nice clerks nh has.

TODAY...was an interesting day. yep.

felice needed to go home or smthn. she wuz sorta rushing to leave. so i, being nice, volunteered to lock the door for her for mel. well, since mel wuz the chairman, she's supposed to lock the classroom but i dont know how the key got to felice so, yea.
i chased them all out of the class and got my stuff out too, cuz i wuz going to be late for dance. then, after qingyun and yanbing or somebody left the class, i took a few final glances to see if i was going to lock anybody or anything inside by mistake.
nope, i saw nothing xcept 29 tables and chairs standing on a dirty floor. as usual.
thus, i locked both the front and back doors, returned the keys and went happily (not) for dance.
then. ellisse came and asked if i wuz the one who locked the door. i said yes, then she told me i locked her bag and books in too.

yes, i know. darn it. i did look a couple of times to check.

so i told her i'll go get the keys and get her stuff down.cuz im the responsible one mah.
and that was what i did. and that's where the climax comes in.
before i went down, i told junyang "im going back to class, will be late." then ran. he shot me this quizzical look i never had the chance to say anything about. haha.
went office in attempt to get back the keys i returned less than 5 mins ago. lol.
told mdm norma's little son that i wish to get the keys back. her son's like, assisting the collection of keys. then he saed "wait arh, i ask my mummy."
then mdm norma saed cannot, cuz it's not possible that everytime somebody forgets to get stuff from the class they allow people to retrieve keys they have already returned. so i told her that this girl had her whole bag and stuff stuck up there, together with her books. and she cant go home. true wad, no ezlink and wallet and phone go what home. i mean, like, yes, got people can borrow phone and money from, but still, it's always best to use yours right? and all she had was her uniform and shoes, she cant possibly just take them in her hands right?
then she had a phone call, while i stood there, patiently waiting. she put down the phone after awhile, then we sorta continued squabbling.like, she kept saying i cant get the keys and it was my fault that i din check properly. (hey i did okay. chinese call this gui3 zhe1 yan3, ghost cover eyes in el) then i kept arguing back that i have to get the keys, cuz that girl HAS to go home. then she asked me who my chairman was. i didnt want to pull mel into this shit with me, so i just saed she's in dance. then i asked if the prob ll be solved if i get her down. mdm norma din reply. then she asked mi to go away and not disturb her, if not she key in monetary stuff (which she wuz doing then) wrongly then big trouble.

hey. u give me the key then okay lerr lah!

of cuz i din say that. i told her im wiling to wait til she finishes with her stuff. then she saed, it's no use, she wont get me the keys no matter what.

in my previous experience, when a student needs a key which was returned, the office ll send a staff to go up with the student, open the door and wait till he/she gets his/her stuff, then go down with him/her to return the key. the stdent does not get to touch the key at all.
so i asked mdm norma, since i couldnt see any other person in the office xcept her and ms ban, who's bz, if i could like, sign out the key then return again. she saed cannot, and repeated that it's my fault i should have checked and that she wont give me the key. then she saed that office shorthanded, she cant go up with mi if not office nobody liao. like ms ban not person. gahh.
then D and E came into the office and asked for scotch tape.
mdm norma took this as a perfect opportunity to say " you go out lah, go and dance, i cant give you the key anyway."
then i passed by ms ban, she asked me what wuz happending, then i told her then she saed that since school has ended, can just go home wad. so itold her it wuz dance now, then she saed, dance oso no nid books and bag. take key for wad. then i told her that girl has everything in her bag, w/o money, ezlink card how to go home. she just kept saying it's my fault and i should have checked.
D and E were still waiting for their scotch tape cuz mdm norma wuz still bz with her monetary stuff. they overheard me, then told me, "climb in lah! remove 3 window panes can liao." i replied "u all help me lah." they agreed and ask what class what level and whose things inside. told them lah. then mdm norma went" u go out lah, go and dance. i cannot help you."
fine. then i told D and E that i'll wait for them outside. they came out after sometime empty handed, cuz the tape that the office has cannot stick cardboard de. they wanted it to stick the cartons they were using to get their books home.
so we went up to the sixth floor. there wuz this cleaner uncle with a whole bunch of classroom keys. i asked E if we should ask him to open the door for us. E saed no need. so we went to my class. i pointed at where ellisse's stuff were. funni. i din see them when i locked the door.
D and E skillfully removed three window panes, saed the method wuz discovered by 3/8. lol. D climbed into the classroom thru the space made by removing the window panes and got the stuff out. after he climbed out, D and E replaced the window panes. voila! everything done, and no evidence of break in.
thanked them then went back to dance with ellisse's stuff.

hehh.

311'06, 411'07?

it's always like that.
why do we only realise how certain things are dear to us only when they are at the binge of extinction?
why do we only discover how precious they are when there is absolutely nothing we can do to keep them?

will we ever learn?

311'06, and trust me, 411'07. no matter what they say of us.

NEWater

9 out of 29 members of the class of 311 , with 310 and 312, visited the NEWater visitor centre on the 18th day of October, year 2006, at time 2.30pm. which is yesterday.
the guy who welcomed us asked why we were late, cuz the tour wuz scheduled to be from 2.15 tp 4.30, then dunno who said traffic jam. farni larh, traffic jam at that time. that guy must be dumb to believe.
watched a video, then toured the place.
some joke at the toilet area. cuz we were supposed to sit on the carpeted floor for the introduction of the tour. then at the 2 sides were the male and female toilets, one on each side. somehow the guys gathered and sat near the female toilet, and girls at the male. then, because the toilets didnt look like what they were supposed to be, and a male cleaner wuz in the female toilet then, sum guy walked in. after the introduction, the tourguide saed we could visit the toilet, and because of the commotion ealier, he said "i assume u all know where the toilets are?" then sum three ten guy pointed at the female toilet and said "that one is ours lor! cuz we sit here mah! then the girls go to that one (the male one)." then another saed "ehh why he (the male cleaner) can go inside (the female toilet) then we cannot?!?!" hehh. three ten guys.
so we were given ard 10 mins to tour the place. short time lah, dumb. must have deducted it cuz we were late. the stuff wuz okay lar, refer to photoblog for more.
if they had wanted to deduct time frm smthn, they should have trashed the video. no use de. and zhao han attempted to video the whole tour, from the time we boarded the bus. then the guy worker there said "take as mani pictures as you want, but for sucurity purposes, no videoing please, especially to the boy there holding the video camera." then all heads turned to zhaohan. stupid china guy attempting to sell our technology to china. hmph. joking, please.
then we watched another video. bout IPU, forgot wat it stands for. nvm, i dont plan to manufacture NEWater when i grow up anw.
then they brought us to the walking on NEWater place. automated doors everywhere. waste money lar. again, look at photoblog.
gave us NDP NEWater, 2 months old. the tourguide person said foreigners who tried NEWater said it tasted sweet, sum saed like coconut and a kid saed like apple. i think it tastes like metal.
so we were brought into the NEWater factory. okay, not really. that's the name, but we were given only sneak peeks. like, a little here and there, anf animated cartoonised versions on videos. stupid. if you dont want us to know the whole thing for fear of us selling the info, then dont show us at all! and waste money constructing the whole visitor centre and hiring tourguides with absolutely poor english. "exprain", "one questions"...yea u know them.
after that wuz the comittment wave, were we leave msgs into a comp instead of a guestbook. went on behalf of 311 cuz the others just dont take initiative. typed in "three eleven was here!!(=" just for the sake of it. didnt take picture of it, but it looked rather pretty.
then an automated door opened and we were whisked off into the sunlight. finally, after an hour or so in dimmed lighting.
then went dance with car sickness from the bus back. raja say must go mah. lol. siian didnt. cuz he din bring his trackpants and had thai lessons anyway. and he wuz surprised i did, cuz i saed i didnt want to. dance wuz fine i guess. refreshed after 2 months w/o dance. good start to get us kicking for syf lah.

went mustafa centre 2dae.bought lots of choc, mostly food we brought back. mum got me new earphones. nice. mayb ll use it next year. lunch wuz at an indian restaurant/kopitiam. sorta in between. food not bad lah, but the mutton in the biriyani wuz a tad too salty. tempeh wuz nice and crispy.(= mum suggested another indian restuarant for a meal next time. looking forward!!

eoy'06 results

most eoy results are out, din do realli well i guess.
english: 52%--c6 passed, but nt too well. nvr realli did well for english anyway. at least for compre.
chinese: 56.5%--c5 not good. not at all. i failed paper 2 k? 1st time in history.
emaths: 71%--a2 okay i guess. seems like my only a in this exam. maths leh!
amaths: 50%--c6 im happy with a pass, cuz there are only 9 in my class. hehhs. used to score 28%s okay...
bio: 62%--b4 not good. considering many more people did realli well. but i asked her to remark my sect c. hopefully i'll get smthn better.
chem:66%--b3 i did better for chem than bio!! lol. nvr happened before. of cuz im glad. ((:
cl lit: 57%--c5 remembered all the wrong stuff. but nvm. there's alwas another chance for me to shine. like that 90% the other time.
geog(elect):58%--c5 dunno what happened. shouldnt be this low lar.

left ss and german dunno yet. hope i'll do well for ss to pull comb humans up to at least a b? yep. then german, well, mayb a pass would do just fine.

aaron sent me home yesterday. lol. liwen and us went to jp first. walked round, went ntuc and got out by the entry place. not supposed to, but just pull the gate thingy can liao. liwen attempeted to get out the way she entered, just wasnt clever enough that ppl put that no entry sign there for nthn. the gate din work two ways. they got icecream. i decided i shouldnt. koped abit frm each of them anyway. actually sae wanna go eat, but i din want fastfood in the end. then liwen suggested kopitiam. we went, sat down, aaron walked round, couldnt find things to eat and decided he's nt hungry anymore, so we left. stupid, i know. yea then we walked more and he sent me home.

hols coming in 2 weeks, plan to go shopping for clothes. swimwear too. havent gone swimming for quite some time.

anyone wants to go out to watch german movie with me at moelc on any day of next week? haa. should be going on tues, not to watch movie, but to get herr neiser to sign stuff. the movie i wanna watch's scheduled on thurs. anyone interested? sorry, most probably no english, not even subtitles. cuz the last time i watched lotr it was german voices and german subtitles. doesnt make sense, but that's how they want it. it's in the auditorium, so mayb instead of watching the movie, u may haf the choice of sleeping under the aircon. attendance not taken, so actually everyone can go in. even if you're not a student there, yes.

wall done

im done with my wall! like, i made the pale pink wall sae "my mind achieves what it believes and conceives. does yours?" in black. and for a special finishing touch, i got my bro to dot the "i" in "mind". haa. opening by guest of honour.
okay, so the wall's finally done with 24 pieces of black paper, 350 pieces of double sided tape with differing lengths (hey i counted), and around a week.
next up, operation clear table. due on, i don't know, before i fly off to india?

went out with annabel 2dae. i was watching tv when she called me, saying she had nothing to do so go jp walk walk then ask me out. so i met her at frontier library, then we borrowed books. saw dai chao. i think he has very limited clothes. cuz he wuz wearing the same thing i saw him in the other time we met at popular.
then we went to jp window shop. went some sports shop (cuz there are so many there that i don't rmb their names), kappa, popular, fiesta to get sushi then ntuc since i had to run errand for my mum.
got veggie and choc and chicken and ice cream. enlightened annabel on The Art of Choosing Frozen Chicken.
time wuz up for her, for she had another appointment regarding some bus and some paper so we left jp then set off to the journey home.

mid-autumn

let's start from friday.
there wuzn't supposed to be school for me, cuz i din have ne papers. geog paper1, chinese paper 3, n english lit paper sumthing.
so im supposed to sleep in. woke up at ard 6, by my dad who din know im nt supposed to be in sch n tot i wuz late.lol. then i slept back n woke up at 7+. no1(mum n bro) wuz awake yet.
forgot the rest of the day. but i went to the library n jp in the evening, in the bad haze. borrowed books, bought mooncake n got stuff for mid-autumn poster. which i had volunteered to do because it seemed as if nobody gave a damn about the whole thing. n i realised i was wrong, very, the next day.

sat.
lazy me thought that i would get out of bed once my dad leaves for work, since i heard him packing his bag n tt means he should be leaving soon. so i waited for the tingling of the keys. but no, there wasn't any. instead, i heard the sound of a spoon tapping on his mug. which means he wuz going to have breakfast. gahh. so i got up.
after breakfast and all, i decided to procrastinate n read my bro's astrosaurs book before doing the mid-autumn posters.
i started of with making three stands for the posters. 2 for mine, n 1 which mrs tan got me to do for the cancer lady. used cardboard n large roll of tape. then went on to poster. orange plastic board thingy, corugated or sumthing u guys call it. i wanted to get 2 but decided one would be enough, because of the innovative invention (note: alliteration) called the penknife, which i could get my mum to use to cut the board into 2. indigenous, ain't i?
i got my mum to halve it the prev night. so i began drawing lines on hte boards with chalk cuz 1. i cant write straight and 2. it can be easliy removed by a wet piece of tissue.
by 9+, i wuz done with three stands and two posters, one chinese and one english. the chinese one saed :为善最乐。趁这佳节，请助我们的癌症病患者一臂之力，购买他们精心制作的手工艺品。您的一份爱心，将给予他们无限希望。谢谢。the english one was: giving is better than receiving. this mid-autumn, bring hope to out cancer patients by purchasing their handicraft. thank you for your support. i think i'll post the pic in photo blog.
then i forgot what i did. then my mum n bro n i went to nh after lunch for the roller blading event. reached at 2+. i think. super early, that's for sure. took pics n stole my bro's maom cola sweet. n ate in the hall. heck with the dancers' rule. talked to mr foo n for the third time, told him my bro's school and level. argh. he never remembers. he doesnt have to, he's just asking for the sake of it.
then at 5+, after the refreshments, brought my mum to the lift where she went to the auditorium for that "art of communication" talk with another mum. not mine, of coz. then brought my bro to the canteen where we finished out food. sat for awhile then decided it wuz time to go find mrs tan cuz no nothing wuz set up for us. 1st try, she wasnt in. then i went down n got a table n a chair outside ncc room cuz mrs tan saed that's where our stall would be. put lanterns at the ncc windows. then i went up again. cuz we were supposed to meet, the whole of 3/11, at 5.30pm.
and she wuz there. and guess who she wuz with. jeslyn and melissa. i saw from outside, i called with the fone outside but she din pick up. then got tcher go in so i used the open door to go in n she saed "how did you get in?" so i saed i called but she din answer so i went in. damn. then i told her i got the stall ready with decor and all, then she sent me down with the rest of the posters and money box. jb n felice were down there when i went down. yep. so we crapped then me n felice went walk walk then to toilet so she could retie her hair. then when we went down again they (who knows who) changed the place of the stall to the place where the light n fan controls are at the back of the canteen. causing us to be camouflaged by the other shimmery stalls. wo my effort of pulling the table n chair myself n putting up the lanterns with my bro went to nothing. thanks man. i took down the lanterns which they stupidly put at where they were in grave danger of getting squashed. nice site chosen mah.
well at least they did use my posters. n sum saed they were nice.
more ppl came n i slacked more and went to watch peformance. woah. festival of the cheena people man. everything other than dance and co and guzheng wuz cheena ppl. why let them do the emceeing and crosstalk when sg students can do as well or even better? ans: cuz we've got prc teachers in charge of the cds. and cds is in charge of mid-autumn. which means, the prc teachers are incharge of mid-autumn. stupid. crosstalk like their own little paradise. nobody really understood i think. even though i spend at least 6 periods a week listening to prc ppl talk during chinese lit, it din turn out very entertaining for me.
dance's item wuz. i don't know. sorta like kindergarten graduation. it din have the nhds oomph we used to have before ndp crashed everything. or mayb it wuznt ndp. it wuz the lousy people.
went back to stall at irregular intervals. stood there for like a few mins n scoot of again. nthn fun watching people spend money on felt keychains and handphone straps and hair clips and brooches.
then at 9pm, announcement wuz made, saing that the Pollution Standards Index wuz at 150, so we had to pack up n leave the school and go home. the haze wuz realli bad larh. i shall not elaborate, since the newspapers have it all. they even have graphs telling u the level at different times of the day.
went to macs with aaron and liwen and jiawen. annabel n yubing walked first cuz yubing hurt herself when chasing annabel or smthn. then annabel waited for her dad to send her home before coming to join us. hten after a coke for liwen and an apple pie for eveyone else but me, aaron sent annabel home and we decided we should return to our humble abode too, sheltered from the haze and everything.
wuz super tired and appalled when i saw the time as only 11. damn. it wuz like i spent two whole days camping at nanhua.but it wuz just like, 7 hours? argh.
bathed and slept and woke up late today. nothing much. grown fatter.

some people just don't appreciate. like mrs tan, who thought the two of them were like priceless gems for yesterday. when i did so much. nhds too. im not in the exco after doing so much and people who do nothing or pretend to do stuff get into the exco. and i stay as a fucking member. just like any of the freshmen. unlike mr chin. i guess he's the only teacher so far who has appreciated my efforts. during a journal entry in sec 1, entitled love, he wrote in my book that love is volunteering to coordinate a class play, which i did before that entry. n we got into the finals even tho we didnt win. but he appreciated it all, even though he didnt bring up anything in class. he's a nice teacher. but he had to change school. good teachers never stay for long. good people don't stay alive for long too, that's why jk left. cuz he's too nice.

amaths woes

amaths is making me crazy. the tys gives questions on trigo mrs tan has nvr gone thru before. i cant solve the circular measure questions. but im happy that i could do matrices sim eq!!!((:
but, im still going to fail if i onli know that. damn.
hope honglin arrives early 2moro n i arrive early too then i can ask her.((:

roxy wallet

pornstar fauzie n best a.i. in the world aloysius gave me a purple roxy wallet. yes, days after i got my billabong one. darn. it's my bdae present larh. if only they gave it to me earlier. then i'll use it. it's so pretty!!!((:
oh, plus a newcreationchurch notebook, a card with long long msgs frm the both of them, an ndp postcard n a bookmark with the teenagers prayer.

please open up my eyes, dear Lord that i might clearly see, help me stand for what is right and bring out the best in me. help me, Lord, to just say "no" when temptation comes my way, that I might keep my body clean. When my teenage years are over, I know that I will see that life is lived its very best walking with You walking next to me. in Jesus' name i pray, Amen.

light a candle!

life's fragile.

my p4-p6 cl tcher passed away this morning. while i wuz happily receiving birthday wishes frm ppl in sch. life's so fragile, isnt it? she wuz diagnosed wif sum funni kind of pneumonia a few years bac, during the sars period, n has nvr been well since. she was my bro's cl tcher, as in till 2dae, n due to her illness, she kept missing lessons. she died in the hospital, i guess, after being admitted there a few weeks ago.

this is the 2nd death of a person i knew this year, 1st jk then her. on my bdae sumore. n she told my mum, during national day celebrations, tt she still kept the tchers' day card i made her when i wuz p6. n she saed i wuz clever.

well, i guess now, all i can do is to live up to the reputation she has given me, n study hard so as to not make her death meaningless.

ok, on a happy note, i received 35 birthday wishes, excluding the one i gave myself on 0520hrs. when i woke up. lol.

thank you to all these lovely people, in order of the time they wished me: aaron, aloysius, derniese, dad, daichao, ivy, yuhui, mdm yong, jasmine lynn, adelaine, liwen, josie, wanting, kityeng, junjie, clarissa, wendy, emily, ellisse, amber, honglin, genevieve, jeslyn, melissa, jiabin, felice, yanglu, wang laoshi, ziwei, andrea, weicong n minghui's mum.

n thankyou Angels Of Lust + honglin n gen for singing my 1st bdae song in the canteen, and jeslyn, mel, felice, jiabin n yanglu for the 2nd one in class. thank you jeslyn n mel for the heart-shaped bdae card done in half n hour. thank you all of u, esp jiabin. i nvr expected to haf u as part of my bdae celebration in sch.

now, im officially 15, old enough to take the death of an important person in my stride, respecting and accepting God's decision.

the Lord's ways and plans aren't ours, though we may not be able to see or comprehend, we have to bear in mind His ever goodness and faithfulness.

recycling day

well, since it seems like everyone else who went for recycling day's blogging bout it, i shall too!!

reached the promenade at 7.20, went to the booths (nh had 3) n found tt many (most of the) paintings had dropped. in the green effort, sum1 decided to use minimal amounts of masking tape, resulting in the fall of paintings. lol. so i found a roll of masking tape n used more to paste them back on.
den foo laoshi came. den darren (aka mr tay) n mrs tan came. den the rest of 311 came. (the other 11) then 3 sec 2 gals came. they asked if i wuz yayi. lol. apparently our green chairman was absent.

darren n me went to the kindergarten behind the event place to get water for the fishing game. i suggested going to the police post a distance away initially, because i didnt know the kindergarten was open. yep so the 2 of us went dere, they lent us two pails which we filled up with sprays. darren's spray's hose was leaking at the tap, then water wuz like pen4-ing everywhere. farni. so we filled a pail each n since mine wuz smaller, i finished filling it up 1st so i went out 1st. jessie wanted to help, but there wuz nthn she cud do, so yar. she stayed there while i went bac to fill a 2nd pail. darren oreadi left, but i din c him on the way bac. funni. then after filling the 2nd pail, i went to the booth then darren sae actually dunnid liao. gahh. but they used it anw, the fishing pail thingy wuznt even half-full in the end.

must conserve water mahh!

we split up into groups to mend the 3 booths, then in the end i wuz the onli 311er left for the third booth, so they gave me the 3 sec 2s. amber n ruth n peifang did the puzzle thingy, honglin, yanbing, qingyun, yanglu, jessie did the fishing thing, which me n darren got water for. then the sec 2s n i did the aiming thing.

rules of the game: there are 3 recyclable items and 4 non-recyclable items given. recyclable ones are aluminum can, drink packet n drink bottle. non-recyclable ones are 2 bao3 xian1 zhi3 balls, whatever u call them in english, they're the plastic wrappers thingy used to wrap food, 1 cellophane paper ball n 1 styrofoam block. the player's supposed to stand behind a chair n aim the recyclable items into the recycling bin, and the rest into the rubbish bin. differen prizes are awarded according to the number of correct aims.

i think i repeated the rules in english and chinese at least a hundred times. oh, n a smile and thank you while presenting the prizes to the ppl.

hey, it's the code of conduct k? not official but widely known.

usual stuff when there r gifts, people keep coming n some bargain for more gifts than they deserve. singapore mah, c until dun want to c liao, dun wanna talk bout it too. i guess everyone can imagine anw.

but it isnt that bad. just treat them like anyone else. repeat the rules if they want me too, give them the smile n thank you when giving them the prizes. what do i have to lose anw? just make sure they get the prizes fair n square.

don't think it's just our sg aunties. prc families n indian families too. ranging from age 2-80, i tell u.
there wuz this grandma whom i realli admire. her aim wuz to get a water bottle, for her grandchild. just with tt thought in mind, she lined up n played around 10 times. she failed every single time, getting only a maximum of 5 aims each time. to get a bottle, she'll need 6 correct aims. so i like, let her cheat abit at the end. after the 7 throws she onli got 5 in, so i gave her another 2 items to throw in. she got one in, so i gave her the bottle. she wuz realli happi.

it's nt tt hard to bring happiness to a person, you know. i don't have any grandparents left, n the grandma who wuz the closest to me left when i wuz 2 or 3 yrs old. nthn can beat a grandma's love for her grandchildren. Sometime's it's even better than a mum's love, tho we say a mum's love is the greatest of all.

then there wuz this lady wuz wuz looking at the photos we put up, displaying the green events nh has participated in in the past. so i went up to her n asked if she needed help, cuz no1 ever even gave those photos a damn, while she wuz making notes. she saed she's frm sum hospice centre, n wuz wondering if nh cud collaborate wif her to educate elderly on being environmentally friendly, esp when many elderly have large piles of flammable stuff stacked in their hse. then i asked if she wanted to talk to a tcher. she saed fine. mr chia wuznt ard at tt time, so mrs tan told mi to get her namecard. so i did. den i spent more time explaining the photos to her. when i knew absolutle nthn. but photos sae a thousand words, so i ended up telling her bout the events rather ok-ly.

then mrs lim came, put her hand round my shoulder, n asked 4 my name n class. stunned. so i answered "stephanie, 311." i wuz sorta expectling sum warning or stuff, but in the end she saed im doing my job well n asked me to keep it up. lol.

i continued with more rules repeating, prize giving n thank you saying. If i din stop to go round playing games i think i wud have lost my voice.

people, the correction fluid canisters arent recyclable cuz the fluid's toxic n stuck to the plastic, so stop using them as they ll deplete our environment. use correction tape!!!
used tissue paper cannot be recycled too, so dun try to be a good soul n throw them into recycling bins.
also, the polystyrene wrappers we use for food arent recyclable too, cuz sg's tech level ain't that high yet. but plastic bottles are fine. continue recycling them yar?

had sum seafood baked rice for lunch. lucky they use mozerella cheese. i carn take cheddar.which means i can onli eat the normal pizza at pizza hut, carn take the new cheesy bites thingy. havent tried it anw. ok. back to the lunch. had mussels, prawns, n fish. quite okay lar. but i think it wuz realli bad for amber, cuz she threw up smthn, rite in front of the ppl at her booth. i wuz like, "no amber, nt in front of them..." while pushing her behind me n continue smiling at the ppl in front.

come on ppl, mus uphold nan hua's image k?

left at 1, peifang, amber n ruth were forced to stay on till 2 cuz the rest went back n they needed at least 3 to stay. the 2nd batch of ppl, hu were suppsed to be there frm 12-4, never arrived. irresponsible ppl.

wanted to get more of the pens but onli managed to get 2. shall ask them if they koped. n kope frm them. lol.

oh yar, saw mdm long in the beginning. took photo with her son n her. wuz nice to c her again, tho we just met like b4 tchers' day? haas.

i don't know why, but i jus enjoy doing this kinda green stuff. like, there wuz this green thingy when i wuz p6, n despite the psle, i volunteered to go, n ended up being the onli em1 person there together with the em3 ppl. lol. im nt discriminating them lar, but, realli. then i volunteered for the hike thingy on 1st nov. jk's bdae. it's with the green reps of the sch. lol. n im a geog rep.

i want more recycling days!!!((: tiring, but definitely fun!!

stupid hols.

it's the holidays!!!

oh man, are those cheers i hear?

cuz im not cheering. seriously, holidays are evil. mrs tan told us the meaning of hols is "lessons outside normal curriculum time". wth?

i'd rather have no holidays, then.

tomorrow's wednesday, which supposedly means i should have done half my homework and half of revision for yr end. what have i done? nothing.

thanks to the german school immersion proramme.

it's super boring, with their snail-paced lessons n everything. class starts at 8, they haf the homeroom thingy so u go to the teacher instead of they coming to ur class. my buddy's supposed to b alessa, but somehow she always goes missing wif her friends, so us sg studets are left alone, together.

wait. tt doesnt sound rite. alone n together. but yea, we jus roam ard the sch as a whole bunch of sg students.

they talk during lessons. in art 2dae, we were given a pic of a building printed on a piece of paper, n were supposd to continue the picture onto the rest of the paper, such tt it looks like a photo. when i wuz done n irene n derniese almost finished, some german students havent even started. they were talking all the way lar.

then the guy infront of the 3 of us turn back.
"you guys are not allowed to talk in the local school classes?"
"yea."
"what happens if u talk?"
"you get thrown out of class."
then the teacher says"tt's a good idea."
back to student.
"wow. but now u're in our school, you can talk."
"erm, we prefer not to."
"why? because u don't like to talk?"
"no, but we're just not used to it."

lol. their textbooks are in HARDCOVER. but nt very heavy lar. their chem tb's thinner than ours by 0.5 cm, in glossy paper, n still lighter than our a maths tb.

they have a cool hall. it's air-con-ed, well, almost everywhere is, xcept the canteen. the bb hoops, badminton nets etc. are all suspended on the roof, so u're supposed to use a remote to get them down when u nid them. we had soccer for pe in there for the 1st day. 1 n a half hr pe. nicee. but soccer's not.
they separate gals n guys during pe. the guys did swimming. the pool's in the sch.

im attached, or whatever u call it, to an 8th grade class. 13 yr olds. nice people, they are, but childish. mayb putting us with older ones ll b a better choice. at least they noe more n can teach us.

history. sum peasant war thingy.

had french 2dae. they're learning it for the third yr, like we are for german. lol.

i've been leaving the sch at lunch everyday, since ytd. but i think i'll stay till the end 2moro. to c their religion class. dey've got protestant n catholic. dunno how they managed to put the 2 2gether.

n i conclude tt the students are rich. cuz the canteen food is super ex n they eat like it's free flow. i got fried noodles n a piece of chicken n an apple for $4.70. ok. ex as in when compared to our school canteen. yar.

the school provides education frm nursery to ard jc i think. got little kids to tall, big-sized guys who bully little boys. n they wear the same uniform. dark green polo tee with black collar n sleeve lining, with own black bottoms or sch berms. their logo's a palm tree. i c if i can get a sch jacket or smthn.

the hols ll b much much better wo the immersion. cuz of the slow pace, i end up super bored n unable to slp in class cuz i hafta uphold the image of sg students, i wait till i reach hm late afternoon n sleep all the way till dinner. lazy, i noe, but i can't help it. our schools are definitely for suitable for me.

and they say the german school's giving them alot of pressure compared to in germany. they shld let them haf a sg school immersion, i tell u.

reply

"that s bitch ....................... i am okay to be her being her friendrealli.......but on that condition that she stop attituding the ppl all around heryup.and the thing tat realli irritate me the most todae is about me losing my dear Jia and Binshe go say wad she allergic and not fellin well , she was actuallly makin use of this rare chance to 'zhen' me lorh...........sumlame tingslarh=======she doesnt noe that her planner was returned to her through Kaiwen by meshe jus sucks mandoes she noe who always attitude tchers and ppl all around her?no she doesnoti even heard that during dance she go say the constance act chio and dunno wad crap den in return constance returned it back to her.....lets clap shall we?????"--exerpt frm jia
bin's blog.

he's ok to be my friend. im ok to be his as well. but, in the first place, he wuz the one to call me a bitch. he saed it's cuz i attitude tchers n ppl all ard me. like what? n, hu wuz the one who started being a parrot n doing stoopid stuff? who wuz the one who wuz the kaypo n reported me? well, to tt incident, yes i wuz wrong, i admit. n i did detention. do u noe? ok, if u were being a nice friend n helping yuhong, i applause. cuz other times u just heck care bout him, even to the extent of insulting him. u got condition to b my fren, i oso haf. tt u stop calling mi a bitch. yep. u stop calling me tt, i'll stop attituding, whenever i deem necessary. like, i used to tell tchers when dey wanted to schedule lessons after sch tt i can onli make it on mon cuz i haf dance n 3rd lang alternating on the other days. yep. n weicong told mi it wuz tt tt made u call me a bitch. don't u realise u've been the one doing it instead of me since?

n, i wuznt using the hamsters to go against u. i realli fell sick bcuz of the hamsters. n i realli haf asthma. realli. last yr my class wanted hamsters as class pets too but dey had to axe tt idea cuz of mi.

constance's case. tt wuz trashing session, btw, can read my archives for more details. i din sae she act chio. i jus commented tt at times, she has a big ego. which i den realised i wuz wrong cuz ppl do take diff actions to make demselves feel better bout their bad pts. yep. n i apologised to constance tt very day. ask her if u dun believe. she forgave me, n we're rather ok frens now. rather ok cuz i dun haf frens i can consider real good. oh, n constance din sae i act chio, if "returned to her" is what u mean. she saed tt im hurtful, insensitive n harsh. n the others saed i overrate myself n need to b tactful. yep. i want to change, n i wish tt everyone ll help mi in the process. what you're doing's nt helping. it's making me do the opposite. so i nidda start all over again. i can't sae it's fully ur fault, cuz u're treating me liddat partly bcuz of me.

handbook. or planner, as u call it. sorry, i realli din noe u had a part to play in it. thnx for that. realli. even tho i havent got it bac cuz kw nicely forgot to bring it out the next day.

bringing u bac in time...
u ignored mi when i called u in class, then i wanted to tell u tt ur planner's next to me. but u just ignored me. then i realised smthn wuz wrong, but din pursue the matter.
some time later, during 2.4 napfa, aftedr i overtook u n wuz overtaking clarissa, u shouted "clarissa! don't lose to her! don't lose to the bitch!" tt made me run faster. till i realise tt if i let clarissa win, i wun b a bitch nemore. but. clarissa wuz nowhere in sight so i ran till i saw ms saw n started to walk. then the whole class knew bout the crisis.
it sorta worsened with time, like, my bio stuff miraculously appears on top of the locker despit me putting it in our shared lockers, the one tt we unsealed.
den with u keeping on insulting mi, i did the same too. but, i think u were better. at least it wuz obvious tt i wuz doing tt bcuz u did, while i haf absolutely no idea why i wuz going thru everything.
n i realised u werent the onli one against me.
den i started not trusting anyone in class, not trusting everybody. actually, i still do now. u made me haf tt insecurity.
den tt yuhong case. yes, the day my wallet wuz lost. it doesnt matter who took it now, i just want it bac. tt's nt addressed to anyone it particular. the next day, i wuz away frm class for the 1st 3 periods, n amber, ena n amelia went to look 4 me. i wuz in the toilet all the while, not wanting to c u cuz it hurts to think of how we were friends b4 everything began. but, reality has to b faced, so i went bac to class in the end.
n oh, my name on the board has a nice purple design. whoever did it, thnx for the nice colour choice. i knew someone out there cares enough to know purple's my favourite colour.
during the last cd period, u wrote tt pre marital sex's fine as long as the female party does nt pour water on the make party. hello? u're the one being dumb here? u're just making use of the chance to write tt right smack in my face? it's funni, tt's y i laughed. u shld haf been clever enough. n yuhong doesnt blame me, i already apologised. ask amber if u're in doubt.
seating arrangement changes, i din ask to be seated at your place. the lighting dere sucks anyway, that's why im in the middle now. i refused to move this morning when felice told me it's gen's n honglin's place because i requested tt n sit in the middle front to melissa, told the same thing to mdm yong, n my dad did call to say that my eyesight's been deteriorating.
i don't want to cause this kinda class rivalry. jia n bin can stay as class pets, provided they dont affect me. seriously. outside class, inside some other class, toilet's nt a good option cuz the toilet's nt a place for living. but ultimately, if dey cause discomfort to me, im afraid dey'll haf to go. im sorry that dey haf to leave, im sorry that my asthma's causing this big issue. the fact is, i think dey're cute too! frm the onli glance i had of them, i din dare to look much cuz i din want to cause any unhappiness.
i only knew that letts passed by handbook to kw, i din know u played the vital role. but then again, i wuz rather pissed with my handbook being removed cuz i planned to retrieve it frm the classroom the next day. n now i still don't have it. it's not ur fault lah, apparently u did it with good in mind. thnx.

well, all in all, i just want to say that im willing to patch up, n change in any way tt ll prevent me frm doing so, n yea, we can b friends again.((:

premarital sex by 311.

cd period on ytd, mrs tan made everyone contribute smthn 4 the mindmap on pre-marital sex. here is what 311 said:

a: should be fine as long as precautions are taken.
b: can practise for future

c: no. may get pregnant.
d: i agree.
e: i agree too.
f: correct!

g: dont know.

h: personal preference but most MALES prefer their wives to be virgins-by male fren
i: some guys think it's very cheap to do so.
j: if a guy loves a girl, he doesnt mind if she's not a virgin. ask around if u dun blieve this.

k:erm..
l: dont know
m: no comments

n: it truely depends on the time, place, atmosphere, environment, person(s), size, amount of money in his waller, size of house, bank account, mood, bodily dimensions, eye colour, hairstyle, how long you've known him/her, method of proposing, knowledge on postitions.
o: n flavour of condom.

p: the Pill's better

q: ok wat. use condom.

r: brilliant.

s: must have safety precautions

t: wrong. later get pregnant.
u: should only give to ur true luv or u ll regret.
v: should treasure our body.
w: get married n get controlled by male's family. no freedom, no single life.

x: precaution.

y: fine as long as the female party does not "pour water" on the make party.

well, 25 comments frm a class of 29. 1 absentee tt day, mi n another gal din make our comments. n if u're nt realli close to mi, u probably wun know waht the y person means. it has absolutely nthn to do wif pre-marital sex, tt y person just used it to shoot at a certain other somebody in class. stupid. obviously it din work lah.

somebody contributed hamsters for class pets. 2/1'05 ppl, rmb we had the same idea last yr but had to do away wif it cuz of mi?
at least i could make a difference then. now, i can only succumb myself to the fur-filled classroom wif polluted stinky air n cause myself to have running nose n dizziness.

p.s. u havent won yet.

im mighty!

erm. 311 has every reason to be happy 2moro!!!

because

Tomorrow is the official last day of common test 2 2006 for sec 3/11!!

yesyes. cos we're the only sec 3 class that doesnt do physics. lol. the rest ll finish on tues after the physics paper, which the more talented aep ppl do their drawing after that.

jiayous everyone for the chinese paper 2moro!!
jiayous physics students for the paper on tues!!
jiayou jiawen, xinyun, valentina. menghua n ekneng(?) for the art paper on tues too!!:))
im nt sure if ekneng does art, i just rmb always seeing him with drawing paper.

And, before u guys leave this blog, for good or not, check this out:
http://www.stephanie.youaremighty.com/

ndp'06

the stadium entrance, gate 2 i suppose, where tappers enter the field for finale. one people, one nation, one singapore. never to be forgotten. ndp 2006, our global city, our home.




many photos were taken, all with smiles. are they real? yes, at tt pt of time. but the moment ll b forgotten in time to come. next year, when u speak of ndp 2006, nobody will rmb nh, nobody ll rmb tappers. the sad fact of life.

nevertheless, we had a blasting great time. the 20 minutes hairdo by the lovely cosmoprof gal, makeup also by cosmoprof, king's lady hurting black "tap" shoes n the red n white sequinned costume complete with visor n wristbands. everyone looked great. even though all guys had their hair spiked. i dont get it. is spiking the only way to style a guy's hair?

reached nh at 12+, with chingay tee n costume pants, socks n shoes. wanted to get my zuoye frm the locker but all stairs were locked. edmund ng saed it's a part of security measures. poor emily had her ndp ticket stuck in class too. had to get ticket frm yahoo! auctions. 40 bucks. lol.

aloy wuz our AI till 6pm, cuz jerry had to go pick up the pole (pro) dancers. he wuz telling us, "I'll be taking over until 6, while jerry go pick up the pro dancers." then i heard pole dancers. yep yep. imagine pole dancers at ndp.

brought my phone, inhaler n jerry's card to stadium. uncle sam gave out lollipop's on the bus, n i sacrificed mine for jerry. token of appreciation. got 1 class super pro. arranged all their lollipops into a bouquet complete with wrapping n ferrero rochers. for the AI. but ours wuz more meaningful. a card signed by every tap dancer. all 22 of us. n a lollipop. yar.

sorta slacked at the stadium once we reached. tappers mah. slept for awhile. it doesnt make me sian for the performance, like wenjie told merrien. im unique!

went for hair styling n makeup. my hair took so super long tt more than 5 ppl completed theirs while mine wuz still in the making. the stylist kept complaining tt my hair wuz too thick. so she sorta left a bunch undone. but it wuz nice. i love my hair. joanna had the coolest hairstyle ever. like, stand up n spiked at the back. the wonders of shirt hair. audrey had devillish princessy hair. the 2 nouns dont match, but under the hands of the pro hair stylist, phoom! fusion. jeslyn had ballroom kinda hair. nt realli suited for tap, but still nice. most of the others were ard the same lor, pong pong wan.

the eyeshadow person made my small eyes look even smaller with white eyeshadow. gahhh. so i cleaned off abit n went for the blue one. nt much better, but still better. yep. i dont want to be on national tv with puny eyes.

dinner was, no, not the grand pizza hut we had for cr1. it wuz the kfc we had for almost every other cr. 2 pc chicken, 1 bread, 1 whipped potato. i gave my chicken away to guys, n i think it wuz douglas who gave me an xtra whipped potato. niceness! so i ate the bread with whipped potato. i onli managed to finish half of the xtra one, gave the leftover to ziang. he can realli eat ALOT. like, 4 pc chicken, 3 whipped potato n 2 bread. amazed, but nt envious.

took more pictures after dinner. wif mr foo n mdm sung (spelling?). we were sorta running out of time then, n i wuz dragging by taking more pictures. lol. aloysius waited for me, then we ran back into the stadium, only to realise i left my phonf, inhaler n jerry's card n lollipop at our eating area. so we went back to get it. lady luck helped me ensure it wuz there. yepp. unlike my wallet.

then jerry came. after picking up the pole dancers. still carn get ovr tt joke, sorry. i had douglas be my eyes to find him, cuz i wuz w/o specs thus partially blind. presented him with the card n lollipop. he found the lollipop familiar. but, don't all chuppa chups lollipops look the same? other than packaging colour lar. he said he wuz touched. n added in "like that only arh?" hahas. then i told him he'll get my phone n inhaler later. lol. he always keeps those item for me during performances. took more photos now tt we haf our AI back. took individual ones too.

performance time. we took the net spray along, to do final touches on out hair. we screamed "strikeforce jiayou!!!" before thier performance n dey screamed "nan hua jiayou!!!" before ours. nice rite? only on stage right. stage left sure dont have wan. cuz we're special.

did pre-performance stuff, reminded each other to put on visors n smile, then the big thing came.

"braving the heat n blazing fires is the life of a fireman. that is the life i want to lead.
i love all the animals in the sea. that's why i want to be a marine biologist, so i can work with them n protect them". *music starts*

after 8x 8beats, we run down the stairs, onto to the stage. for our ard 1 min performance. now i realli understand the cl saying tt saes a minute spent on the stage is 10 years of hard work spent. we didnt really spend 10 years lar. but frm march till august, 5 mths. n the 20 min hairdo. haas.

made some errors, kncoked into douglas, but still great. tappers rock.

then we went to some entrance gate, 25b. wormed through the audience, all 22 of us plus jerry, to gate 2, where we waited for the "one people, one nation, one singapore" song to end before running n spreading all ard the field for finale.

phones were whipped out to shoot the fireworks. some soka guys even had digi cams. lol. we danced like mad, all tappers squeezed onto the stage meant for 4 ppl. super shaky. i wuz 2nd n the tip (the stange wuz triangular), wenjie in front of me. then we went down cuz some dancers (non-nh) were supposed to b dere. well, only one dancer wuz on the stage after we left. so we continued to b crazee on the field, did the train thingy n snaked along the field. b lim wuz hyper too.

all nh participants then gathered at the seats where we took a quan jia fu. 960 students plus ard 20 tchers. we went back to indoor stadium, where weicong n joanna did jerry's hair. we took more photos.

then jerry asked, "u all want slurpee? follow me." we tot he wuz going to bring us to 7-11 or smthn. but he brought us to one of the stairs to the 2nd floor, n took out 2 large cups of slurpee. apparently he hid them beforehand. we went crazee over it. coke n apple. 3 straws in each cups. so 22 tappers shared 6 straws. he sae onli 2 cups cuz he onli has 2 hands. well jerry, carriers are always available if u want to get a cup for each of us. (: slurpee now has n xtra special meaning to the 22 tappers.

boarded the bus, sat right at the back wif chun kiat. bcuz of my still-ulta beautiful hair, i couldnt lean on nething to sleep. i wuz so afraid tt i would lean on ck in my sleep. luckily i din. lol.

removed makeup in sch wif water n oil blotters cuz i had no tissue n toilet cubicles were occupied with sec 1 n 2s hu take freaky long at toilets. so i ended up having to change at the handicapped toilet.

reached home at 12+, rest of family alr came back frm stadium. they went to watch mah. haas. so now i haf four funpacks at home.

mr foo told us 2dae to move on, tho ndp is a memorable event. yepyep. move on. concentrate on cts. 1st paper on monday. revision? not done.

tappers rock ndp'06!!! if possible, i'll upload photos in the photo blog.((:

trashing

trashing session ytd...supposed to meet at 9 budden we started at ard 9.30 instead cuz alot of latecomers. like, i arrived at 9.51 n wuz the 1st one. den sam had to repeat his early bird specials mr brown style 5 times. lol.
so we gave comments bout each other. sorta had a prob when it came to constance. like, i jus kept bombarding her wif mean stuff, making her cry n get angry at me. im sorriee): yea i did apologise later.
den when it came to me dey saed i nidda b more tactful. like, mind my words n tone. yepyep. den xj saed i overrate myself. takesnote!(: n mito had to bring tt up again. lol. den zhongyi wuz opposing dem saeing i dun hafta change if i dont want to. but i do want to. i dont want to stay dis wae, being "too insensitive, too harsh n too hurtful, end of story." yar. i want to work wif people. work well, nt jus work.
guys (n gals), i'll try my best to change, but promise u'll help mi along the wae yar?((:

henna!!(:

i henna-ed my hand!! left hand, cuz im right handed. n im facinated by how henna sounds so much like hannah. haa(:
racial harmony week, so is s'pore only supposed to have racial harmony throughout this whole week n discriminate each other after that? i don't know if i used tt word right. im currently half awake frm my sore-throat-cum-statistical-poster sleep. im having a sore throat, since monday, n last night i wuz working on the stats poster till 2.34 am.den woke up at 5.30 for school. arghhh. hectic.
okays. bac to racial harmony.
schools "enlighten" us on racial harmony every year, with the canteen selling food frm other races n assembly inviting performers frm dance troops. we had an asia-sumthing dance troop 2dae, rather nice lah. the chinese guy wuz funni. like, graceful n serious. n the chinese girl's called grace!! the emcee wuz inroducing the dancers n the mike wuz having sum problem. sound wuz cut off when the chinese guy wuz introduced but we heard " and grace!!!" so tt's the chinese girl's name.
dey performed a dance for each ethnic grp, like, malays performed malay dance, chinese performed chinese dance n indian performed indian dance. den dey had a fusion dance where dey performed altogether.
then came the climax. dey invited ppl up. nick tan, kahswee, alfred, den dunno hu requested for mr see. so he went up too. lols. 4 non-dance guys dancing. n the indian girl saed nick wuz good. well, mr see's nt bad too!!(:
handed in my stats poster to mrs wong. mr (ed) ng saed the poster wuz too flimsy. wat to do? popular saed a1 too big, dey dun sell board of tt size. erm, nt popular sae. is one of popular's staff. n mr ng still asked mi go popular buy. lol.
then came back, had late lunch, n slept. throuh 3rd lang e-learning. i shall send an entschuldigungsbrief to herr neiser later, like, tut mir leid, ich bin krank. schlafen mir vor 3+ pm bis 7+pm, deshalb haben mir unterrichtaufhaben gemachen nicht.
yes jojo, ich liebe dich. n alyssa, i luv u!!!((:

ruth's bdae

happy brithday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to ruthIE, happy birthday to you!!!(:

okay. enuf of happy stuff.

singaporeans are super selfish.
i was carrying an armload of empty bottles, milo and activade packets at the national stadium after NE show. like, not really carrying. more of TRYING to balance. i walked past dunno how mani guys in camouflage uniform and almost all of dem stared at me. but none of them bothered to help. i actually wanted to get to the dustbin, for i wuz helping to cleanup, budden decided to throw everything into the nearest cardboard box i could see since the stuff were dropping soon n frm wat i c, nobody will try to help. not even try. dey'll just stand dere n bo chup.
so tt wuz wat i did. at the nearest carton, i just let go of my hands n allow the stuff to drop. less than 50% of the things went into the box, but i din care. y shld i when even our ns guys don't care? i thought ns wuz supposed to knock some sense into our singaporean guys?

p.s.the box i dumped stuff into wuznt even empty. had boxes of kfc, dont know whether full or not. if the box belongs to any of u ns guys, im sorry i threw rubbish into ur box of food. but ur comrades din care, so y shld i?

amber realised the same thing too. she lost her handbag at the arcade. left it behind after playing. den sum adidas shirt guy came to took it away. when she went back to the arcade 5 mins later n asked ard if anyone saw her handbag, everyone saed no. come on la people, wat good does feigning ignorance do to u? or did u guys all help to steal the bag? we've all been taught in pri sch civics n moral ed., that zhu4 ren2 wei2 kuai4 le4 zhi1 ben3. helping people makes one happi. n u guys just feign ignorance when a secondary school girl lost her precious handbag containing her wallet, credit card, ic, phone, loads of membership cards and makeup. i think they add up to a few hundred lahh. anw, the value of the stuff's nt the pt.

the pt is, where have the morals of singaporeans gone to? spat into the singapore river by the merlion?

chapter 6

yes people, chapter six is finally out. after like, 21 days? okayys. enjoy!!(:

chapter 6

lisa didnt talk to michelle anymore. not even a word. she was nice and talkative to everyone else, but michelle. even to the person sitting beside michelle, emily. yes, picture lisa talking to and laughing with emily and michelle shutting up because she knew lisa would flare if she spoke.
a new teacher came, miss eu. she was nice and friendly to everyone, kinda motherly. she had everyone fill in an "about me" form, and michelle was unsure whether or not to write down her problem with lisa under the "things you want me to take note of" column. eventually, she decided to leave the column blank. she didnt know if she could trust miss eu, however nice she seemed. she could be a wolf under a sheep's skin, michelle thought.
michelle kept up the habit of walking back after school with dave and tam. and everytime, almost, she'll stand in the middle. she didn't want to, but it just came naturally. she didn't want to hurt anyone but herself. it didn't matter if she ended up with bleeding open wounds, as long as the others are not hurt.
school organised a leadership camp and participants had to be recommended by teachers. there was this girl, pat, in michelle's class who she's super jealous of. pretty, popular, and clever. everything every girl wanted. but michelle was more jealous of her than anyone else. you see, michelle wanted to go to the camp, hoping to improve herself n her relationships with others. she was not chosen. guess who was? yes. that girl. michelle couldnt understand. why was pat chosen? does every leader have to be pretty, popular and clever?
it turned out that dave was chosen for the camp too. and tam as well. the more jealous michelle was of pat.
michelle couldnt stop herself from sms-ing dave. even during the camp. they had a chat and dave told michelle he'll be watching stars with tam at night. dammit, michelle thought.
things werent going on very well in school. michelle was so distracted she couldnt even get the simplest maths. it was like hell. she wanted to leave school, she wanted to leave everything. and hopefully dave would notice why. she realli liked him. but didnt want to hurt him nor tam.
readers: tag and say what u think michelle would do to get dave. or do u think she'll give him up?

syf n ndp fam day performance

syf performance on 1st july!!! yes i noe it's ovr for like, 10 days?? haas. time to blog bout it yarr.

wasnt in a very gd mood tt day. so ppl seemed to keep pissing me off. like, when we reached stadium i saw j.lo burdened wif 10-odd flags, so i offered to carry sum, like, " i take some arr?" den he din reply. den i repeated. he din reply again. so i jus took the flags. den we sorta screamed "WHAT??" den i oso kinda yelled bac, " can u listen?" n he gave me tt stupid face n saed "no." so i threw the flags bac at him.
then while we were waiting for dunno wat cheri decided to come ovr n ask mi bout my skirt. the costume skirt. the blue n yellow cheerleader one.

flashback: one day, while my phone's sim card wuz still rejected, which wuz 1st few days of sch reopening, i went to sch as usual. then halfway thru the 1st few periods, jeslyn n cheri came to get me down to studio, say wat nidda get costumes. den we went down n saw mrs tan, hu fell down frm the stairs n sprained her ankle. she's still nt bac now. well, tt's nt the pt. the pt is, so i went bac to studio, where jeslyn n cheri saed dey reserved a set of costumes for me. n to my horror(or not), they were all of size 14. HUGE. den sumhow mrs raja managed to get a set of size 8, which fits me. yep yep. c the difference btwn 8 n 14. okay. BUT. when i tried the costumes on, the skirt wuz faulty. like, it wuz dose kinda skirt which had shorts sewn inside. n the skirt din match the shorts. like, if u wear the skirt the right way, then the shorts ll b slanted n u carn walk properly. n if u wear the shorts correctly, the patterns on the skirt ll b wrong. so i rejected it la, of cuz. den den got a size 10 skirt for me, which is 2 inches bigger. i had to take it la, if nt, SIZE 14!!! gahhh. evil ppl hu saed they reserved costume of me. ohwells, nt to blame. mayb dey din noe the meaning of the word. back to the story. the skirt, being 2 inches wider, had to b folded at least twice to fit me. i din want it to b too short, so i just folded twice. n i had to wear it low so it wun look very different frm the others'.

back to post:
so cheri asked me why my skirt so short. den i bu-shuang-ly told the above story to her. like, it wuznt her fault tt i dun haf a proper set of costume (it wuz jesyn hu reserved the costume), but i wuz still pissed. cuz i dun haf a proper set of costumes n she wuz sorta rubbing it in. den we kinda quarrelled. den sumhow alot ppl bushuang me. gahhhh. watever. it's over.
spent alot of time sleeping n singing songs while waiting for rehearsal. mood wuznt tt bad then.(:
the band frm msia wuz nice. like, pink panther!!! n thailand's wuz the featherduster band. cuz dey had white featherduster-like thingy on deir hats. lol. the msia band major had a piano key pattern on his vest. haas.
opening wuz fine. dumb me did a part wrong. again. i did tt step wrong like, more than 50% for the past pracs. gahhhh. n nicholas plucked off my shoe!!!! when i came down frm chunkiat n eugene's palms, he wuz supposed to make sure i land safely n tried clasping on to my legs i guess, but ended up removing my shoe. so i did the rest of the performance wif my left foot half into the shoe cuz i cudnt wear it bac.
finale. zhipeng n i were like betting on hu ll win the best band n band major. tk got best band, deyi got the band major. n bowen, which i realli looked up to, din win anything. at all. so disappointing. okay, performance.stuff before the pulling of cloth wuz good, everyone wuz high. den when it came for time to pull the cloth i almost cudnt find the wooden rod in time. the cloth's attached to it, so when u pull the rod while running, the cloth unfolds. yep. but i still got it in time la. like just. den the cloth got stuck round a beatty girl's aircon pipe. but she helped mi take it off! niceness(:
seriously. zhiyang n theresa arent that heavenly. zhipeng's crazy over theresa. n loads of girls frm the core grp r crazy over zhiyang. n a nice person got theresa to sign on one of the pieces of cloth. gosh. it wuz silver paint marker lor...on yellow cloth. dont know which one. saw it while i wuz folding the cloth wif shiping. erm. no offence, i think zhiyang's fat. i saw him frm like, diagonal view. n hannbin thinks theresa has a big nose. but theresa's clothes were nice that day. white tube white pants, din notice shoes.
had kfc for dinner. 4 nuggets, shrooms burger w/o shrooms n sauce. for a vegetarian me. gawk.

NDP Family Day, 8th july
gave tickets to godmum. dunno hu went wif her.
reached sch early for dasam's leadership wkshp. did the personality test. rather, special. havent got results yet.
andrea gave me lunch frm excel fest. ateate. n had milo!!! omg im still addicted on milo. since a few weeks ago. den changed into costume. ugly n itchy n big red sequinned shirt wif white sleeves n white 3/4 pants wif 2 red stripes at each side. wristbands wif 2 vertical red sequinned striped, red sequinned visor n king's lady black shoe. dey hurt. my toes n my ankles. zhiyong lost one wristband, au had only one wristband n ziang din get shoes. not enough n sizes werent right.
locked our bags in bb room. i labelled my shoe box wif Stephanie(: so no one ll get the wrong box. but in the end someone still took cheri's by mistake tho she labelled hers too.
slept in the bus to indoor stadium. slacked in the puny place for a couple of hrs while core grp had rehearsal. yes. i think indoor stadium's small.
then we had another kfc dinner. whipped potato, a piece of chicken, n o.r. fillet burger w/o veg n sauce. again, for me the vegetarian. the AI told me to eat the whipped potato n go bac to him for more. i din la. i gave the chicken to weicong n ate the whipped potato n the burger. actually wanted to nt eat the chicken in the burger too, but still ate it in the end. den had tie guan yin n enervate. the isotonic drink of 70% coconut juice. it's nice. get it from supermarkets at $2+ for 3. when i can get endless supply for free. hahaas.
i had to get weicong, a guy, to bring me to the girl's toilet cuz i cudnt really c w/o specs on. lol.
den wuz makeup. by ppl frm cosmoprof. dese ppl r realli pros i tell u. i think hte total time taken for my makeup wuz like, less than half the time we do it in sch. n it wuz more than twice as nice. my dad cudnt recognise me frm fotos. gosh. my dad.
the performance wuz okay lahhs. like, i wuz at the corner n the camera wuz right above me, taking other ppl. nice. godmum saed she saw me. frm like, 4 or 5 rows above the choir. i think she's great. can c me frm so far when my own dad cant even recognise me from foto.
chiong-ed to the field after performance. for finale.the army ppl were saying thru the loudspeaker, " you have 3 minutes to get out of this place. we will be closing off the area for fireworks." jerry saed cuz the debris frm the fireworks ll burn us. lol.
finale wuz nice. we (tappers) spread ourselves among the mani mani ppl n waved our hands to the beats of the songs played. typical national day songs like, count on me singapore, home, we will get there...n dere wuz absolutely everybody! it wuz in syf too.
somebody wuz at the grandstand teaching us the steps to the music. like, the mystery voice. always can hear the person but cannot see.
the costume totally cannot absorb pespiration la. can suck in, but cannot evaporate. when i put my hands on my back it became wet. like i cud squeeze water out of my shirt.
dey gave out wristbands in the bus. hangten white ones that saed hangten [insert footprint], NDP 2006. sum other buses got red ones!!! n i got 5 bands. i wuz like, got xtra, i want!!! den dey gave me. ahaa. i gave one to my bro, one to an indonesian n 2 for myself. i gave one to nicholas too i think. n motivators had the bands of all sorts of colours. red, white, blue, orange, green...
i want to be a motivator the nxt time i participate in ndp. den can make balloons n gave presents n save some 4 myself!(:
this sat's NE show for p5 kids students. dere'll be funpacks. i hope we get them too!(:

gagaga

like, wat's wif ppl?

or,wat's wif mi?

311 doesnt like me, dance doesnt like me, like, sum1 enlighten me on why. like, dun jus tell mi im a bitch, gimme the reason. like, how im a bitch or smthn.

I WANT TO KNOW.

gahhhh

err. the author of the dave-n-michelle-n lisa-n-i-dunno-hu-else story's currently bz, so dere shall be no chapter six till the author's free. the author apologises n requests to be kept anonymous, n therefore is named by me as the author. yar. sorry people. ):

im addicted to milo. like, i had it for recess n dinner ytd, then recess n lunch 2dae. n i realised. too much milo makes ur stomach ache. yepp. so unless u want to spend half an hr in the toilet emptying ur bowels, don't drink too much milo, like me. but i still like milo. heck wif amber saeing it makes one fat. i can loose weight sumwhere else.

im supposed to do a presentation for english wif a partner, but sum nice person decided to pair me and yuhong up. like, i dun mind working wif him, but if he doesnt appear in the school more than jk does, how m i supposed to work wif hi? damn. im doing the thing alone. n i dun blame the person for pairing us up. it's fine. n i dunno hu the person is too, it doesnt matter, i still wun blame the person if i noe.

wenjie aka mito(chondria) keeps asking me to smile, like "(while jumping) smile! smile! smile! dun always gif tt bushuang look!!! SMILE!!!" ahhaas. then i'll smile. onli for him to see.
and mdm yong keeps asking me to smile too. like "smile leh! dun look so fierce can anot?"

gahhhs. like, SMILES. (((((((:

rejected my own sim card. dumb.

people, if u ever need to tell me anything and think of sms-ing me, please don't. call me thru my house phone. because my phone's sim card's rejected. and im proud to say that i did it myself. haas.

the story goes like this:
i was at third lang, slacking with der while neiser went ard chatting wif everyone bout their jun hols. then i noticed that der, hu has the same phone as me, locked her phone with a code. i tot tt wuz fun, like the screen lock in my nano, so i decided to try. so i went to menu, tools, phone settings, security, and turned lock code on. the phone required me to enter code, and der told me it's 12345. so i entered that. then i got to set my new code. then i dunno press what, den the phone instructed me to key in code. so i keyed in the one i set. then it came up with some code error stuff, so i tried everything over again. then i dunno press what again, then the phone flashed a msg saying: invalid code. please key in PUK code. watever that is. der found out tt it's 8 digits, so i decided to try finding it by starting from 00000000. after i keyed in 00000003, the phone flashed the next msg. SIM card rejected

tadaa! so people, my phone is now out of bounds n i haf no contacts other than certain phone no.s of ppl which i memorised, the class relay and dance relay. yepyep.

names

blog posts arent meant to hide anything, it's suppsed to b an online diary for the owner. thus, in this post, i shall not hesitate to name people.

i feel out of place in 311. you tell me, then y do u put u luv 311ers in ur profile? actually, i do luv everyone of u. every 29 of u. yes, including u, jiabin.
i noe u dun like mi. i noe u think im a bitch. i noe u're not the only one disliking mi. but i dun haf the full list.
i dun haf frens in 311. qimin told mi i haf her, jojo, jeslyn n mel. in that case, i actually haf 28 frens in 311. cuz dey treat mi almost the same. everyone's in dey're own clique. even chan yu hong belongs to felice n yayi n jiabin n gen n gang. but mi? i stand alone. n sit alone n walk alone n eat alone n do everything alone too. u may sae, no, u always have people going for recess with u. well, yes i do, but r dey wiling to walk wif mi? it talking to another person n leaving mi tailing u at the bac called willing?
different cliques talk bout their different topics. jeslyn's gang discussing bout jeslyn's crush. jiabin n gang dicussing bout how bitchy i m n deir next plan to make me cry. wendy n gang talking bout when they want to go out. yiling's gang chuclking all the wae, ena's gang talk bout everything, n cheryls talking bout gay porn.
like hey, which one m i supposed to belong to?

ans: i dun want to belong in either. i dun want 311 in cliques. i want everybody as a class, everybody discussing the same topic. i may be selfish. cuz im doing this for myself. if the class's untied, nobody will be left out. or shall i sae, i wont be left out.

weicong told mi jiabin saed he's anti-me bcuz of my attitude whenever i try explaining that no, teachers, u cant arrange extra lessons after school on weekdays other than monday, bcuz i cant make it. u cant even make me stay back for half n hour. cuz i haf german n dance on alternating days. u can make it on sat den.
seriously. im a bz person n i carn help being worked up when teachers try to plan lesons after school n a stupid person like me cant make it. like, if it's on a tuesdaes or wednesdae or thursdae or fridae when i carn make it, n teachers teach new things, stupid stephanie carn catch up wif the class because she's slow and, wat else, stupid.

jiabin wuz happie after making mi cry. after making the bitch cry. and no, he wuznt the one hu wrote bitch[fullstop] on the whiteboard in green ink in block letters right smack in my face. he's a nice guy. i stand by what i've saed. he saed he din write it, fine, i'll believe he din. n tt means there's someone else that's anti-me.
dey sae im thinking too much.
i dun think so. i think im thinking too little.

do i have true friends? aaron saes i haf 2/1'05. do i? i dun rmb being realli close to anyone dere. xinyu, u may sae. ok, mayb she's the only person. mayb not. we haf totally different personalities, n im her punching bag. but of course, we're still friends now. when she doesnt know im feeling this wae n has frens of her own. jasmine n cheri n adelain, u may sae. they're the cuckoo cuzzies. if we were realli close, i'd be already part of it isnt it? the crazee famly. hello, u think dey realli care? zhihao doesnt even recognise himself as xiaoba. n we arent that close. so what if we haf josie as meowmeow n liwen as chowchow. a cat n a dog. we do have internal conflicts. how mani 2/1 ppl do i realli wave at when i see them around? some dun even notice me.
then again, i haf chiuping and edmund and aaron. erm. three guys. u think dey can realli understand a girl? mayb aaron can. but his heart's taken by annabel. chiuping n edmund. i havent realli told them my inner feelings, i dun think dey'll ever want to know. walking to the mrt station wif dem n eating macs wif dem's enuf.

nowadays, the only person i tell my inner feelings to is jk. thru my fone. the unsent msges. mayb i shall trying sending them one dae. n mayb i'll get a reply. then hopefully everything will be solved.

yanglu n jessie n qingyun suggested tt i go talk to camila. i dunno. i dun really dislike counselling. i think i really need it. weixian saed that before too. but i find it hard to tell all this stuff to a real existing person. so mayb i shall jus get her to log onto the internet n look at this post. mayb she should give me cyber-counselling.
i forgot hu wuz tt. the dae jk's departure wuz announced, a counsellor talked to me, peifang n honglin. saed she wuz glad im close to my mum. am i realli? i called her once i got the news tt jk's dead cuz i wanted to go to his wake n i knew she wudnt let me go. tt's all. if i were realli close to her i wudnt need to post this. i wud haf discussed this with her.
it's not that i've never tried discussing bout my stuff with her. the last time i tried, i received a scolding n she sort of like told mi stuff to relatives n cudnt stop harping on it for the next few daes, weeks and months. from den on, i've learnt to keep eveything to either myself, or this blog. bcuz i dun haf a real friend i can tell all this to.
dance's another thing. i guess i can realli be quite close to dem at times. but other times, dey can be anti-me as well. cheri. shana n jeslyn. the last time i saed i wuz going for lunch wif dem, dey left w/o waiting 4 mi. den i caught up wif dem, den dey decided to not eat. n started discussing bout jeslyn's crush, n apparently didnt want me to noe. ellisse. the other day i found her fone in the toilet, she was really happi. but that was all. we din realli talk after that. audrey n ivy n joanna. random friends la. sum time ago au n ivy din realli like mi. dey talked to mi in that kind of i-dun-care-so-u'd-better-shut-ur-trap tone. but i guess it's fine now. i kinda had a quarrel wif joanna thru the fone cuz i wuz super pissed at tt time n she sent mi a "im not sure, will inform u later." reply. im sorry. im always fed up when ppl answer me with a "im not sure." kinda sentence.
den the rest. grace, xinjie, meiting, rebe, yujie, xin yue, wengmaan, xue jie, yinghui. occasional talks. i talk to yinghui more often now, for the simple reason that i feel more comfortable with it. she's in tap too, n beside mi, so she can teach me steps n we can talk easily. n also that i dun feel like talking to the ther girls.
the guys r rather ok. like, i can joke wif eugene n junyang n siian n ziang n wenjie. but nt realli heart to heart talks. never.

so now, during the hols, i guess it's time i try thinking of how i can improve my relationships wif ppl, hopefully wif the help of people. im not sure hu can help me, but i'll b happi as long as dere's sumone. if dere's nobody, i'll be fine, i'll just have to work out stuff myself. on top of the homework n appointments. wish me luck!

jun hols 2006

jun hols are here, and as it is every year, we are loaded with homework. and ndp trainings this year. sec 3 life isnt easy. there's loads of stuff to be done, homework and all. and we have to face pressure from teachers, friends and ourselves.
oh no. i'm beginning to have rashes. im suffering from headache and stomachache. i find myself needin the toilet more often. and the world's spinning!!!
ok. that was a joke. rmb the symtoms of stress? hehhs. i DID listen during assembly kkaes...
ptc 2dae, but my mum din go. saed it wuz a waste of time. anw i spent the time at ndp training. it wuz super sunny n the field wuz super muddy. luckily tap dancers din haf to run. like, i dun mind if it's sunny. i luv sunny's days. there isnt an error in that sentence. i know what im typing.
one month isnt enough to complete the homework given. when we have so mani activities lined up for us.

my list of activities:
26/05 叶串之声2006, NJC, 6.50pm-9.30pm
29/05-02/06 German Workshop, Goethe-Institut Singapur, 9.30 am-12.45pm
03/06 NDP training, National Stadium, 6.50am-10.45am
03/06 Cyberwellness Workshop, Fuhua Secondary, 2pm-5pm
07/06 SS Rem, NHHS, 8am-10am
07/06 Chem Rem, NHHS, 2.30pm-4.30pm
08/06 Cluster Electronic Camp, NHHS, 7.30am-1.30pm
08/06 Chem Rem, NHHS, 2.30pm-4.30pm
09/06 SS Rem, NHHS, 8am-10am
10/06 NDP Training, National Stadium, 6.50 am-10am
14/06 Dance Camp, NHHS, 9am-3pm
15/06-19/06 Sec 3 Dancers' Chalet
17/06 NDP Training, National Stadium, 6.50am-10am
19/06 Dance Camp, NHHS, 9am-6pm
20/06 Dance Camp, NHHS, 9am-5pm
21/06 SYF Training, National Stadium, 12.45pm-7.15pm
23/06 SYF Training, National Stadium, 10.15am-1.45pm
24/06 NDP CR1, National Stadium, 12.30pm-9pm

there. n i've got syf frm 9am till 7.15pm on the 1st day of school reopening.very nice.
happi holidays people, if u still haf a holiday, that is.

chapter 5

chapter 5

obviously michelle couldnt wait to call, but it was realli late at night. she came up with an idea. she would wait till everyone else in the house was asleep before she made the call. so she laid on the bed, and waited for the 1st snores.
but. she fell asleep even before that.
she sent an sms apology to dave for not calling him, but inside her, she was hating herself for falling asleep so easily. if onli she din. then mayb dey wud haf stood a chance together. maybe dave wanted to talk to her about the both of them.
days later, michelle met with a friendship problem. a classmate, lisa, was ignoring her for no apparent reason. michelle found herself unable to confide in anyone in her class, so she started sms-ing dave. dave would always be saying, "nevermind if u dont haf a friend in class. im always here for you." michelle didnt know whether to be happi or sad with that. happi that she always has a friend around, or sad that dave n her would only remain as friends.
time passed. the relationship between michelle and lisa turned increasingly sour. michelle took every opportunity to try to patch up with the classmate, but obviously she didnt want to be friends with michelle anymore. she just treated her as if she was invisible.
soon, it was the school's annual road run. michelle never excelled in running, but that day, an invisible force seemed to be controlling her legs. she found herself to haf much more stamina than she imagined. slowly, she overtook one person after another. until she was behind lisa. she overtook her anyway. while overtaking another girl, cindy, michelle heard lisa shout, "cindy! don't lose to her! dont lose to that slut!"
michelle's heart skipped a beat. did she realli hear lisa say that? she didnt take immediate action, she just increased her speed and continued running. in her bubble of thoughts, she decided that, if cindy loses to her, she'll be a slut. thus she will slow down and let cindy overtake her. that moment never came. michelle just kept on running.
when michelle reached the finish line, she was third. she waited for cindy to arrive, but she did onli more than a minute later.
michelle couldnt stop thinking of what lisa had said. she didnt do anything wrong, so what made lisa say that? lisa cant possibly call her a slut for no reason, after all, they were the best of friends a few weeks ago! michelle could stand it no longer. she broke down. she cried.
both teachers and classmates came to comfort michelle, only to see her shake her head, refusing to say anything about what happened. after all, how would you ever be able to tell sumone that your once best friend called u a slut?
the medal across her chest didnt bring her any joy. it was, to her then, just a piece of metal with the words "road run 2006 third place" engraved on it. that was all. it dint come with triumph nor happiness.
the next few days in school, the incident was still swirling in michelle's mind. she looked around in class. all she could see were groups of three or four, sitting together and talking about their own topics. where to go during the holidays, where to find cute boys and what they think about a certain guy. in the midst of the groups, michelle was alone. she felt lonely. she wanted someone with her. whipping out her phone, she sent an sms to dave. " i feel so friendless. is it with me or is it with everyone else? oh fuck. i suck." she realli felt that wae at that time. isnt it true? is she doesnt suck, then why is she alone with no friends? she attempted to join in the group beside her. all it took was just one galce, and the members huddled even closer, apparently afraid that michelle might hear their whispers.
this time, no reply came. when michelle asked dave later that day, dave told her the same thing. i'll always be there for you, our whole class last year will too.
michelle din want that. she wanted to be close to her current classmates. brooding over the past will never help solve current problems. she tried talking to a teacher. the teacher suggested that she write a note to lisa, telling her how she feels and that she wants to know why she's being ignored.
she did, but there was no reply to the note. michelle thought she saw, at the corner of her eye, lisa shredding up the note and throwing the pieces into the bin.

chpt 4

chapter 4

michelle continued going home with dave and tam, and often teased them. she knew dave din really like being teased, but that seemed to be the only things she could talk about when out with them. she felt uneasy whenever she saw them look into each others’ eyes, how she wished it was her who was looking into dave’s eyes. she wanted to be with dave, but she did not want to hurt anyone. especially not dave.
one dae, while going back with the couple, dave suddenly asked michelle, “are you free this saturday?” michelle thought dave really wanted to ask her out, so she saed yes. no words could describe how happi she was then.
however, when she asked of the reason, her heart sank. dave wanted michelle to help choose tam’s birthday present. michelle wanted to conjure up a story that would gif her an excuse to not go, but she felt that to be a really good fren of dave, she should go, as she had promised.
so on Saturday, dave and michelle spent hours alone in the mall. to get dave’s girlfriend’s birthday present. michelle could never imagine herself in this situation, not even in her wildest dreams.
when they were in the mrt on the way home, michelle wanted to start a conversation on how they were in sec 1. but there was something preventing her from talking about her topic. so she jus continued teasing dave about being with tam.
days past. michelle saw the relationship of tam and dave progressing right under her nose. she wanted to, one dae, confess to dave her real feelings and hope that dave will sae something like “you know, i really like you too but u din show it so im now with tam. nevermind, i’ll breakup with her to be with you.”
michelle never had the guts to. and she was sure dave would never sae that to her if she really told him what she felt.
one night, dave sms-ed michelle. “are you free? can call me?”

chapter 3

chapter 3

dave and michelle were streamed to different classes, therefore they could not see each other as much as they did in the past two years. it was weird for michelle. she was used to turning back and seeing dave.
out of a sudden, dave stopped going home with his classmates of last year. at first, michelle thought he had something on. thus did not realli bother. after a while, she decided that something was wrong. so she started to go home with dave again. but this time, it was with a few of his current classmates. all girls.
once, when they went for lunch together, michelle, dave and his classmates, michelle realised dave looked at tam in a different way as he does to other girls. it was rather obvious that dave had fallen for tam.
after lunch, they left for home. michelle sms-ed dave, asking him to tell tam if he realli likes her. keying in each letter was like wringing her heart. but michelle just wanted dave to be happy. if he was happy, she'll be too, she thought.
the reply came after a a few seconds. the words struck michelle hard. "we are already together..."

chapter 2

chapter 2

michelle initially wanted to ignore dave for as long as secondary school would take, but on the 2nd day, she found that she could take it no more. it wuz just not possible for her to keep on ignoring dave.
after 2 days of being cold towards dave, michelle became her normal self again at the end of the second day. even with eva around, she just tried to talk to dave as much as she could, but it was obvious that in eva's present, dave was different. even while talking to michelle, he would be stealing glances at eva. michelle saw all this, but didn't want to react. she didn't want to torture herself all over again by ignoring dave.
soon, it was the school holidays. dave no longer sms-ed michelle like he used to. michelle sent him sms-es, but his replies were all short. michelle finally decided to stop sms-ing him altogether.
when school reopened, it was obvious to everyone that dave and michelle were not as close as before. when michelle was ignoring dave, they just thought they had a tiff or something, after all, it "resolved" within two days. what dey din noe was, michelle was faking it all along, after deciding to stop ignoring dave.
"dave <3 michelle" no longer appeared on the whiteboard. it was only "dave <3 eva" now. being sitted at the front row, right in front of the whiteboard, michelle did not show any obvious reaction but the truth was, each letter hurt her like salt rubbed on an open wound.
the year slowly passed with dave getting further and further away from michelle and closer to eva. michelle, however, tried all sorts of ways to get close to dave. she din want to be just friends. she even had to treat eva as one of her closest frens, like she was before dave started everything. it pained her, but what else can she do?
every night, when it was lights out, she would bury her head deep down into her pillow and cry. in her eyes, dave was, as if, a boyfriend which she had broken up with. but of course, dave never thought of michelle as his girlfriend. she was just a close friend of his, but he never knew that michelle was suffering because of him.
the next year, eva transferred out to another school. another better, school, which will porvide her with better education towards a brighter future. when michelle talked about it with dave, he was confident that michelle was wrong. eva had promised him that she'll stay, just for him. however, dave was told by eva's close fren that she had already bought her uniform and books. he could not help but accept the fact that eva would not be in the same school as him for sec 3.
now that eva was gone, michelle took every chance to savage what was left of their friendship. along with other friends, dave and michelle went home together. even though they weren't alone like they used to, michelle was satisfied. at least she could talk to dave like she used to.

chapter 3 cuming up asap!

hehh. i jus realised smthn. i got 14/40 for amaths common test, n now i got 28/80 for mye. exact proportion la! x2 onli...(:
2dae had dance frm 8-12. boy do i pity those non tap dancers. under the sun 4 so long.

ms yeo thinks she's successful in disciplining the sec 1 n 2s when they cheer and clap to watever scoldings she give.

my blouse was onli worn on the journey to sch n for flag raising. the rest of the time i wuz wearing camp tee. haas. cuz after dance assembly den lunch dun wanna change cuz after sch got napfa mahh.
hmm.napfa. started wif shuttle run. 11.69 secs. sit ups. 50. sbj. 164. sit n reach. 44. ipu. 18 cuz mr chow saed enough liao.
aaron carn get a gold cuz he's 6 cm short in sbj)':
left sch wif aaron n annabel n wanting. den wanting took bus n annabel went back to get jiawen. so mi n aaron go macs wait 4 dem. left at 6+. aaron sent her hm, jiawen took bus n so i had to go hm alone. thnx la...

here's chapter 1 of a story:
dave n michelle were classmates since sec 1. not only were they classmates, they were rather good frens too. they could do almost everything together, even thogh they were from different sexes. people often mocked them as a couple, and even though that wasn't true, it didn't make their friendship falter one bit.
slowly, the relationship between the two became more than friendship. michelle found herself thinking of leaning on dave eveytime they sat beside each other. but that never happened. she never had the guts. all she could to was to smile at the idea, thinking of how nice it would be.
as time passed, dave got closer to another girl, eva. the whole class knew. but whether it was a serious relationship, nobody knew. it was no longer "dave <3 michelle" on the whiteboard during breaktimes, now it was "dave <3 eva". michelle had this undescribable feeling within her. she wanted to know if dave was realli with eva, but could never bring herself to ask dave the question.
dave used to leave school for home with michelle alone, but now eva joined in as well. at many times, dave and eva would be discussing topics stranger to michelle, but obviously they didn't care. they jus left her out. michelle thus decided that keeping a certain distance away from dave would be a good choice.

stay tuned for chapter 2!(:

moelc

3rd lang break now...jus a mere 15 mins...not supposed to use the comp but rule r made to b broken isnt it? (:
got bac 3 results 2dae.
chinese-62/100, yingyong wen 16/20, zuowen 47.5/70, paper 2 60.5/110. B4
elect geog-64/100,B3
chem-49.5/100,D7 or C6?
erm, how mani actually met my expectations?
yar yar. i want my half mark for chem.

i guess my fate isnt as bad as aaron's. 7 fail 2 pass. pro la he...

im nt looking forward to 2moro. den i ll get my maths bac. the horror. ):

i misplaced (lost isnt a nice word) my purble black pen. yepp. the black pen's that purple. im sad. shld b sumwjher in cr13...clit classrm...i cudnt find it in my pencilcase when i wuz on the mrt...

i miss my pen already...)':

2moro sch!

after 5 daes of holiday, it's school 2moro!
hehh. 5 daes of hols after 5 gruelling daes of exams. actually exams weren't that gruelling. i slacked quite abit.

expected results:
el-b3 or a2 tho my hair raising experience wuznt THAT hair raising...
cl-a2 or a1
emaths-fail...but at least d7 ba
amaths-fail too...mayb an e? hopefully d too(:
chem-b4 or b3...i realli studied hor!
bio-b3 or b2
elect geog-b3 or a2? i haf nvr passed geog b4...
ss-a2 or a1, i dare not gif ms sathi anything worse. she realli put alot of effort into us.
clit-b3 or a2...i'll b realli happi den cuz dere were onli 2 qns on tang shi...wth lor...tt's like, 32 marks? ovr 100. yar.

dese 5 days weren't realli well spent. i cud haf gone out for running or swimming or cycling or anything to like, burn my fats? but instead i stayed at hm, sticking to crunches n skipping, n dose were done onli when i felt like it. bleaghs. so i think i gained more than i lose. die die die.
on a brighter side, i read 2 books! each one within a dae, so it turned out onli 2 out of the 5 daes were realli spent wisely. hmm. Where Is He now? is a nice book. Budden. Bad influence. all the affairs n divorce dose sorta stuff. 2nd book wuz The Da Vinci Code! not tt i hadn't read that before, but i suppose a 2nd read wud b nice. i din like the ending part. made the whole book a luv story instead.
my mum saes blogging's bad. cuz im like, pouring out my private stuff online. like what? jk's death? tt isnt realli private bah. anw, tt's wat blogs r for isnt it? to let others noe ur tots.

ohwells. i think im getting fat.): i've been having ice cream like, almost everydae dese 5 daes...

went out on sat 2 supposedly get a new set of swimsuit. cuz the one i haf now's rather loose. yepp. dere wuz this pink wan wif stripes, halter n boyleg. nice. budden. sizes were either too small or too big 4 mi. awww.
sunday. went to market. whole family. yes yes, i noe it's mothers' dae. but i dun realli care. dere isnt a daughters' dae anw. had breakfast. beancurd. den jus walked ard getting stuff wif my mum. den when we were buying lunch the auntie wuz like, "2dae mothers' dae wat u get 4 ur mum?" i tot 4 awhile. since we were getting noodles, i replied," nthn la, feed her noodles enuf liao."
oh darn. i think my reply wuz dumb. n of cuz i din do as i saed.

i freaking missed the last episode of survivor la! the 1.15 pm wan. encore at 11 budden it's till 2. mayb i'll jus watch the finals n skip the reunion show. but tt'll b till abt 1? blahs. i dun care.

sch 2moro ll most probably b the gifing out of results. no maths. at least the worst's put at the bac. haha.
n dey passed down sum stoopid msg calling all tap dancers to meet in studio at 9am 2moro for costume measurement. hello? 9am? elective geog lesson. how can the rep not be dere. erm. tt's just an excuse. u noe i ll nvr miss lessons for dance. the onli times i did wuz syf n cny i think. yepyep.tt's exactly why i din do well for speech dae n din participate in 88th n nkf. lessons r more impt. dun u ppl out dere try agruing wif mi. i noe. dance rawks. but sch's more impt for mi. cuz im slow in learning. u all clever, u all can learn fast n afford to skip lessons. i carn.

i kinda 4got how to go to sch. walk to mrt station, taking mrt to clementi, walk to nh, n is meeting aaron halfwae part of the routine? i dunno. but sumhow i meet him at the path to nh sumtimes.
honglin's in china liao. hope her grandma or greatgrandma's ok.

sec3 dancers ic for planning of dance camp dis june. haa. i've nvr realli been to a whole dance camp b4. sec 1 i had prize giving. sec 2 i had...4got le lar. but i know i wuznt dere for the whole thing.
dis year's going to b great! i noe it. cuz we wun screw it up like speech dae nemore. we're going to work 2gether, all the 21 gals n ?? guys.we're going to make sure all of u haf a nice time at the camp. oops. isit supposed to b ovrnite?

18th. napfa n deutsch midyr. dey call it the semester test. ehh. tt means i carn go for napfa. cuz it's going to b after school. n it's NOT going to make me miss my test. nthn makes mi miss deutsch. realli. ask the dancers. last yr cny full dress. i din even wait for dance's turn n i left. i had a test tt dae, n i turned up, for the 1st time, in dance tee. haa. speech dae full dress. i stayed till like, 3.30? yar. den took bus dere but wuz still late. so nxt time i noe. latest 3 mus leave nh.

oh mans. this is a long post. shall end it soon.
hu wants to go watch nc16 da vinci wif mi?

one month

it's been one month since saturday, 8 April 2006. I still rmb, tt evening, i went to bugis wif my mum. but meanwhile, a life was taken. n i onli knew on the 10th.
one month. tt's how long i told mrs ng i gave myself to accept. i did it.
one month. so many things has happened. a few gals in 311 haf dyed their hair brown, amber attempted suicide twice, n self mutilated dunno how mani times. we haf also lacked behind the other sec 3 classes by a fair bit in this one month. we haf had class tests, the 29 of us. chem had a few missing people. sports day. green hair! mye. 4 more papers left. chem, ss, amaths, clit. n yar. i made kuala angry by doing dunno wat. he's still rather cold 2wards me now.
his table has been removed, 2gether wif his books n the sweet i gave him. i guess the only stuff we haf of him left bhind r in his locked locker n the profile card on the noticeboard. theleveners.
i still owe him a box of chicken biscuits. i dunno when i'll b able to repay it to him. i don't want it to b too long into the future, i dun want him to wait too long.
yes, i do still rmb 4 Jan. but sumhow it doesnt make a big impact like 8 April. mayb it's true. time heals all wounds.
but this is one wound i wudnt want to heal.