc for german lessons, i untie my plaits, untuck my blouse and ankle-fy my socks.

but after awhile i realised i'm in the midst of elite students who don't care if you look "cool" with bad attire, so i saved the trouble of doing myself a makeover twice a week and reported for german class like how i report to school. nice plaits, tucked in blouse, relatively high socks.

dance seniors had very strict rules on plaits. only start bunching them at the end of your head, i.e. no scorpion/french braiding styles. and no layering of hair. so that your plaits look really neat.

but if you belong to some other ccas you don't have those rules. as long as your hair is of tie-able length and adults see you in two plaits, you're safe. same with uniform, as long as adults see you with nicely tuked shirts/blouses, you're safe.

i would like to believe all the bad examples i see on the roads of singapore are really good students within the campus.

because more often than not when i see long haired nh girls around, they're in ponytails. thing is their hair's still curvy-ish, so you know they untied their plaits.

i understand plaits make you look very cheenapok. two plaits somemore. i didn't appreciate them in school. but it is a nan hua identity i embrace upon graduation. it is what makes nan hua nan hua. it is what makes us so special. i know some may think dr foo's substantiation for plaits may be very shaky.

because plaits are hard to retie, girls won't spend much time in the toilets trying to retie their hair like they will if they had ponytails. less time beautifying yourself in the toilet=more time spent on studying=better results for nan hua.

i used to think it was crap. but it is true if you think of it. how many girls in other school spend so much time retie-ing their hair during the multiple trips to the toilet each day. as long as you tie your plaits neatly in the morning, you don't have to worry about them looking like shit in the middle of class.

but on fll day i saw this bunch of nh dancers in ugly layered scorpioned plaits. one weekend i went to the market with my mom and saw this nh girl (who colleced her edusave scholarship) in ponytail. and today i saw another nh girl with a curvy ponytail.

has the new principal mrs tan relaxed the hair rule? then i think she's not an old girl. or she has not fully embraced the nh vaules. and i think no outsider has the right to change anything that concerns the school identity. especially since he/she hasn't felt the sense of belonging before him/herself. especially since she's new.

nan hua is a chinese school. one characteristic of chinese schools is that we value culture. we appreciate our roots. we carry on the legacy.

i've never realised the importance of properly attired students until i saw for myself nh juniors in untucked shirts.

mrs lim's trademark line: you are a walking advertisement for the school.

but i think this untucking of shirts is a very common trend across all schools. perhaps taking up the idea of elastify-ing the hem of shirts/blouses (e.g. in fuhua sec) will help. or just allowing students to shoelace their shirts/blouses. i don't think it really matters how the students do it, as long as their hems are not showing.

i know this shirt thing's a weak argument here, but just felt it should be part of this post. of course my main point is about having stringent rules on plaits.

culture erosion's inevitable in this globalised world where we are influenced with ideas all around the world. but i hope nan hua's trademark plaits do not fall victim in these transient times. one really appreciates something when he loses it. it is only when i no longer have to tie plaits, when i find myself donning another set of uniforms that i truly embrace the nan hua identity. and i think school would be a much more fulfilling experience for current nh students once they learn to appreciate their roots. dated all the way back to 1917.

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

alarm during art

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hahaha my mom set an alarmed reminder on my brother's phone to say it's his thirteenth birthday and it went off during his art lesson. thought it was somebody calling him non-stop, so asked the teacher for permission to view his phone. teacher said let her see, so she discovered the reminder and passed it back to my brother to turn the alarm off. major lol.

still getting used to yahoo messenger as communication within the office. two meetings today so at least i did some writing.

went to the ladies and remembered the wrong pw to the office so i got stuck outside until i gathered my guts and pressed the doorbell (cuz it's really embarassing). E came to the rescue and didn't recognise me, asked me what i'm there for lol.

"come back lor."

now i'll have the pw stuck in my head forever.


can't wait to start calling people. i want to join the gang of phone call snatchers. today S snatched a phone call and the receiver slipped out of his hand everybody laughed like mad.

saw gen while waiting for the bus this morning! so surprised to see someone i know.

love friends!(:

Monday, February 01, 2010

the dad's concern

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you know your dad's concerned about your brother's future when he seriously objects to him joining shooting as a cca but doesnt say anything when mom gets bro a nerf gun for his birthday. instead, he's barking tips on how to shoot accurately.

i like spotting heartwarming but annoying moments like this.

like how mom never explicitly expresses love for bro and constantly says he's a mistake to begin with but gets all flustered on his first day of secondary school. such that i became kind of invisible.

first day of work today, i'm thankful we've not started on work proper. mind was entirely somewhere else. but of course glad that it's sorted out.

are compliment letters really that important? why does the number of compliment letters one receive set the standard of service one provides. what happened to noticing the loyal customers. those that don't come unless that particular someone's behind the counter. but those that just happen to not write compliment letters. and what's with managers who cannot differentiate a true compliment letter (from a satisfied customer) from another written by the desperate employees thenselves.

i know someone who should be the champion of "can you serve?" .

and i'm annoyed at people who use Der Untergang (esp that portion) to make stupid parodies. just because they think nobody understands what hitler's screaming.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

the weekend

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yet another sunday. but this time, after a relatively busy saturday.

swissotel with liwen yesterday afternoon. saw familiar faces of zhongming, shiru, issac and ranika. maybe i should get to know issac better.

"hi simun sec-gen, do you happen to recognise me? i was the political ambassador to ukraine, was seated at the first row but horribly squashed by our usa counterparts. i remember you screaming into the mike, 'house, PLEASE COME TO ORDER!' and asking us to stop passing notes with the likes of 'new zealand--land of the frolicking sheep'. oh and i heard you're an intern at mfa!"

wunderbar. i've been using that alot.

yes after that i underwent an identity change and went from smart-casual to totally casual.

megan: do you have a red shirt?
me: -tugs at my chengdu shirt- there!

class bbq was so-so. but i'm definitely grateful for the arrangement. i didn't expect so much junk food from an all girls' class gathering. fire was started thanks to eeshaun. haato ice cream courtesy of shannon.

so we kinda got a table to ourselves (while the rest took the next table), whispering sweet nothings in an entirely romantic backdrop. ignoring the gossips behind our backs, not participating in any camwhoring activities. just the two of us. =D

agnes: why would anybody get a fake coach? it's not even expensive!

i like roasted marshmellows. liquid-y and hot in the middle, nicely crunchy outside.

half of today has been spent being horribly sleepy. still am sleepy actually. but going shopping later. for cny.

Friday, January 29, 2010

bored ramblings.

wanted to set up the router but i can't find the cd so i've got time to burn online. there're no nice tv shows on friday afternoon. sunday afternoons also.

oh the time's 12.34 lol.

shannon said if you catch the time at 11.11 am or pm, it means somebody's thinking of you.

i want to start work i want to start work! so i can so constructive things and get money from it lol. i hope ye laoshi calls me today.

friends are getting less active on fb. must be the start of jc.

i miss jj, but i don't feel like going back now that there's a change of principal. gag nan hua also. no mr foo, no nh. no mr koh, no jj. rv-ians please take time to appreciate mr koh. he's a really good man.

what to wear what to wear!!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

cs.

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yay i've mastered the art of colour splash. using some other person's photo though.

and i can't post videos of fll outing on fb!

i always knew that sg had a flagging birth rate, but i didn't know it would be this bad. the rate is at 1.28 as of 2008, and only 39654 babies were born here last year. i'm not surprised with the rate, have seen it a couplla times, but only 30+k babies?!? that's very little.

averaging a hundred plus babies born a day. veh little can. no wonder we need so much imported talent. to make the rate near 2.1 (the rate needed for the sg popn to replace itself), it's like getting one foreigner for every baby born!

yeah so now i've kinda realised how wrong i was to advocate my stand that i don't want to be a mom. turns out i don't have a choice actually, unless i want sg to be filled with non-sg people. and besides, if you don't have kids, you can't be president. and when (not if) i become president, singapore should have only singaporeans. okay la, and a small fraction of true foreign talent.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

accomplishment!


smellements credits

updated the links. read alot of blogs in the process. think i miss some friends.

broken hearts/broken minds

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i could be ris low's relationship advisor. number one, when you're famous and nursing a broken heart, you do not tell the whole world his name. but i think someone else was offered the job already, because the post's gone.

went to visit xtina with joy and zhengyao yesterday, and we only ended up with a photo of zhengyao reading women's weekly and zilch photos of xtina.

but it was a nice catchup session, since we haven't really talked since like a thousand years. i see joy in school but we don't exactly sit down and talk. besides, the girl has long long hair now!

i think it was interesting how we could spend like more than two hours just sitting there and talking. didn't even switch on the lights lol. and xtina has food stashed in an ancient-looking wooden box.

curious cats who want to know why we went there in the first place, xtina had a dental surgery. which involved removing her two front teeth and her wisdom teeth and gaining access to her jaws and what not. read the more elaborate story at cphy.bs.com.

Monday, January 25, 2010

hisdaddycooks.

ahhhhhhh mydaddycooks.com's damn cuteeeeeeee.

go watch go watch! it's a series of cooking videos by a father (nick) and son (archie). the son damn cute!! two years old and he can crack eggs/pour milk!

archie: i want to taste the celery!
-and takes a cube of raw celery-
archie: it's not nice..
nick: it's not great when it's not cooked.

nick: we need to wait maybe two to three minutes for the vegetables to cook, you think you can wait? or not.
archie: not.

omg how can two year olds talk like thatttttt so cute can.

maternal instincts knocking. shitzxzxzx.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

lack of inspiration


is it miley cyrus' song that goes "everybody needs inspiration..."

well i don't have inspiration right now, so this is a patronising post.

yesterday was fll outing, the above is the most complete group photo of everybody. no sentosa but vivo/icecream/dryice/birthdays will do.

scare of the day: andrew messaged me at 8.49am and said results will be released on wed.

turns out it was jae posting results lol.

i hereby proclaim sunday as the most boring day of the week.

Friday, January 22, 2010

personality overhaul

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did the mi and personality type test again. after what i think is eons. guess what, steph is quite a different person now. and the pt test says i can be a politician! wonderful. first step towards becoming the first female president of sg: having the right personality.

and i'm 100% interpersonal look at that. i'm refering to the blue and orange thing at the sidebar btw.

am blogging at studio 27 of block 27 of np. awesomeness. quite impressed by the level of patience the students have. could never display the same attitude teaching my dad the very basics of the computer.

to chingay or not to chingay? that is the question. still damn bloody tempted, yes.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

regrets?

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i just turned down mr pandian's request for me to go back to relief teach.

was that a stupid decision?

i was soooo looking forward to relief teaching during this long hols. so much that i went down to see mr lam even before a's ended. and i brought up the topic to mr foo even before mid years.

i was quite upset when in dec mr pandian said they found an experienced bio relief teacher and hence didn't need me to go teach. but when his sms came just now, i was very very tempted to say yes.

going back to my alma mater, teaching the subjects that i love, being in a very familiar environment...

but i had a job offer with jobscentral. it might not pay as much, but it's regular office hours. and i don't need to go shopping for workwear cuz the hr says i can wear shirt and jeans.

besides, i've been coaching my brother on his homework these days and i find myself very impatient. definitely won't work well with the kids. and also mr pandian mentioned it's going to be just two mths. before i get used to the job i'll be whisked off somewhere else, how sad is that. even though there might be a possibility of an extension.

the little voice in my head tells me i'm looking for excuses for this decision that i've made. that it's actually wrong and i should really have accepted mr pandian's offer.

but i already rejected him, though i've asked him to keep me in the loop.

oh wells. decision made, so it's time i step out of my comfort zone. new environment, new people, new tasks to fulfill and my very first paycheck.

this post serves to let me put down all my thoughts, think through this decision, wipe out all regrets, and allow me to promise myself that i will work hard for the new job.

don't look back steph.

white horse

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never thought i'd actually get some relationship advice from jessica's blog.

until the latest entry.

and teenage's quiz says i should move on.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

tanning without the sun

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i think my wireless mouse is cool it has a magnetic detachable cover.

yesterday i felt like swimming/tanning, and the sun was nice. so i got everything packed, dug out goggles and opened the door. then something hit me and i thought i should check out the opening hours. alas, the swimming complex near my house is closed every tuesday. for changing water i guess.

which means today they'll have very clean water, so i headed out again. the sun wasn't as strong as it was yesterday, but i harboured some hope. but clouds decided to play catching so it was sun now, no sun later, and the cycle repeats.

there were so few people in the swimming pools and so many lifeguards it looked like everyone of us hired a personal lifeguard each.

i went alone, so i had alot of thinking space. one china family there, a young couple there, and wait! two dark figures at the end of my lane. looked like two squatting people, but i didn't have specs so i couldn't confirm, so i stayed at the other end of my lane until one of them finally moved away, proving that they were really people. but i was still a litle freaked out, not knowing what to expect if i swam to the other end, so i switched lanes. the two people were part of a group of three.

then the water got cold idk why, and goosebumps began to appear on my skin. so i jumped out and went to the lazy river. always has warm water there. i think i had the whole lazy river to myself lol. until the second round this bunch of guys came in. i think their average size is twice of mine so i got intimidated and got out. and went back to the usual swimming pool. went a few more laps and guess what, the guys jumped into my lane. annoying shit so i got out and went back to the lazy river for a couple more rounds and went home.

there wasn't really any sun, so i was quite surprised to spot tan lines in the bathroom. but they're less obvious now, i prolly just turned a quarter shade darker. praying for good sun at sentosa on sat!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

the problem with fb

fb relationship statuses are there to make the ex feel bad. you know those that say xxx is in a relationship with yyy, then a week later it says xxx is engaged to yyy, then another week later it says xxx is married to yyy.

wth?

i'm glad we can tag people in our fb statuses. the one that looks like twitter i mean. but my generation of people seem to be too busy now to check everything out. tagged fifteen (in three different messages because can only tag 6 at once) and only one sad reply!

but i guess when i land myself a job it'll be pretty much the same for me. oh hey why am i saying "land myself a job". i've already got one! starting feb(:

went to the library yesterday. to borrow magazines because they've run out of books that i read. there was this poster that says free coffee/tea voucher with 12 loans. i borrowed six ytd and still had the receipt from the prev six loans, so i went to the counter to get the voucher. so auntie right.

well so there i was anticipating like a starbucks/coffee bean voucher, then the librarian handed me a toastbox kopi/teh voucher. comical ttm!

okay. to ensure that i utilise that voucher, who wants to go on a kopi/teh date!

Monday, January 18, 2010

yayness for hw

figured out since i'm relatively free i might as well blog more. so that i don't get alzheimer's.

you know the thing with me finding a job is, with no prior experience in the work world, i've got nearly nothing to put in my resume. so to make it look more juicy, i put down all my volunteering stuff into the document.

and guess what, the employers really do read them. my first interview, bulk of it was spent describing chingay, cssp, connect sg and fll. the interviewer's first qn regarding my resume was, "you like to play lego arh?"

but the next interviewer didn't seem very interested. jumped straight to my leadership qualities and so we chatted about cdc.

honestly, after being a relatively active volunteer, being part of cdc is the next thing that makes me proud of myself. i mean like, who else gets promoted in the exco? usually you get a position, and you stay with it till you leave the club. for me, one month through my membership with cdc, i got my assistant head of admin post, and one year after being part of cdc, on a fateful sunday, mr lee promoted me to vice president. how cool is that.

but of course those positions came at a price. it was friendship. one of my very first friends in jj, somehow took a twist of fate and we hardly talk. maybe it wasn't intentional, idk, but i never dared to bring up the topic to thrash out. she brought me into cdc, ie i joined cdc because after bring a council reject i was an abandoned kid so i just joined her cca. then i climbed up the ladder and she graduated still at the bottom. but i did try to bring her up, so there's nothing against my conscience. though i am at a position of some power, there's still the almighty one that we have to take orders from.

so yes, friendship is a touchy topic for me in jj. everyone seems to know everyone and can work with everyone, but deep down knives may be poking in all directions. we're growing up too fast. why all the backstabbing and betrayal and hypocrisy when we are barely 20 years old.

volunteering does take my mind of things. even though mom kinda objects to it. because there's no material reward at the end. there's no transport remuneration. you contribute your time, you contribute your money, you do the work, you get a tshirt, you come home late, that's it. but to me it's alot more. even though now i definitely feel a little heartache thanks to adult fare. it's the friends. it's the experience. it's the very cliched sense of satisfaction you derive from witnessing a successful event. it's knowing that you're part of this cause. even though at the end of the day you might discover that there are people playing rough, people going through loopholes, but that's what it's all about, isn't it? to learn from past mistakes, to make the next project better.

i don't do orphanages or old folks' home. those have schools to take care of. why i volunteer with hw is cuz it offers me a different volunteering experience. different from what i got from visiting jamiyah home in secondary school. the people in the homes stay there. they could be your friends, but they only stay there. hardly get out. at heartware everyone's young. gatherings are always possible, with that only facing the obstacle of clashing schedules since we come from all over the place. but the optimism in me says something will be done.

what moulded me into such a person, i often ask myself. and i look back, and come at the same conclusion. nan hua for instilling the values, jj for giving me character, heartware for giving me experience.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

siloso hooha

what's more of a waste of resources? the singpost vandalism thingo or the siloso beach "molest" case?

i'll say the latter.

so many articles on it, so many videos of it, so many people interviewed for their two cents' worth, but the case will never be settled. i don't have to be clairvoyant to know that. the woman herself didn't even make it into any article/video. if she has a blog, she'd prolly have written about how much the guys suck, how horribly horny they were, and secretly bask in pure enjoyment of the precious few minutes. after all, what are the chances you'll get service from five men at a time?

if she's really a transsexual, just too bad for the guys.

if they're really friends, it's even more of a waste of resources. they may just think they're stars of the sg version of dirty dancing.

okay that aside.

have been doing alot of thinking nowadays. nothing much else to do during this long hols and fb does get boring after awhile. because all friends are busy. not many jobless counterparts left.

so yes, have been thinking of friends i've had, how many are friends, really good friends, but just for awhile. how i don't actually initiate to catch up. how all of us then drift away. the counters on fb don't tell anything. so what if i've got hundreds/thousands of friends there. doesn't mean i know all of them inside out. like true friends should.

need a personality overhaul. need to get friends back to who they're supposed to be.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

first post from a bigass monitor

honestly, i'm getting a leetle tired of my blog layout. like, its cleanness and straight lines and everything.

but besides that, 2010 has been okay for me so far. maybe cuz i haven't seen my a's results.

old comp died and was replaced by a new comp with a 24-inch monitor (bigger than my house tv). yeah my tv's small. but better than lhl who didn't have a tv to grow up with.

adult fare sucks though. would love to volunteer with hwn more but it's so far (and hence expensive) and i'm not working! yet.

by now you should have realised i'm just typing in whatever random thoughts i have in my head. therefore the short paragraphs.

and this actually means i really have alot of stuff in my puny brain, but i have to sort everything out and slowly ponder over whether it's really suitable to be on thig blog for potentially everyone in the world to read.

should resize my huge ego. my readers per day can be counted by one hand. and i have a normal hand with five fingers, including the thumb. yeah i have friends who insist that the thumb is not a finger.

so many things have changed this year. esp in the education world where i'm concerned. nh principal change, jj principal change, someone's promoted to vp and there are new rules concerning types of uniforms to wear on particular days of the week. you just do not barge into a school and remove the identity of the students. it's just wrong, imho. makes them hate you way before they get to know you.

i'm just glad plaits are still preserved in nh. very very important part of the nh culture. no plaits, no nh. srsly. any juniors reading this and you're hating the plaits rule, you'll embrace it after you step out of 41 clem ave 1. even if during your four years there your mom was the one tying your plaits for you. well that was what i went through.

g 6.20 chalet ytd. i'm from 5.10 but the moelc's so small everybody mingles (in deutchland) and ends up under the same blanket in front of cameras. invitation to crash rocks.

okay obviously i'm dodging the topic of fll because i don't want to infringe any clause in the confidentiality document. but you'll find out on fb anyway. if you're really interested.

i'm bored. but i don't add a "listen" and a link and so i won't receive an invitation to an audition like wuyang did. but i have no talents anyway.

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

the next al gore.

the end of the world might arrive sooner than 2012, an environmental expert claims.

and that expert happens to be me.

it's not difficult to arrive at such a conclusion. just as the new year fell upon us, look at what's happening around the world.

particularly, the vast amount of snow bringing much calamity in china, south korea (i'd guess north korea too, only great leader kim's too ill to acknowledge anything), britain, and across europe.

i've not watched 2012 the movie, but i watched the day after tomorrow. and imho, the storyline seems to be rather similar to what we're facing now, only we have a (relatively)longer period of time before we all turn into snowmen. al gore has presented the inconvenient truth. aren't we facing much inconveniences from the freak weather now? isn't anybody with power gonna do anything?

well, not that anyone yielding power would come across this humble blog of mine, but i believe my opinion is shared by many large organisations with strong influencing power.

copenhagen ended with nearly nothing. the worlds' superpowers aren't willing to give up economic successes for the sake or the human being's future generations. they only want the best for themselves. third world countries want the best for the earth, but nobody's listening to them.

but i believe god is fair. maybe the developed nations really have to resettle to the third world nations when only their territories freeze beyond living conditions.

and then, who else to blame but ourselves?

egoism needs to be abolished. humility should make a comeback. i want to live longer.

below: news reports courtesy of channelnewsasia.com.

SEOUL: Heavy snow grounded dozens of planes at major airports in South Korea on Monday and caused havoc in the centre of the country, including the capital Seoul, officials said.
The weather office said it issued a heavy snow alert for Seoul and surrounding areas, where just over 17 centimetres (almost seven inches) of snow fell in just four hours.
Gimpo airport in Seoul, a hub for South Korea's domestic flights, was forced to cancel a total of 90 outgoing and inbound flights because of the snowfall, airport officials said.
Incheon airport, the main international airport west of Seoul, also reported four cancellations and 40 delayed flights, they said.
The snow also disrupted traffic on the streets of Seoul and other cities and roads and highways elsewhere in the country.
Some ministers were late for a cabinet meeting, which was forced to begin later than scheduled because of traffic chaos. Snow was expected to stop falling later in the day.
The Seoul city government said it was mobilising 3,500 civil servants and 1,200 vehicles to remove snow from all major roads and streets.
- AFP/so


LONDON: Some 60 revellers were forced to drink beer and play cards for three days after they became stranded in a British pub cut off by snowstorms on New Year's Eve.
The guests had booked in to celebrate the new year at the Tan Hill Inn, England's highest pub, standing 1,700 feet (518 metres) above sea level, in the northern Yorkshire Dales.
But the heavy, relentless snowstorms that have swept through parts of Britain trapped them inside, unable to get to their cars and leaving the roads home impassable.
"There was a lovely, community atmosphere despite the fact nobody could get home," said landlord Tracy Daly. "I suppose there are worse places to be snowed in than a pub."
A gritter and snowplough finally broke through the seven-foot snow drifts that had sealed off the hotel on Sunday, ending the revelry, dubbed Britain's longest-running New Year's Eve party by newspapers on Monday.
Daly, 45, said she, her husband and two staff had kept the guests entertained and fed, and offered rooms for a knockdown price of 10 pounds (11 euros, 16 dollars), per night.
"We had the rule that the bar could only open at 5pm, the guests were all very well behaved though," she said.
The landlady added: "The guests were lovely, we were pretty under-staffed and they kept giving us breaks so we didn't get too tired."
Nathan Martin, 26, one of a group from Leeds University cross-country club stuck in the pub, described the experience in the Guardian newspaper as the "ultimate lock in".
- AFP/so


BEIJING: Schools were shut down, flights delayed and traffic snarled in Beijing on Monday following two days of heavy snow in north China, with even more frigid weather forecast.
Up to 30 centimetres (12 inches) of snow fell in the capital and nearby Tianjin on Saturday and Sunday, the Central Meteorological Administration reported – the biggest snowfall in January in the region in more than 50 years.
Although snow was not forecast in the capital in the coming days, snowstorms were expected in northeast China and eastern Shandong province on Monday as people returned to work following the New Year holiday, the administration said.
A Siberian cold front meanwhile could bring historic low temperatures of between minus 20 and minus 32 degrees Celsius (minus four and -26 Fahrenheit) to Hebei province and Inner Mongolia on Tuesday and Wednesday, it said.
Temperatures in Beijing were expected to drop to minus 16 degrees Celsius on Monday, the coldest in the capital in decades, the China Daily reported.
In China's coldest region of Heilongjiang province, the mercury has already plummeted to minus 36 Celsius, the paper said.
More than 3,500 schools in Beijing and Tianjin were forced to shut their doors on Monday, giving more than 2.2 million students an extra day of New Year's holiday, state media reported.
At Beijing's international airport – where nearly 1,200 flights were cancelled or delayed on Sunday – workers had cleared the runways and the situation was returning to normal, an airport spokesman told AFP.
More than 100 flights on Monday were delayed and two dozen cancelled as of 9:00 am (0100 GMT), the spokesman said, adding that workers needed to de-ice the snow-covered planes that were unable to take off over the weekend.
Up to 30 highways in Beijing and the surrounding regions were still closed to traffic or only partially opened on Monday, the China News Service reported.
Inner city roads in the capital remained icy and covered with snow on Monday, but traffic was flowing, albeit at a slow pace. The city has mobilised 300,000 people to clear the snow, the China Daily reported.
The nation's rail network was operating normally, but long-distance bus services in north China were disrupted, the paper said.
The frigid air from the north was also expected to send temperatures plummeting below the freezing mark in much of central China, where heavy fog could cause problems for air and road travellers, the weather bureau said.
- AFP/so



PARIS: A cold snap across Europe killed 13 people in Poland over the New Year as avalanches and skiing accidents left at least 10 others dead in the Alps, police and rescuers said on Monday.
As temperatures plunged to minus 25 degrees Celsius (minus 13 Fahrenheit) in Poland at the start of the year, the number of cold-related deaths rose to 122 so far this winter, police said.
Most victims were homeless men aged 35 to 50 who died of hypothermia while drunk, they said.
In the Swiss Alps avalanches killed at least five people with three others missing, emergency services and police said.
The first avalanche hit on Sunday in the central Bernese Alps, killing one skier. Emergency services were searching survivors from another avalanche that struck half an hour later.
Eight helicopters carrying doctors, rescuers and avalanche dogs were despatched to the disaster site and pulled out eight people alive.
Some of the survivors were in a critical condition and three died later in a hospital, including a doctor who had arrived to treat people following the first avalanche.
Rescuers also found the body of a hiker buried in the snow while three other people - two Swiss and a German - were reported missing, police said in a statement.
Emergency services were unable to restart the search on Monday amid the difficult weather conditions, said Theo Maurer of Switzerland's mountain rescue services.
In western Switzerland's canton of Valais, a mountain guide and his client were hit by an avalanche on Sunday, officials said.
The guide was able to get out alive but his client died, with the body found buried under 80 centimetres of snow.
Steady snowfall overnight and all day on Monday led to several road accidents and caused rare delays in the Swiss public transport system.
A 32-year-old German tourist was killed in eastern Switzerland's Ofen mountain pass, after her motor home collided head-on with a car that skidded on black ice, police said.
Several accidents were also reported on the busy motorway linking the cities of Lausanne and Geneva.
A metro line in Lausanne was disrupted for two hours on Monday while in Geneva, public buses were running with delays.
In western Austria rescue officials said they found the bodies of two German skiers, aged 18 and 19, who had fallen into a ravine.
Another avalanche hit mountains on France's border with Italy on Friday, killing three people, French police said.
Western Europe is shivering through one of its coldest winters in decades with heavy snowfalls causing serious disruption to road, rail and air traffic over the Christmas and New Year holiday periods.
In southern France a number of high-speed trains were delayed for up to two and a half hours near Cavaillon and in the Lyon region, state railway operator SNCF said after France's second city was blanketed by 10 centimetres of snow.
At Lyon's Saint-Exupery airport 13 flights were cancelled.
The nearby Alpine city of Grenoble recorded 20 centimetres of snow, a figure unseen since November 2005, causing serious disruptions on roads.
French Culture Minister Frederic Mitterrand was in hospital overnight on Sunday after skidding on black ice with his scooter, the ministry said, but he was expected to resume his work later Monday.
In Britain, some 60 revellers were stranded for three days at the Tan Hill Inn, England's highest pub, standing 518 metres above sea level, in the northern Yorkshire Dales after snowstorms on New Year's Eve.
A snowplough on Sunday finally broke through the more than two-metre snow drifts, ending the revelry, dubbed Britain's longest-running New Year's Eve party by newspapers on Monday. - AFP/de


BEIJING: Heavy snow has brought more travel chaos to north China, stranding thousands of truckers for two days on a Beijing highway and 1,400 rail passengers in Inner Mongolia, state media said on Tuesday.
The snow that blanketed the region at the weekend has ended in Beijing, but the national weather centre said the mercury dipped on Tuesday to minus 15.6 degrees Celsius (four Fahrenheit) – the coldest temperature in more than two decades.
The freezing weather was expected to continue until Thursday for the Chinese capital, nearby Tianjin and Inner Mongolia, with temperatures forecast to fall as low as minus 32 degrees Celsius, it said on its website.
On the outskirts of Beijing, truck drivers were forced to sleep in their vehicles for two nights on a highway when snow made the road impassable, causing a 20-kilometre (12-mile) back-up, the Beijing News reported.
The newspaper, citing transit police, said the highway would only be cleared on Tuesday – after two chilly nights for the drivers, some of whom said they were afraid to sleep for fear of dying of exposure.
Others said they were prepared for the traffic mess.
"We brought food as we expected the jam," said one trucker, who had two cases of instant noodle and one thermos of water on board.
The heavy snow and freezing temperatures have led to hundreds of flight cancellations and delays in Beijing, shuttered schools on Monday and snarled traffic throughout the capital.
In Inner Mongolia, a train hit a wall of snow more than two metres (6.5 feet) high on Sunday, leaving 1,400 travellers in the dark and without heating overnight before they could be evacuated, the China Daily reported Tuesday.
"Though snow stopped yesterday, the temperature was minus 28 Celsius, freezing the doors," the paper quoted Zhang Jianwen, a police officer involved in the rescue effort, as saying.
Nearly 2,000 people including police and local farmers were mobilised to dig out the train, which was heading from the city of Harbin in Heilongjiang province to Baotou in Inner Mongolia, the report said.
Central China was now under a snowstorm warning until Wednesday, stretching from Henan to Hunan provinces, the national weather bureau said on its website.
- AFP/so


and all these reports are just from yesterday and today.

think of the past earthquakes, floods, hurricanes. and the snow now.

i should really be called to be interviewed as an end-of-the-world specialist.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

ads!

oh look there are two ads showing on my blog! signs that i'm getting readers. but doesn't necessarily mean getting money! i'm paid only when you guys click on the ads, so please do((:

on the other not-so-bubbly-hand, wth, dec marks the EIGHTH month?! okay steph, stay calm. it's over anyway. long over.

=D

Thursday, December 17, 2009

the latest happenings.

okay wow i haven't blogged for so long my password to blogger's the old old one.

think i'm lucky i didn't go overseas before prom cuz now i'm covered with at least twenty mozzie bites. spent two nights in a msia kampung, woke up countless times every night, mostly because of the buzzing sounds of mosquitoes/houseflies next to my ear. so i'd wake up everytime shaking my head furiously like i'm on drugs, attempting to shoo the bug away with my violently shaking hair. and i'm super pantan, wore red panties everyday. yes i've got that many of them.

prom didn't spark any very special feelings. i look fat in most of the photos, and my arms, ugh! got any arm-slimming tips? oh yeah my make-up bloody took two hours to complete. and it doesn't look fantastic. but at least prom didn't cost an arm and leg. including ticket and makeup and dress and shoes, less than $200? don't take into account the borrowed prada bag and heavy chunky necklace. they add up to $700+. having sa's prom just next to ours was da bomb. but their's quite sad, cramped and expensive. i think our activity area was at least twice of theirs, and our ticket just a fraction of what they had to pay.

prom highlight: mr koh's going to rvhs. dunno how i should feel about this piece of news.

and so so so many people i forgot to take photos with! xiang hui, felice, greg...but i'm thankful that grace's dad sent me home!

fll ref training has begun, quite surprising that all the refs are ppl who don't need cip hours. and dom chua! so long never see then appear as a fellow ref. looking forward to sat's mass ice-break, we get to set foot on sst ground before the students! but eh, what to wear what to wear. think my wardrobe's really dismal.

oh hmm so far i've for two articles published on mypaper. dec1 and dec8, in the forum. all heavily edited, almost definitely to cut length.

i hope i can land myself a job to tide me through this long hols. but i'm also scared that i may have to retake a's.

seeing ade tomorrow! for the long-anticipated green polo tee!

just got a ridiculous sms. "listen to non-stop english, INDIAN, BANGLA songs conveniently at anytime, anywhere at only $0.12/min!" oh yes the b-word does remind me of hongyang's house drama: discovering the man under the maid's blanket. opens only on facebook.