oh mans.

i hate it when i open my blog and see that there's no movement on the tagboard.

the craving for nan hua food strikes again.

dr chua says i'm "discharged", but gives me another course of antibiotics and nine nights worth of cough syrup.

that means no more pc till like, after chinese new year.

this is like, the first time in my seventeen years of age that i'm dreading the lunar new year. i don't care if everywhere i go's decked with retarded mickey mice and jerries.

things start kicking in and i'm caught unawares. only this afternoon did it come to me that h1 subjects have no lectures. then there should be an option such that a students takes all h1 subjects. lectures are absolutely useless anyway. unless you count it as sleeping time.

it sucks to take initiative all the time. and not being able to influence anybody else in the process.

i bet you people think i'm under pms. no i'm just tired. which other jc student ends school at two and only reaches home at ten thirty to face a whole load of work and mountains of expectations?

i so need somebody to talk to. but i think sleeping's the next best alternative i'm entitled to now.

random.

i've just done my chinese compo. not really done as in do, cuz i just copied the whole 700++ words from nh foolscap to jj foolscap.

i've got a ridiculous jae choice. who puts hc as first choice when the actual l1r5 is five times the cop.

finally saw yangping play squash. and finally heard banliang speak mandarin.

i've got this feeling our shirt's screwed up.

weien and i witnessed an interesting event today at jp.

i realised i've got absolutely no means of contact with my cc10 people. except dear jon's handphone number.

i've got this fetish with male twins around my age.

tomorrow will be a hectic day even though school ends at one. i'm positive it'll be dammit boring sitting in lt5 for two whole hours.

i don't want chinese lessons no more.

heartware fundraising

there's actually a nan hua alumni chinese new year gathering dinner. on the very last day of chinese new year. how wonderful. in the nh canteen too.

sk
yea. soon i'll have to start the cycle all over again. your friend is either watching too much of ultraman or has an unfulfilled desire to watch that ugly superhero fight godzilla while exploding many many buildings in the process and still be claimed as a savior.
eugene
we're not under neiser now fyi. herr spindler's teaching all j1s, h1 and h2. are you regretting now huh? haha.

ahh yes. i've just done my jae registration. i'm really bent on leaving jj okay, so much that i put it as (no not last, i'm not that cruel after all) eighth choice.

and despite many comments about anderson being a hard core mugger school, i really hope to get there. mrs jac liew told me that (aj's a mugger school) the day of results, and i replied, "i don't mind. anyway the ultimate aim in jc is to get an a level cert."

yangping's decided to retain. reading it on his blog first thing this morning sorta shocked me. but wells. all the best yea bodyguard.

heartware fundraising yesterday! i was decked in my neon green jj orientation tee attracting loads of attention. cc11 gic kok kun kindly commented that "i'm possible" , from the word "impossible", my orientation slogan, is superly cliched. actually i thought so too.

was meant to reach tanjong pagar mrt, our meeting point, at two cuz jonathan said it's not really important for me as a dic to reach with the other leaders at one. but i was bored so i reached forty minutes earlier.

CC10! purposely made it green to match my shirt.

stuck labels into the lanyards after writing our (jon's and mine) names and mobile numbers on the blue paper so any damsel in distress can reach us.

stickers and bookmarks for donors.

"unlimited water" (inside joke), "limited edition poncho" (another inside joke) and name tag. had to put our ez links/ics in the tag for identification, and SOME people forgot their ezlinks are inside so at the gantry they tapped their empty wallets. lol.
group ic jonathan (though he's been denying all blame) separated cc10 into random pairs to make sure they bond. i was with gerrilynn from vj! clicked pretty well as we solicited donations opposite tiong bahru plaza. pity those people who had to go door-to-door and face aunties who slam doors in their faces/look through the peep hole but refuse to open the door.

our donation bag. it got pretty heavy when we signed it back in okay! target given by heartware was $100 per pair. doubt we got that much though.

so after many (fun) hours of repeating "hi, would you like to donate to heartware network?" and "thank you" and "heartware network is a volunteer organisation run on public funds to train youths like us to serve the community", we reported back to tanjong pagar. kok kun suggested having cc10 and 11 dinner, but everybody went back uninterested, leaving me with five guys for dinner at maxwell.

kok kun, jovene and me stuck pretty much together, and we had a nice time playing with ham chim pang and mocking jovene's "bedok inter" and lack of knowledge of ham chim pang. err yes jovene's a guy.

sent sic junkhiang and haosheng off then naaman, kok kun, jovene and i went to walk chinatown.
jovene was challenging us to count the total number of mickeys in chinatown. just at one lampost there're two mickey lanterns la! and the pole is decorated with mickey mosiac somemore. how to count.
searched for toilets and at pearl centre, we saw this sign. translated, it means things to use on the bed. we had a good laugh. doubt it means sex toys, because this shop produces curtains as well. things to use on the bed, pillows and bolsters cannot meh?!
gag chalet's cancelled. shall spend my next saturday at pa. i'm off to do my bionomial tutorial. bye.

chingay dream team!

i've always known that i put up long posts, but i never knew how exhaustive it was to read them till like, ten seconds ago. argh. looks like i've got to stop making the scrollbar thingy as small as possible whenever i post.

zhiyi
yea sure thank you!(:

i love my friends. to bits and pieces and molecules and atoms and cells till organelles like mitochondria and cytoskeleton and ribosomes and lysosomes and sooth/rough ER.

chingay training today! jonathan called me like, yesterday night to inform me that he was my group ic and reminded me to bring passport photo plus ezlink plus consent form for training today.

IT WAS THEN THAT I REALISED I HAD TRAINING. i thought all the while i was free to do my bionomial tutorial.

training was meant to be at nine. my phone rang at 8.59am to another of jonathan's call. lol. i was still waiting for my 410 green plate at that time, and turned up twenty minutes late at rj's lt one.

stoned through the powerpoints. it's not that easy to get high and talk to everyone around you when you sound like a frog okay. siyuan came over to talk. turns out jonathan's his schoolmate.

THEN I VOLUNTEERED TO BE DEPUTY IN CHARGE. cuz they were asking down the row, "you want to be dic?" so this cj girl beside me asked me. i said i don't mind, then they passed back up the row, "stephanie from jj." O-M-G. "dic" sounds cool. it's some television/cartoon network company i think.

so yea. i'm now an official leader under the chingay'08 dream team from heartware network. whoo!

there's fund raising tomorrow. heartware's head says that when anybody asks where we come from we've got to say our school name, not heartware's. so it should go something like this:

Hi I'm Stephanie from Jurong Junior College and I'm a volunteer under Heartware Network.

sounds fun. but then yumiko says leaders don't have to raise funds.

weixian was discussing with me my jc choices last night, and i think i'm going to spend much more time getting to school in future. but it'll be worth it. all the best steph(:

o's results.

kaihui
yes yes yes!! haha(:
eugene
GUTEN TAG. you german dropper.
sinkuan
yea haha. results below.
kaiwen
it's okay la. it'll be really awkward if you were to bring us on a tour anyway. haha.
yangping
you're welcome! come to think of it, i think i'll really miss you once i leave jj. haha bodyguard! thanks for so taking care of me!(:

there.

plus my a2 for express chinese, l1r5's fifteen raw. minus bonus four from cca and hcl, i'm left with eleven.

yes, one point more than prelims.

but it's all set yea, and i've cried enough.

sorry mr yeo for getting a c5 in combined humans.

on the brighter side, i'm really glad that all my three languages are of the same standard. haha. i'm eligible for h2 german okay. but i'm most probably sticking to h1.

and, b3 for a math! that's like, the best grade i've gotten so far. thank you mrs tan!

and and, b3 for chinese lit! that's a really big jump from the e8 in prelims la. thank you wang lao shi!

results aside, i had a really nice day in nan hua today!

met meng in the morning so we could go to school together. then met zhiyi and yeeching and cabbed to school because zhiyi was lazy to walk and yeeching had heavy things for training in the afternoon.

john was super cool when he screamed, "graduates please keep quiet otherwise you'll have to go to the canteen!" but i wasn't noisy okay! he was referring to the guys who came back. and didn't join a class. zhiyi camouflaged me all through morning assembly. mr ed ng walked past several times but didn't spot me. mrs b lim also. but during attire check i went to 404 instead. cuz miss rani doesn't know me, unlike mdm yong checking at there.

mdm foo suggested i go for english lessons with 404, so i did. mr kok was real nice la! i don't know why the class doesn't like him. he's super high!

him: class, take out the paragraph you write the last lesson. we shall go through some of your work before we have the CLASS TEST.

me: (to myself) oops. (whips out a fresh piece of foolscap instead)

then he walked down the rows to check if everyone did their paragraphs. i was seated at the first row last seat. when he came over,

him: (stares)
me: (waves) erm hi! i'm a graduate and i'm here to, erm, experience your lesson.
him: indeed.
me: you don't mind right?
him: no i don't.

so yes. the students was supposed to write a paragraph with expression of "face, action and something-i-forgot". somebody had this in the paragraph: "pulcritudinous lady". even mr kok didn't know what it meant. oh he's the new english hod btw.

i could only stay for half an hour because i arranged a geog lesson with 407 at 8.30. so i packed my bag, stood up and waved goodbye to mr kok. meant for it to be a hush-hush departure, but he waved back and the whole class turned back. so i ended up saying bye to everyone before running away in embarrasment.

i was waiting outside the 407 classroom. saw yiling downstairs and she mouthed jiayou. thanks!(:

took a couple of pictures, will post them on my photo blog soon.

mr yeo went through global industrial shifts in the one hour. 407's going to have a test on chapter three next thursday, and their ct's on chapter two to four. he had sore throat too, so the lessons went on pretty weird. but the class was enthu enough la. like 411/412'07 like that. the first ppt slide showed this slice of pizza with "made in china" stamped underneath. and we talked about the movie "full monty". mr yeo drew something on the board that looked rather porn so we had to clean it off before mdm sia came in for their history test. haha.

he was telling 407 that for 2007 o's, there was 100% pass for his pure geog (which i was surprised because that included my class), and asked them to not break his record. then he said 411/412'07 results not good. wells.

then i proceeded to 405 for bio lesson with mdm yong. they went through the eye. like, so fast. i think last year this time we were still doing topics many chapters before that la. went through ciliary body, side view of eye, iris and focusing. the guys, especially, were rather cheeky la. asked alot of questions and kept moving about which i think made mdm yong pretty pissed. she said, "i'm not God, i cannot explain everything." yea so, "the pupil enlarges when light intensity in low. the pupil becomes smaller when the light intensity is high. this is the reflex action." haha i copied it down like the rest of then. and, the image formed on the retina is "laterally inverted, small and inverted." mdm yong said, "after 7 metres is far" when one of the guys asked, "how far is far?" for the lens and suspensory ligament thing.

i went through "detention" with them so that mdm yong could finish what she wanted to go through. got zhiyi's a math tb from 407's pigeon hole then went to the canteen to pass it to her. met felice and yuhui while walking to the canteen. they had alot of chocolates but none of them was for me ): haha.

after their recess i went to mr foo's office with felice and yuhui. talked and took pictures. he wasn't happy with our results. no half day for sec ones to fours'08.

then we complained of being hungry and mr foo treated us to recess. felice and yuhui returned to his office but i was feeling rather stressed already so i stayed in the canteen.

liwen came soon enough and we went to walk walk till more four one people arrived. then we played daidi, but liwen played for me most of the time because even after numberous attempts by her to teach me, i still have no iea how the game works. i know we're meant to begin with diamond three and two spade's the biggest and there's soemthing about five cards and doubles but i don't know when to put what.

talked with weijie and cried over a phone call. he was nice by passing me tissue!

went up to hall to meet up with foureleven people. mel gave me a card! thanks!

so yes. at 2pm, mr pang (i think) began the jae presentation. nobody was listening la. then after that mr foo began with the results powerpoint slides. top student melinda! heh i bet everybody was expecting somebody from 403 la. i was too. then was the table of people with nine distinctions. i saw liwen's name and was like, "whoo!" then i went over to fourone and everybody behind were staring at me. lol. parents and alumni and other guests la.

when i went back to class mrs tan called and wanted to talk to mdm yong. so i had to stand up from where i was seated far far behind due to register number and walk right to the front where all the teachers were. i bet the whole hall was staring at me. passed my phone to mdm yong then i joined ruth and yayi infront. saw the 0.0% distinction for german and i broke down. thank you ruth and liwen for hugging/consoling me! liwen was like, "it's okay, it's really okay one."

i attracted alot of queer looks from fourone people when i went over before i received my results and was crying. yea like, which kuku person cries even before looking at her results right. but cuz german only me mah. so i already knew one subject de. zheng mian laoshi comforted me too! thanks(:

then i went back to foureleven again to help qimin get her results. opened it with with mrs b lim and camilia. she did pretty well la. hugged and i carried on my torturous anticipation for my results.

called engwei to tell him that nan hua had 0% distinctions for german. then he was like, "who are you?" walau.

zhiyi got a1 for express chinese! but she scammed yangping by telling him she got b3. funny girl. after that she told him though.

jeslyn cried after she saw her results. made me more nervous before receiving mine la! cuz she was right before me. i was pretty calm when signing for my results. but when mdm yong went, "you've got two distinctions la. abcs also have.", my brain began pulsing.

got mrs b lim to open my form a. we sat at the stage there and when she hugged me mr sean see snapped a photo. think i never see ah! haha. honglin told me earlier that there was a failure for chinese lit. i saw jiacheng's results before i got mine, and he didn't fail, so i thought that since there are only two singaporeans in the class, if he didn't fail, it must be me. and right the bottom of my result slip it says "LITERATURE IN CHINESE THREE B CHINESE SINGAPORE" which means i didn't fail leh! super happy. but yea, the c5 for geog. mr yeo was really really disappointed i could see. sad.

made all the necessary calls to announce my results. mummy was pretty okay with it la. asked me to go home straight and don't go out with friends. lol. cried over the call with godmum and she was like, "silly! don't cry la! you've already done your best!" uncle jack was rather disappointed too. daddy was fine with it, told me to return home too. haha. my parents have this thing with, "whatever happens, must remember to go home."

in the end, it's not really about how well/badly i've done, but the people i've let down.

thank you jinger and yiling for being there for me when i was outside crying!
thank you wudi for comforting me, thank you john for that pat on the shoulder.

thank you mdm yong and mr nicholas liu for the talk in the staffroom! mr nic liu was like, "i think you're a really bright girl. i told mdm yong also." makes me think of what the teachers say of me behind my back. all the gossips behind those glass doors of the staffroom. lol.

wang laoshi was really happy that i got a b3 for chinese lit. mdm chong wasn't too glad with my b3 for higher chinese though.

i was tottering around the hall so much mdm camilia went, "eh! you not chairman liao leh! don't have to run about liao!" cuz she thought i was doing stuff for foureleven. lol. but i told her, "i have alot of friends mah! so must go around!" haha.

i'm still thinking of my jc choices, but it's definite that i'll be leaving jj.

i told yangping and kaihui, as much as i love all the wonderful people i've met in my three weeks, jj's not the place for me. so yes, i'll treasure each moment i have left in 800 corporation road. and when i step out of the gate one last time, i'll remember everybody i've met and the fabulous times we've shared.

mdm yong said, "there must be some reason you are given this option. so make the best out of whatever you're given." yes.

congratulations melinda, liwen, aaron, yanglu, jeslyn, melissa, zhiyi, jonathan, yuhong, jiabin, weijie, kerong, yiyang, weien, wenjing, wendy, jiamin for getting wonderful results! hope i didn't leave anybody out.

my batch song, for jjcians from O1'08:
there's a hero
if you look inside your heart
you don't have to be afraid
Of what you are

there's an answer
if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know
will melt away

and then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive
so when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you

it's a long road
when you face the world alone
no one reaches out a hand
for you to hold
you can find love
if you search within yourself
and the emptiness you felt
will disappear

and then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive
so when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you

Lord knows
dreams are hard to follow
but don't let anyone
tear them away, hey yeah
hold on
there will be tomorrow
in time
you'll find the way

and then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive
so when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you

that a hero lies in
you
that a hero lies in
you

now there's another song that evokes a tsunami of emotions in me. thank you jurong junior college.

one more:
The road unwinds before us
And we must venture on
Towards the bright tomorrow
Which faith and hope enthrone.

We shall not stay nor linger
We shall not shrink nor fail
But hand in hand together
Strike out along the trail.

Head, heart and hand we offer
That none will fail the test
"Plus Ultra" leads us further
Until we are the best.

And on our backs the armour
Forged in our college days
And in our eyes the light of truth
This college sets ablaze.

Head, heart and hand we offer
That none will fail the test
"Plus Ultra" leads us further
Until we are the best.

yes that's the jj school song.

种

某个时候我们一起低头
一块地是你的
想想将来它会成长出什么啊

新鲜水果还是一栋大楼
梦想现在就种
好久以后我们在这里碰啊

离开了以后什么都别说
干脆当作投奔自由了

去你能去的想你能想的
不动也别太久留

现在不要动忙着做梦没有空
现在开始动每个结果大不同
现在半空中飘着乐观的微风
活得自由自在
漫游无限漫游
种下梦想会有收获时候

是啦黄阳宾，献给你的。隔了一年，又要大考了。加油！我不在你就不用身兼多职，又读书又当保镖。哈哈！不要太想我，偶尔偶尔就好了。(:

melissa's in rj. whoo!

OMG I'M SUPER PROUD OF MY FOURELEVEN VICE CHAIR OKAY! RJ LEH! sorry la so lag, i only knew today.

yuhui
i'm still rather free mah. must exercise fingertips otherwise i'll feel uneasy one. REALLY OKAY.
AHH I MISS FOURELEVEN. REACH SCHOOL EARLY EARLY OKAY!!!
wendy
but when you say somebody is sotong you'll mean he/she's slow/blur what. haha. CHALET CHALET!!

i'm still uber high now. i don't know why. may got scared when i was high during lesson today. she was like,

eh why you today so high. scare me leh.

haha. i never really sunk low since oc okay! that's like, 22-3=19 days already. no wonder my sore throat never gets better.

we finally went on our excursion! (h1 german'08 secret!) but i shall divulge. when i feel like
posting up the photos we took. super fun/funny!

yesterday when mr foo confirmed with me through sms that results will be out on thurs, weien and wenjing and i were screaming in the corridors of jj like some mad idiots. then weien and i sort of broke into tears. dammit overwhelming la. like, RESULTS ARE COMING OUT. rahh. but after thinking about it for awhile i decided to just let time pass as it has always been. since like, whatever i do, the results are already there.

remember that childhood nursery rhyme/song? the que sera sera one. it says, what will be, will be. i'm glad i had a fulfilling childhood.

when i was just a little girl
i asked my mother
what would i be?
will i be pretty?
will i be rich?
here's what she said to me:

que sera sera,
whatever will be, will be.
the future's not ours to see
que sera sera
what will be, will be.

when i was just a kid in school
i asked my teacher
what would i be?
will i be teaching?
will i be rich?
here's what she said to me:

que sera sera,
whatever will be, will be.
the future's not ours to see
que sera sera
what will be, will be.

there's revelation tomorrow in jj. then SPRING CLEANING. walau i haven't even finish getting my chinese new year clothes/spring clean my house they want me to spring clean jj. wonderful.

oh yea. i found a song already. next post, if i can get one up before i receive my results.

bis donnerstag!(:

three days.

so yes. o level results are confirmed to be released on thursday, 24 jan 2007, 2pm.
details at http://www.moe.gov.sg/press/2008/pr20080121.htm.

i was meant to dedicate a song to yangping but i just realised the song doesn't have lyrics. lol.

thanks for having that utmost faith in me.

those were tears of fear. thank You for taking them away.

断了的弦

第一次听到这首歌，它就单单是一首歌。对它冷漠了几年，在我开始拿起吉他后，弹着那六根弦，这首歌似乎唤醒了我心灵深处的小精灵，有了另一个意思，一份让我久久难以忘怀的礼物。

长大了，真的需要更在乎以往归为琐碎的事吗？以前易如反掌的，现在为何得如此艰难？时间，就让它停下吧。

人是有悲欢离合的，这我非常清楚。愿上苍赐给我们多点欢与合，悲和离嘛，最好都删掉。

断了的弦再怎么连
我的感觉你已听不见
你的转变像断掉的弦
再怎么接音都不对
你的改变我能够分辨

我沉默你的话也不多
我们之间少了什么不说哎哟
微笑后表情终于有点难过
握着你的手
问你确定了再走

我突然释怀地笑
笑声盘旋半山腰
随风在飘摇啊摇
来到你的面前绕
你泪水往下地掉
说会记住我的好
我也弯着了嘴角笑

你的美已经给了谁
追了又追我要不回
我了解离开树的叶
属于地上的世界凋谢

断了的弦再弹一遍
我的世界你不在里面
我的指尖已经弹出茧
还是无法留你在我身边

不知道。也许我只是自作多情，无聊没事做想太多。不过一个快要十七岁的女孩，应该有这个权力吧？

s22.

zhiyi
i wanted to go again one! cuz like, never go alot of places. and never eat ngee ann food. but then my brother didn't want to go with me and i didn't want to go alone...YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME EARLIER! THEN I CAN GO WITH YOU ALL. haha nvm la.
wendy
they sort of mean the same thing, no? yes yes go out again and we shall get many many people to go along!(:
siewkiang
the play was really well done. haha. the old lady who sat beside me cried at one part. i forgot what. she blew her nose so loud the whole theatre stared at her. i guess everybody has funny dreams, but only you will dream of li nanxing + adrian pang + pineapple tarts. weird combi all in one dream. haha.

so yes. 08s22.

the first class we went to together was chem prac on monday. once we were seated, i glanced around. one thought came into my mind:

"whoa siao. so many nan hua people."

i mean like, i was blessed to be the only nanhuarian in my og, which allowed me to fully open up to make new friends who were fantabulous people.

but apparently whoever-up-there wanted to challenge me by giving me such a class. not just to go for lectures/tutorials with, but to chair. this entire class of twenty five people, forty percent populated by nanhuarians, whom mostly came from classes i didn't really like.

the classes they come from is one thing. because i know i can't just stereotype every single person from those three classes just because i can't stand a certain few. but another thing is, they stick to each other like super glue. which makes it really hard for me to communicate with them and vice versa. cuz they can't take anything in. so it's just one big group of nine white uniform-ed girls who stick together, laugh together, skip lessons together, ignore what i say together...yea you get the idea.

of course it's actually none of my business to care about their company. i'm a busy girl myself and i've got much better things to do than that. i'm not trying to like, abuse my powers till it's, "hey look. i'm the chairman you'd better listen to me." but i don't appreciate the certain few of you girls staring at me out of the blue like i'm some traitor person just because i don't walk around like some underworld gang with people donning shirts of the same triangle blue white red logo with an open book.

making new friends is not a crime. in actual fact, i think, not making new friends and being unable to step out of your comfort zone is. so should i stare back at you?

no. i don't want to tire my eyes. i've got better things to do, remember?

but since i'm at the top of the class committee, and yes i brought myself to that post, i've got a goal i want to reach. when i agreed with miss xu to take up the post of chairman, i set this aim: to make this class united, by whenever pae ends.

yes probably the last day of pae may be thursday, since results are supposedly coming out on friday, but that just means i've got four days to reach my goal. that may not be long, but it's definitely better than having just one day left.

it's really uber sad to see the whole clique like that. the other time you people skipped chinese and had to answer for it the next lesson, remember what wu laoshi said? "nan hua one. my alma mater. disgrace me."

i immediately covered my school logo on my shirt when i heard this. if you girls want to disgrace nan hua, then i'd rather give up my roots. i've got alot of other school shirts. i can just forget picking out any of the nine nan hua shirts i have for school.

when i step into a new environment, i don't like meeting familiar people. because they hinder my way to try to blend into this new environment. which i why i love og23. which is why i try to talk to you girls when i don't do so in nan hua. because in my eyes, all of you are new people to me, new people that i'm given a chance to know and to befriend.

can you imagine if i stuck with nan hua people for these two weeks plus in jj? then it'll be like a nan hua outing la. but no. it's orientation because we're in a new school. it's jurong junior college, not nan hua junior college. so what if we're dominating the school. there still people of other schools present. and these are people whom we are given a chance to allow them to step into our lives. i mean like, don't you think it'll be super boring to stick with the same bunch of people for whole six years? i didn't even do that in primary school, thank goodness, because i changed school halfway.

and i thank all twenty seven girls and guys of og23 and our five ogls and sinkuan for accepting the invitation to walk into my life. all of you have definitely left a mark.

i've fallen in love with the chairman post every since i chaired foureleven. because it gives me opportunities to know each and every member of the class in a personal sort of way. and now that i'm being bestowed this blessing again, i want to make full use of it. i'm determined to solve this disgusting problem before we're split up.

all for one!

siewkiang
yes it was nice! haha i read the book AFTER i watched the play. super funny. i closed my eyes at the part where vinod danced till he died. so i didn't actually know he died. the lighting of that scene was too disco-esque for my eyes to be comfortable so yea. vinod looked like he had a bath with ketchup then. when my eyes were still open.
jiabin
argh yes yes. i hope i don't ever get it la. so scary. oh yea my jj math tutor hinted it was friday. and alot of people say is friday also. so i think it's really friday. my friend from another jc said they'll inform us secfours'07 one day before, however they do it. i want to see the whole of foureleven again leh! though i dread my results much much.

ahhh. because yangping has never sent me that all for one song, i've been condemned to visiting eisabess's blog just to listen to it. makes me super high. that song.

and the ngee ann people were dancing to it at open house yesterday. went with wendy and kaihui, brought around by kaihui's sernior huiyi.

(bessy can you make the song repeat on your blog so i do'nt have to refresh everytime it finishes playing. haha.)

np open house was fun fun. i think we enjoyed the fms tour the most. gerald really sounds like leung yan okay! the radio thing was cool because we were still very high. it's miraculous what a jj orientation camp can do to us. it's like, more than a week since we broke camp already, but still, we're rather crazy.

we met after school in the canteen first, then talked abit while kaihui finished her gp reflections to hand it in. then when she was back we talked more but the seniors at the next table suddenly changed their topic to something really awkward for us at our table so we quickly siam-ed.

bus-ed to wherever-that-was for kaihui to collect her pay, then we went to ikea to eat hotdogs then cabbed to np. they wanted to watch the stars/celebrities sing, so we went to the atrium. then kaihui met huiyi, who gave up her adrianno to bring us on a tour.

kaihui was super straightforward when we asked, "can i get a chop?" after every single station we visited at the engineering booths. fondue-ed marshmallow was nice! and the eyebrow-controlled skating panda was uber cool la.

we were meant to meet up with jiamin at np but she had friends with her already and we reached rather late so it was just the three of us plus huiyi in the end. we signed up for the friends of np just so we could get a plastic bag for our stuff. i've lost count of how many times i've signed up for that thing. they have a booth almost everytime i go there for events. i rmb once was some engineering thing with aaron and ziwei, then once was the stock challenge, and another time was the young leaders' day with yayi and mrs tan. that's the minimum ba. so i think i've signed up four times already.

collected our goody bags at ourspace, then sat down to munch on our donut factory double choc donuts while giving our very burdened shoulders a well-deserved rest. cuz our bags were super heavy. wendy brought shoes to change somemore.


i don't exactly remember much from the ba tour. only that there was this super high bunch of people dancing to all for one and two girls who so wanted us to buy chocolates and sweets from them. and there was this station for us to throw balls into hoops then one of the station masters offered us a prize of the whole box of chocolates if we throw the balls at another station master. we did throw, but didn't take the chocolates la.


bailin was our tourguide for the fms place.
him: what school are you all from?
wendy: fairfield.
me: nan hua.
kaihui: clementi town.
then bailin gave us a funny expression. kaiwen asked me to tell him when i reach the fms place but he already left when we were there. haha.

i think we had the most fun at the radio place cuz we could get really high. i-forgot-his-name talked to the people outside through the mike but they didn't reply, so we got him to try again as we stood outside. super fun. fsv people are super high la. then huiyi regretted choosing her accounting course.


we cab-ed to jec after that. talked alot alot and i bet i saw the taxi uncle grin when i mentioned i want to hire a chauffeur to drive me round when i grow up. kaihui was asking if we wanted to get our driving license when we are of age ma.

took neoprints at jec. wanted to change my two-dollar note to two one dollar coins but when i hadned over the note, the auntie gave me ten one-dollar coins. i was stunned for a split second, then i told her i only need two dollars. she was muttering something about having not enough change, then she suddenly realised what i really wanted to do. so funny.


there was one uncle staring at us play in the arcade. dunno why.

then we had sub-dinner (because the other two still had food waiting for them at home) and kaihui bus-ed back home while wendy and i went to the mrt station.

the three of us had a nice time laughing at wendy for being uber slow the whole day. she reminds me of andrea. oh yea. we met andrea and her ac friends as we went into ikea. and we saw alot of nanhua people at np too.

i've got something to share about s22. next post, probably later today. my photoblog has more photos of the np open house, and other stuff this week.

what?

sinkuan
ahh. okay. next time you come must make appointment one okay!
calvin
so that's my cue to link you too? haha. i'll do it soon yea.
eisabess
juniors=nhds? to be pretty frank i'll have to say there's a significant fraction of people there that have serious attitude problems. especially with the dsa rubbish. but don't be demoralised/discouraged/pissed by them okay! remember that whenever somebody pulls you guys down, there'll always be more others backing you up. (:
siewkiang
you're lost because i update like there's no tomorrow? haha. i'm still pretty free now mah. wait till school really kicks in. haha. don't make me jealous. i read bessy's blog and so regretted i didn't risk crashing.

erm. i don't really have stuff to update with, so yea.

thank you wendy for giving me your voucher too.

i'm looking forward to that outing tomorrow. super funny, you people.

and yes, pc lessons are love. seriously.

o's results!

zhiyi
OMG I NEVER REALISED. you can find me when i go back for results lor. soon soon. i returned his tie clip already. haha.
sinkuan
YOU NEVER CALL ME!!!! my class ended at three thirty la. og outing arh. err. if we can get justin to come along. XD
calvin
they're all nice. i won't mind if you get me either. heh.

this is taken from the cambridge website, http://www.cie.org.uk/news/announcements/detail?announcement_id=21829.

so yes. it says:

Examination results published 21 January

15 January 2008

Examination results for Cambridge International A Level, O Level and Cambridge IGCSE from the November 2007 session will be released to staff at Cambridge Centres on Monday 21 January.

Centres
Cambridge Centres can access student results online, and in confidence, via CIE Direct over a week before they arrive by post.

Cambridge International Centres who would like to view their results online, but have yet to register to gain access, should email international@cie.org.uk. Attached Centres should contact their parent Centres.

Students
Students must obtain their results from their Centre. CIE Direct is not available to students.

ahh. so that solves all the problems we've been having these 83157035 days after o's. we're students, so i think it means we'll get our results in the last week of jan.

i'll enjoy my og23 and 08s22 and my beloved pc lessons till then.

rahh the jj spirit song is ringing in my ears. "ahhh ahhh~jj spirit will be there..."

AHHHHH READ THIS.

The world's thinnest notebook.
Inroducing MacBook Air.

Everything about MacBook Air has been streamlined. And then streamlined again. Except for the things that shouldn't be, starting with the full-size, backlit keyboard and 13.3-inch widescreen display. On the inside (yes, there's an inside), it boasts an Intel Core 2 Duo processor, 2GB of memory, and amazing wireless capabilities. Mobile computing suddenly has a new standard. MacBook Air.
http://www.apple.com.sg/macbookair/

i'm still uber high. but i shall go get my class contact list typed out.

chairperson. of 08s22.

yuhui
yea yea! but err. what's your blog url again? haha i tried to search through links but it proved futile.

thank You for bestowing me the courage to stare into miss xu's eyes to indicate that i have that burning desire for that post in the class committee. and thank You, for none of the other 24 08s22ers had objections. thank You again, for letting wenjing be my vice-chair, and wenjie be my treasurer. thank You for giving me the strength to remain as high as i was in og23 in 08s22 even in the midst of overwhelming nanhuarians.

first lesson today was chem prac. chem teacher's our civics tutor as well. i was duh-ing through chem while not-so-secretly writing down my thoughts as lesson went along. i'm positive noella wore somebody's rj uniform okay.

seriously. i think miss xu sounds like xiaxue. you know that super controversial blogger xiaxue. the way she talks, especially. wenjing and weien agreed too.

i'm the last girl on the name list. after four years of secondary school, where i had xinyu behind me in sec one and two, then qingyun and honglin in sec three and four. haha. but i'm index number twenty! same as primary one. and there're five guys in my class of twenty five. well at least the boy to girl ratio's nicer than it was in foureleven.

that's not the biggest hooha okay.

read this. i've got ten nanhuarians in my class. that's like, forty percent. rahh.

tomorrow onwards, 08s22.

kaiwen
huh what. you want to go shopping with me huh.
zhiyi
you haven't seen worse. haha. i actually wanted to make it sound like a gp essay, but wells. i want to go back nan hua!!!
sinkuan
that's like, tomorrow. we'll all be in our classes already leh. nevermind you can call me!
yangping
i realised you took away the bodyguard part from your nick. haha. next year you botak liao lah. anyway there's still three hundred plus days before 2009. including my promos. haha.

AHH THE DREADED MONDAY IS CRAWLING NEAR. LIKE SOME DISGUSTING PURPLE WITH YELLOW POLKA DOT CREEPY CRAWLIE WITH TWELVE EYES AND A BILLION LEGS AND 813751835265 SHARP SHARP FANGS AND SLIME DRIPPING ALL OVER.

calvin don't you go around scaring people with that, "oh i did chem tutorial."

OG23!!!

understanding.

i finished my first ever jc tutorial! haha. math. partial fractions. i don't care if siyuan says we're not meant to use cover-up rule. that's what that teacher guy taught in those times we were all squeezed into lt5.

i feel like a true jj student la. with all those spooky stuff happening to me at home. if you're my friend, ask me and i'll tell you more. it's not suitable to be posted up.

i'm still ill yes. there's not much phlegm/mucus left, but there's still coughing ang the asthma-wheezing. it's been a long time since my parents have to profusely boil water cuz i drink alot.

derniese gave up german. for all h2 bcme subject combo. i'm taking bcme with german, bio h1. the compulsory chinese sucks. going to chinese class is like letting nan hua down, so i skipped the lesson altogether.

i don't want monday to come. i think i told this to alot of people alot of times, but i'm still going to repeat it. i don't want to leave og23. even though the only ones bonded are probably only half of us twenty seven campers. but it's better than nothing. and better than us sticking with our secondary school people.

i don't like the sound of 08s22. esp after glancing through the class list. hopefully i'll change my viewpoint. i'd better do.

oh yea. i didn't go back nh's oc. firstly was that yangping made it sound damn hard to get in, then was that i felt i couldn't take it with my sore-throat plus cough stuff. nevermind there's always another chance. this was the first time nan hua produced a black non-class-tee tee okay! but it was for campers only i realised. leaders get bright green. like my jj oc tee.

it feels really weird,the state i'm in now. i feel like i'm having a loooong break from nan hua, just that i'd most probably not ever step in there again. it feels weird to think about leaving all those people i was close to esp in sec four, and how i haven't been talking to someone who said we were very very very good friends.

oh well. opportunity cost is the benefits of the next best alternative forgone.

leadership.

i haven't made a serious post for quite some time. like, posts with a definite topic, unlike those recounts of the day.

then thanks to something kaihui told me (it's a good thing), i've thought about what i want to share.

anybody remember your first time being a leader? sure i've been in projects and many funny groups all these twelve years of singapore education, but i don't exactly remember my first leadership experience. it's like, mr x just goes, "stephanie, you be the group leader." then i'll go home all hopping happy telling my mum i'm group leader. when all i'm tasked to do is to collect exercise books and stuff.

anybody can be a leader. really. just in different aspects. the slackiest slacker can be a wonderful leader if he manages to get everybody to slack with him. the most enthu ogl will be a wonderful leader if he gets the whole og to be really high. but then again. it's not so much about completing the job you're tasked to do, but rather the quality of the finished job.

take orientation camps as an example. ogls are tasked to bring their campers to completing their oc. but how they do it's a completely different thing. like, one ogl can just be super quiet, not join in the ice breakers, cheer soft soft and keep sms-ing somebody else throughout the camp, and the entire og will still tide over the duration of the camp. otherwise, another ogl can be uber enthu, cheer super loud until he loses his voice even before the second day of the oc, really really mingle with his og, and so his og will have a fabulous time completing the camp.

both ogls have completed their task. but of course the latter's more successful.

i've completed my jj oc. and i think all my ogls belong to the latter group. they're really great leaders. i mean like, i myself has been a leader before, especially last year where i really grown up and learnt to see things better chairing foureleven. so during my oc, i'm a leader under another five leaders, so instead of simply being a follower, i'll try to see things from a leader's perspective. many a time i'll find myself thinking, "whoa. if i'm him arh..."

which was why i thought it was seriously important to let my ogls know they've been fabulous. even more after what yangping told me over the phone call the first night. it's really not easy to be an ogl. it's not easy to be a great leader.

all of us j1 campers had this song singing session the first night, and this mr chua guy was being a super mood-dampener when he sort of reprimanded all ogls in front of camp beta, my camp. he said he actually wanted to dedicate the song "hero" to all the ogls, but after seeing their standard, he felt that it was not up to mark and so he was very disappointed. he mentioned about how they still stuck to each other (ogls) and not mingle with their campers. then he compared them with the previous batch of ogls, meaning, these ogls' ogls. i vaguely remember feeling this pinch in me. like, i felt that the ogls were wrongly accused. it's not their fault that they're sticking with each other. they were trying to get us into the lecture theatre first, before entering themselves. so of course they won't be with us la. and, how would they know the actual standard of the previous batch of ogls? they can only give it their best, if it's not enough, then too bad. people have limits you know.

if i were one of the ogls there then, i won't cry like what a few of them did. i'll just be dammit angry. because i know that if i'm really going to lead, i'll give it my all. and whether you like it or not, this is all i have. i put it in, i don't care what others have, i know i've done my very best.

ena wrote me a few notes the duration of time i spent as chairman. they always motivated me, because i know that even if the entire class takes me for granted, she's always there, appreciating my efforts.

which is what i think being a leader is about. we don't expect fancy gifts or cold hard cash, we just want our efforts to be appreciated and enjoyed by others.

so that night i made up my mind, i need my ogls to know that i really appreciate all that they've done. and a couple of you guys may have saw me scribbling away in the wee hours of the morning. i wrote a thank you note to each of them. because i don't want them to be discouraged by what mr chua said. because i know if i were them, i'll need a camper like that.

mr chua never dedicated "hero" to them. our last song-singing session, the song went to the councillors. not the ogls.

kaihui told me at some random moment today, that somebody said i'm fierce but can be a good leader. i'd never guess that person that said it. but i'm glad i know. i'm glad that even in a foreign environment, there is still somebody who can see this little leader in me.

at the end of oc last sat, there was an announcement made of all j1 ogl-wannabes to go take the registration form. almost our whole og went. zhishen filled in my recommendation part.

but i never handed it in.

i know very well that if i were to register, i would have to fork out a fraction of my time. i don't have many fractions left already. school, german, guitar, chingay... i'm not even taking up a cca these few weeks.

i don't want to do something i know i won't be able to. if i can't commit the time, i'll never do it well. then even when the job's done, i'll just fade away and nobody'll care. i don't want that to happen. i experienced a fabulous time having the five guys kenny zhishen justin wenyao helmi as my ogls, and i want the second intake people to have just a fabulous time as i had. so if i know i can't meet their mark, i don't want to risk.

dwight eisenhower said, "leadership is the art of getting someone else to do something you want done because he wants to do it." i came across this quote a while after i volunteered to chair 411. and it stuck in my brain. that was my aim for last year. to make foureleven do something i want done because they want to do it.

it was hard. even after knowing them for a year as threeeleveners.

so i would expect a more torturous time if i were to lead new people. making them do ice breakers because they want to, making them cheer because they want to, everything.

my oc was wonderful because my ogls were fantastic. if i were to take up that challenge, my goal would be to hear my campers say that after their orientation. it's not the songs that were great, not the games that were fun, not the people who were really enthu, but because of the leaders. without them, however nice the songs are, however fun the games are, however enthu the campers are, there'll be nothing in the end.

henry ford said, "whether you think you can, or whether you think you can't, you're right." i believe i can do it. but i don't believe that my body can take it. at least now. i've been diagnosed with throat inflammation and cough. my camp ended six days back. that's when i'm a camper. imagine if i'm an ogl. maybe i'll get the same thing on the second day of the camp.

but if the camp's going to be wonderful, it's all going to be worth it.

i just closed a door that God opened for me. i won't wait for Him to open the next one for me, i'll do it myself.

laxatives?!

yuhui
huh. i don't link you doesn't mean i don't read your blog what. haha. link here link there then reach le mah. I MISS YOU!!
kaiwen
you make it sound like this blog belongs to the three of us. lol. cny arh. we go visit mr foo la. but zhiyi cannot go cuz he say only grads can go. we all only have two days of hols for cny leh. then i got chingay also.
wendy
HEY I CAN SEE YOU TAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGED!(: i thought of the words for the shirt liao. shall tell you tomorrow. you'd better not pon school.

#1. i consumed laxatives unconsciously today.
#2. i've got an ultra sexy voice. just that it hurts when i talk.
#3. i used the inhaler thrice today. ran two and a half rounds.
#4. i think i pulled my right arm muscle again.
#5. kaihui gave me her voucher. (:
#6. i haven't told my mum i'm seriously going for oc after school tomorrow till sat morning.
#7. i don't know if i'll be able to even survive school tomorrow given the horrid state i'm in now. not solid, not liquid, not gas.
#8. herr spindler rocks. we're the sieben zwerge and he's schneewitter. spieglein spieglein an der wand!

i've got a sore throat. i'm sexy. LOL.

this is my 343rd post. AFTER SO MANY YEARS OF BLOGGING?!?

zhiyi
i sent to you le! haha! can you stay back a little while on friday i go back get my notes back from you.
sinkuan
I DON'T BELIEVE YOU CAN STILL FIT IN IT! haha. i wore my pri sch skirt to school yesterday. super funny. i don't know what mass lecture will end. i don't like them.
kaiwen
i never knew you still come over. haha. next time you free then we go out together la.
zhiyi
haha yea. go out "study". super cool man.
yuhui
you mean the one on your tagboard? yea it's me!
yangping
TINGE la. yea we should all go out one day. but i'm beginning to get really busy.

lessons lectures ended at twelve today. felt super sleepy the whole morning so i didn't stay back for cca showcase.left jj at one, went home slept till six plus i had dinner then went for guitar.

i'm in yiyang's class! i'm going to be there forever i think. cuz my original guitar lessons clash with german. and i don't want to attend sunday 9am class cuz it doesn't fit into my sunday mroning schedule too. kuku timing. this class everybody very pro la! but only got three other people except me. yiyang, one westwood guy and another girl.

the windows auto updates has appeared three times already, attempting to restart my computer. haha. there's pc (physical conditioning) tomorrow and i'm sick. gahh. i want to run. then there's german again. i love myself.

photoblog's updated with more jj photos, go see!

and lastly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONGLIN!!!
whoa nineteen years old ler leh. i feel so young. enjoy your time in hc yea! <3!

photo avalange

zhiyi
nah! they're here! haha!
sinkuan
whoa how soon is your soon! i miss you already!
yangping
ehh if i stay in jj just for a bodyguard ahhh...abit not the worth it. haha. after my pae then you tell me la!
wendy
np np! yea yea yea! (omg this sounds like a cheer.) YIPA ANDENEH!

photo avalange!!! many many unglam photos ahead, esp of mr bodyguard wong yang ping. pardon my wonderful phone camera. as mr ex ex nh itmc chairman kindly pointed out, it's only 1.3 megapixels. and my phone's four years old okay.

yangping's jacket. walau i wear already like never wear shorts like that. SUPER big.

zhiyi was damn bored in the library as you can see.

so we gave up on studying and went to science centre, photos at her blog. then we took bus to jp and the two were challenging one-hand rubiks. i've never got near solving one before.

and zhiyi won okay!!

the protagonist is the bear hanging at the top, not the red shirt spastic guy. nor the guy at the back that looks super like mr peter tan.

whee i'm swinging!!

super cute man yang ping.

i thought these two people looked good in green. check out their contrasting expressions.

ONE!

TWO!

THREE!

FOUR!

FIVE!

SIX!

SEVEN!

EIGHT!

NINE!

TEN!

whoo i'm sitting on yangping kor kor's shoulder! but like will fall anytime one. ahhh!!!~

polar bear! still got christmas hat one lor lol. it was from the combo thing we got for our movie.

i thought the proportion of the sg flag in jj's classroom looked weird.

the table's heartbeat! it dies at the end if you realise.

my breakfast for today! mac's grill chicken bun with alot alot of vege. ehh no og23, i'm not really a vegetarian. i just like alot of fibre. HAHA TIO SCAM!

8/27 of OG23!
shawn was trying to be emo with my penknife.

then he tried (but failed miserably) to imitate bowen.

but calvin did it!

jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj~

justin!

justin again!

nurul and suhyee! haha nikiysa!

shawn's crumpler's badges. the one at the bottom's not a badge please.

suh yee and me! she emailed me and called me sweetheart. haha!

twelve of us! thank you yangping for being our photographer!

another one with zhishen. yes i almost fell off the sofa handle thing i was sitting on. slipped down twice before this photo was taken la!


that's it people. i'm going to sleep.